Posted by Carl D (208.4.16.146) on January 08, 2000 at 17:10:03:
In Reply to: REACHED INSANITY posted by KARI on January 08, 2000 at 07:47:55:
I am sorry you are having such a time right now. I know many a time I pleaded to die with these things. Before I had something to abort them with I would literally freak out : Pacing, rocking back and forth punching the floor, grabbing my neck and head and just screaming and crying.
If you are that desperate (which It sounds like you are), Get into your neuro ASAP and tell them you want either something that will work to abort them, or something to deal with the pain.
Most painkillers do not stop the pain of a CH, but can sometimes make it a little more bearable.
Hang in there. Try to make the most of every painfree moment that you can. One thing I have found is that when you are getting slammed left and right and have nothing to control them with, it can play tricks with your mind. If you do nothing, you will dwell on the pain even when you are not in an attack. Try to keep your mind busy.
Are you chronic or episodic? What I mean is do you have attacks for a few weeks, they go away for months and then come back? Or do you have them every day without a period of interruption?
If you are episodic, while the pain is still very real and hard to deal with - know that the light is at the end of the tunnel and relief is around the corner. If you are chronic like I am, try to find qan abortive that will work.
I know how you feel - trust me, I've been at the end of my rope many many times. Right now I am scared because I know the abortive I am using is messing me up and I cannot continue taking for very much longer. When I have to put it down...
your message will probably be my own and hopefully I can take my own advice.
Try to Stay Strong,
Carl D