Posted by ScottL (207.229.173.194) on August 18, 1999 at 22:21:27:
Everyone who comes here has their own emotion and their own needs. Your's seems to be venting a great degree of anger and frustration. Fine. However, if you offer straight-up and honest posts, don't get too pissed when people respond openly and honestly. When people suggest that you cut back on the suicide talk or try to look for ays to cool your often acid posts, they are offering what they consider sound advice that they feel can lead to your better handling your pain. No one here contributed to your CHs or the ravages that the CHs seem to have had on your life. If people here didn't care, they would ignore you or tell you that "hey. everythings ok". Instead, some people give what they consider sound, hard advice. This group is often refered to as a family. In truth, of course, it is not. I will offer help to my 3 sisters and 2 brothers for the rest of my life regardless of how they treat me. However, my concern for others has its limits. I have offered and continue to offer my help to you. However, it hursts me to see how hard you can be on others. Use the board to vent as much as you need to. We all have that right and understand that need. However, please don't feel that any amount of pain or frustration justifies personal attacks. In all, I think most people here have shown you a great deal of campassion and that caring seems to have grown over time. My father, recently departed, was a master at keeping people at a distance by being brutal in conversations. Please let down your defenses enough to be honest about the sources of your rage and allow people to be honest about their responses without fear of attack and ridicule. If you think someone has attacked you, take the high road and let it go. No one here condones those attacks, so they fall on deaf ears. I offer my observations honestly and without reproach. I consider myself in a much more fortunate position than you because I have a good job and my family's support. I am also smart enough to realize that most of that is due to luck. If there is anything I can do, please email me or post. Have faith in yourself and the psople here. Your pain is obvious and everyone hopes it can be lessened soon.