I found that the best way to describe how scary the beast is to me.. is to compare it to the boogie man.. He stands in the shadows, and waits.. you never know when he is going to come out and grab you.

My dad thinks its funny that on my facebook i make it seem like the beast is a person. Example post :so, today.. the beast tried to visit 2 times.. and i threw him out before he got comfortable.. and now.. it's 11:30 and he is trying to say goodnight.. Stupid thing.. never listens when i tell him to just go the fuck home...

I don't know how else to "play it off" it makes me feel better, makes it feel like he can be conquered. I have had a PFD yesterday, and i am praying for one today.. doubt it.. cause it's 8:30 and i am having a shadow..

Oh well.. Thank you all for your support..

Cassandra