Posted by Elaine on May 16, 1999 at 20:33:29:
In between the fights I have with this demon in my head. I collect courage, ammunition and weapons to fight him with. I get all of this from my family and all of you. Each post each email each chat we have I find new courage, more ammunition and new weapons. Then when he comes for me I can fight better. My dear family when he does come I have to go in the ring alone. I have to push him out try to kill him. He is strong. I try to take him out before he takes me out. I can do it because I have all of you behind me.
Buddy our fears are the same. I can't say he won't someday take me out. But he will have a hard time doing it. I will go out fighting. My hopes are I will win. I want to win now.