Posted by Carl D on May 11, 1999 at 09:35:33:
Hi people. Sorry it took me so long to write the letter. Things went pretty crazy - still that way. Slept in my car a couple of days and a buddy of mine found out and freaked. So I moved most of my stuff to Belleville,IL. (which took a week to find someone to help), still have stuff I have to get from the previous place, and my car broke down Sunday. My H/A's are not letting up on me, and It's really taking a toll on me physically and mentally. Have thought about hanging it up a thousand times, but just don't have the balls for it. I was quite overwhelmed when I read the responses to my post.After dealing with all of the pressure and torture I've had to endure, It was a shock to know that people who have never even met me, and don't know me from Adam, would open up thier home to me. I'm not used to encouragement in my situation, and when I saw the posts, I started bawling. You guys mean more to me than you know. And if there is a CH convention, I will sell a kidney to get airfare to be there. Everything is still a little crazy right now. I'm going this morning to file my Disability appeal, and I haven't slept in two days, and had a bad one earlier. It's hard to think when your grogged out from no sleep and a constant dull ache in the back of the head. Eating Vicodins & Verapamil, but to no avail. !5 months and counting. Sorry if I scared anyone with my last post, but this being tortured and being tortured because I'm tortured is enough to drive anyone mad. I have to go for now. Will probably be a couple of days before I see a 'puter screen again. God bless you guy's, And may the H/A's be a thing of the past SOON!
the chronic, Carl D