Posted by Linda B on May 26, 1999 at 13:57:50:
Thank you to those that wrote are stated something on the board. Hug`s to ya. You know who you are.
I was going through some VERY HARD TIME`S. Needed to do some very deep soul searching. I`m the type of person if I have a problem I have to figure it out as fast as I can an go on with life.
As some of you seen from post yesterday VQ that was me.
I did promise a answer why the vision quest. Found out Friday my so called Hubby just didnt walk out on me. He walked out for another woman. Something I never thought he would do. At least I thought he would have the ball`s to tell me before hand. Instead I found out from some mail I reseaved Friday. He had Viagra sent thourg the mail for him. It was a quit the blow to be. Friday I pulled the most stupides thing a CHer could pull. I got drunk. Trigging a CH attack. Stiil not quit up to par , but getting there. Pushing the water is helping.
So I had to figure out my new goal`s and dream`s in life. Which I have. So now I can go on with life.
I`m not saying it doesnt hurt like hell. It does. Life is to short to dwell on someone that is so low an heartless. I dont have time for it.
They 10 year`s we had where GREAT. It was the last on that was a living nightmare.
So I have seen my new vision`s and I have to say I loved what I saw. Replacing one`s vision`s for another can be hard. Excepting those vision`s with open arm`s. Start`s one going down another path. At first the path is ruff and full of pit fall`s. As you go futher down the path it start`s to smooth out, but still has it`s pit fall`s. Before you know it one day your walking down the path, not even a pebble in sight. The air smelling fresh. You have finally reached the best part. HAPPINESS. A since of almost being reborn.
Right now I`m starting to see the smoothness in my path. Still knowing there will be pit fall`s. Also knowing I will survive and be just fine.
So there you have it. Linda`s back. Someday`s will be better than other`s. But knowing I will be just fine make`s it so much easier.
Hug`s to all Linda B