Posted by Bernadette R. on May 17, 1999 at 14:09:20:
In Reply to: I'm alive but barely, hey has anyone ever heard of dying from CH!! posted by Bernadette R. on May 17, 1999 at 11:47:02:
Well, I don't think that I have in the four years of suffering found people who really care about my well being. I mean don't get me wrong my daughter and my husband care but it's very hard on them. My husband travels a lot so he couldn't be there with me this weekend and my daughter is 12 and at a stage where she is going through changes in her own life and I just don't feel like I have anyone I can talk to. I am so glad that this board is here a place where people really understand the pain. I found this board last year and I just surfed around the site but now this site is a necessity. I need you all so much because I am in so much pain and I feel so alone. I'm scared and I'm tired, I just want to be the mother and wife that I used to be. I want to be that friendly co-worker that everyone gets along with but the past few weeks have been pure hell. I also know that I feel like dying but like Bob said if I committed suicide then I would go straight to hell and there is no ever coming back from that. What I don't understand is why they got so bad this year, I can't even remember going through as much as I have gone through recently. I am never leaving this board again, I see that I need you all for your caring and support. Thank you guys
Bernadette (actually my family calls me Bernie and I would like for my new CH family to call me the same) you see I don't have much of a family besides my daughter and husband so it is really comforting to know that real people are out there that really care. Thank you all :)