Posted by A Dame (205.188.196.21) on August 08, 1999 at 21:56:04:
In Reply to: More from Supporters posted by Jim G on August 08, 1999 at 19:34:29:
I almost made it to 10 years without him knowing how bad I had these darn things. Next month would have been 10 years, however, on December 28th all that ended. He came early on a Sunday morning for breakfast and here I was in all my "Glory" with no where to hide. It scared that 6'3" 225lb ex-Marine to death. He thought I was having a stroke. There I was full blown. If he had called ahead, I would have just told him I had a bad headache and not to come over until later, but he didn't call first. I guess you might say, "I literly came out of the closet on December 28". I know I looked soooooo lovely that morning. Crying uncontrollably, rocking, banging my head, lying in the bathroom floor. I locked the bathroom door so he couldn't come in. He stood outside the door asking me if I was going to be alright. Of course my answer was NO! I am going to die. This time, I am going to die" He kept saying what can I do for you? My answer Nothing, There is Nothing anyone Can Do for Me, I'm going to die. Let's go to the hospital, No, I can't make it to the hospital. It's too far, I can't go. Eventually it came down off its peak and I was able to go to the ER. I wouldn't let him take me, we called a girlfriend and she came and took me. I heard him on the phone with Sara....He said, can you come down here at Susan's, I really think she needs to go somewhere....Sara had seen me in full blown before. Bless her heart, she got up on her day off, the day she could have slept in, and took me to the ER. That trip cost $568.00 ER fee, $120 for ER Physician. My insurance has a $1,000 deduct. on it.
So, I know how your wife wanted to keep her little dark secret.....Been there, done that....
I guess I am a little relieved now that he knows. I feel better about him knowing now. Thanks to this board and all my ranting and raving about it, sometimes he says that is all you talk about now is that Clusterhead bunch. Oh well, sorry I can't control my excitement about all you guys.
Keep supporting your woman. Just you being there means a lot. Most of the time, I am alone, not a sole with me. Don't keep asking her if you can do anything, just bring her cold wash clothes for her face and ice packs. Get a heating pad handy, plugged in and warm...Place on her feet later on. She might be cold after it wears off. Do it without talking if you can. She will know you are there and really apreciate it. Just the fact that you are near by means a lot.
What a nice man you are.
A Dame