Posted by Elaine (209.86.53.41) on August 03, 1999 at 00:36:03:
I have got so much email sence I posted this morning,I will never be able to answer them all. When I posted I told you all I had Cancer. You have all emailed me and I have cried off and on all day. How wonderful to have friends like all of you. I will try to answer all your question in this post.
I found a knot on my breast. Had a biopsy done. It was cancer. I told only Drummer and DJ at the time. More test were done and the cancer had spead to my lung. The day I was given the news I was alone, two wonderful people called to check on me Drummer and DJ. They listen on the phone as I cried from fear. Buddy and I were having some problems and those two wonderful people and this web sight has been all I have had to hold on to.
You have all asked why don't I fight. I feel like I would live longer if I did nothing. I have seen family memebers die fast once treatment was started. This is the way I chose to do it.
Some have said I am tuff and they look up to me. I am not so tuff. I am just me. This is my way of fighting both CH and cancer. I cry, but the last two weeks I have laughted more than I have cried.
One person asked me how much time does the doctor give me. I did not ask the doctor. I did not want to know. I don't think anyone knows the answer to that question.
I have had some say that the news made them cry. Please don't cry for me. I am the happiest woman in the world right now. I have friends that are all over the world. I have great kids and it looks like I still have a marriage. I have been blessed. If I died tonight I would die happy.
Thank you all for the emails, phone calls it means a lot to me. Dr Greg, thank you for understanding your letter was very kind. God Bless all of you.
Your Friend
Elaine