Today my daughter celebrated her 13th birthday, and this coincided with the first HAs Ive had in almost two and half yrs.  When I remember the state I was in when she was born,  and the hopelessness, and despair I felt because of my clusters which, at that time were very, very bad, with no relief at all, I am reminded that even though it sucks very bad to be dealing with this again, I am grateful for the new treatments available now, that I have learned about on CH.com, and from finding a competant doctor.  My daughter saved my life,  I was going to commit suicide ,all I wanted was to go to sleep forever but then I thought I needed to tough it out a little longer for her. Im glad now I did, because life is worth living, even with the beast lurking over my shoulder again.

Thanks Jerry,

    Thank God for CH.com and O2 and verap, and all the rest that saved me from ending it all 12 yrs ago.  Thanks to everyone...