Posted by Bernadette (205.188.198.44) on August 22, 1999 at 07:07:21:
In Reply to: Some thoughts about the brink of eternity posted by Erik on August 21, 1999 at 21:43:38:
Now I know that I said I wouldn't post again but I must clarify something. I do not judge anyone and when I gave my comments to Elaine that was because I talked to her asking if she believed in God a long time ago. What kind of friend would I be if I didn't remind her about what the Bible says. I know that things get hard and sometimes people feel as though suicide is the only choice. I mean heck in my life time I tried to kill myself more than a few hundred times. I was always in and out of hospitals from the age of 12-25 because all I wanted to do was die. Even lately I have been thinking about suicide because of all the pain that I have been with CH and this horrible infection that has infested in my body but just when I think I am going to do it I remember that Jesus die on the cross for my sins so that I can live and then I think about my husband and daughter. I then realize that I can't kill myself because of the after life with me and my family. I didn't mean any harm, I truly didn't mean to hurt anyone. I don't know how much more of this I can finish because for the first time I am crying because my heart feels broken because people think that I am wrong. Maybe I am to you all but God is all I know, he has saved my life so many other times before and I just wanted to share him with others. I will never say sorry for my love of God but I will say that I am sorry I posted his love. I thought that somehow someway when people would read my words they would feel hope. I'm sorry I made people angry, I guess I just don't belong here. I have lost many friends because I believe in God, even lost a job once because I had a Bible screen saver on so it doesn't surprise me that my talk of God is not welcomed here. Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry for all that I have offended, but God is the head of my life.
B