Posted by doug l (152.163.207.183) on August 31, 1999 at 14:07:17:
In Reply to: Thanks for the post Doug... posted by DJ on August 30, 1999 at 18:29:58:
at the time i was learning i was out of control. almost every headache i had i went to the er. i had never had any type of pain or alment before. i did not know how how to cope or deal with them.
re: cindys voice. it gave me a focus point. like the music that some of you have posted about. only i could count on that voice not to change or startle me or to want anything of me.she did not always hold my hand.mostly when they first started. when i reached a point that that would bother me because i needed control, she would just simply let her hand rest on an area like my leg just to reasure me that i was not alone and that she was there to take care of me. insted of banging my head on the wall she would let me hold her tight. (yes i did hurt hur a couple times. hugged too tight.)this was a way to transfer this pain that i could not deal with into positive. love of a friend or spouce anyone you trust compleetly can realy help you to overcome the pain. but, you must trust that person so much that it does not bother you to allow them to see you in your most vunaberal state.
no one eles has ever been able to do that. now i go to my room and run everyone off. i gess with cindy it was the trust we had for eachother as friends.
while having a headache i can tolerate noise only if it does not change. like some have said turn up the tv. but, if someone changes the chanel it feels like they just ramed the antena into my eye.
OUCH!
her voice was my focal point, her touch was the reasurance to me that if anything happened i would be taken care of.
i was in my early 20's and was very scared. at that time i had yet to be dionsed with ch. and, got no explanation from any doctor as to why i was in constant reacuring pain.
i was saved from losing control. i have learned for my self that controling the pain and not leting it control me is one of my best meds.