Posted by wynn (205.188.199.39) on August 13, 1999 at 12:14:29:
In Reply to: signs of breaking up posted by Margaret on August 12, 1999 at 20:58:27:
Absolutely a crescendo for me. A loooong slow start of every other day or so, coming more frequently and with more intensity. And after the big bang(s) they drop off suddenly and I get to wallow in the beauty of CH free days and months.
I am currently at that point, the pain free days and sleep filled nights. Now I just sit in fear that they still lurk. Currently I am working on getting my self-esteem back (I am not a bad person, I just have a bad, unsolvable problem.) And I am beginning to think about having that first cold beer in four months (I can almost taste it!)
The drugs have been stored for next year. My wife and child no longer fear my outbursts and rage. I am looking forward to being "normal" again for a while. I missed that part.
None of this is to gloat. I merely am elated at the beauty of what I know is to come. And thanks to everyone for being out there. I found this site mid-series and it helped a lot to know that I was not alone.
Pain free days, ya'll.