Posted by Jann (38.28.97.171) on December 24, 1999 at 06:31:06:
I'm glad I found this site for info. and for venting. I seem to need to do the later tonight. I have had a week with high pain headaches. I haven't been able to sleep much this whole week. It seems my best hours with my head are at night. I seem scared to fall asleep cuz the pain is so much worse when I wake up. Besides trying to get ready for 23 people coming to our house the 25th I so much want to enjoy getting ready. But, today was so frustrating for me. I had a level 8 (1-10 on the pain chart with 10 being the worse) and my 19 year was suppose to stop by to borrow some money and she had a fight with her boyfriend on the way here so he dropped her off and she came in with an ATTITUDE and at least she asked if I could take her to get her car, when I said OK she then demanded we leave NOW. I went upstair tried to pull myself together and when I came down she was on the phone with him. So I was again on "her schedule" and she finaly got off the phone and we left. She was rude to me and instead of waiting to make sure her car was fixed properly I just left. I came home and layed down and then tried to do something and layed down again. Then my husband came home. He's usually very understanding about my head but I know he has his limits too and I guess tonight was one of his. He decided to look at the budget and announced I spent to much on Christmas and we need to look at who we can elimate. Like are they gonna drop dead by next year or what?? So I got back to my kitchen and he knew I was upset so he left to go work out. He came home 4 hours later and said he went looking at Christmas lites after he worked out. I was so hurt cuz after bible study Tue. night he started to drive thru a development with tons of lights and knowing I had a bad headache. (We left study early) I told him I just couldn't look at the lights. So he turned around and I felt he was letting me know I disapointed him so he went alone tonight. I know that my family has put up with a lot for about 18 years now but it's been a particual hard week for me and this darn head. I'm sure lots of us feel what a burden we are to those who have to live with us. Maybe tomorrow will be better.