Posted by Carl D (208.4.16.202) on June 25, 1999 at 16:43:17:
In Reply to: Re: Feeling like a freak on a leash posted by Linda B on June 25, 1999 at 16:14:35:
Im sorry Linda, didn't mean to scare anyone. Sometimes when I want to check the message board and post, I don't have access to a computer (Sold mine last June), or I sink into my chronic depressive mode and "I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everythings meant to be broken, I just want you to know who I am." Some days I'm ready to fight. Other days I deny I'm white. Most days I'm a sore fright, wishing I could finally say 'goodnight'. I have slept 4 hours in five days. Thats pretty normal for me, and yet the quacks wont give me anything for sleep. I have a prescript for stadol nasal spray that I have been sitting on for over three weeks now, as I cannot afford to get it filled. $100.00 . Oh yeah, I went to one of the places that charges you based on your income to try and get some counseling, I make 0 dollars, so they want to charge me $10.00 a session. Ok, so what do I do, knock over an old lady so I can afford to get some counseling? Talk about going mental. How can you charge someone without an income. "We want to help you. Sorry you can't afford your medicine. that will be $10.00." What a world. I can't get any help, but yet If i rob a liquor store, I go to jail and get all my healthcare for free. Its the cell mate I would worry about. So which pain do I settle with, my head or my butt. Sorry to be graphic, but my head is in the gutter right now (along with my spirit). Faking the strong thing....Carl D