Posted by Todd (63.10.27.120) on July 02, 1999 at 22:03:12:
In the few short weeks I've been hanging out at this board, I've tried to be upbeat, encouraging and positive (most of the time, at least). I'm not one that easily bares his soul and reveals his pain.
I need to go from here for a while. Today, my wife filed for divorce,and though I cannot blame the Demon entirely,he certainly both contributed and took great pleasure in the results of his handiwork. Yes, he came back tonite, despite my having gone into remission just 2 wks ago. His knife it starting to probe my temple as I speak (type), and I know it's just a matter of time until he rears his despicably ugly head in full force.
I first found this site during my last cycle, but couldn't participate then. I'm distressed about posts from those who hang here during a cycle and then leave once it ends. I understand, and respect, their need for the succor this place can offer, but don't understand why they don't hang around while in remission to give back to others. Please understand that this isn't why I'm leaving for now. My whole time here has been during remission, and I have every intention to be here as much as I can. Just can't deal with all that faces me right now.
Keep the shiny side up.
Todd