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As support goes I have only my girlfriend. I have not come clean with this thinking that I would be called insane. She has migraines I tell her that my headaches are a completely different animal. she acts like she tries to understand, but its hard to understand some of the things I do. ( hit myself in the head ect. ) I'm sure that I'm labeled a pill popper now... Recently my girlfriends parents n brother n her come by after I took everything I could find in the house I could find. Was not pretty I don't remember much at all but I was out of it and pissed at the world had a bad cut on my arm from putting my elbow through the glass table and apparently did not mind giving a peace of my mind. So I have them pissed (but my girlfriend I did not fly off on her) and I can't remember much of it. Darn what bad timing    
   Should I try to get more people to understand? Personally I think it is a lot to swallow n difficult to understand. As of now my treatment is only OTC pain meds and a cold can of soda held to my head. I only see the local mental health clinic and I have not come clean with them fearing of been sent off. The caffeine treatment will interact with me so that is not a option. I feel to often my options are to thin 

All of my life I listened to my uncle Laurie pace around the house, often wringing his hands, talking about his fear of death. Guess what? He died at 80.

Can you imagine the loss of quality for his entire life?

After being in practice fo 40-yrs as a mental health type, I surely know about he difficulty of someone breaking the ice and starting to work on their problems. However, in all that time, I never had someone break thru and care for themselves--and then express regret for having taken the risk.