Thought they might be rogue hits, but after last night's hits, I am making the decision this weekend whether to go back on Verap or maybe try something else, such as busting.

I would like to try the "alternative" but will see if it comes through for me or not. Made the call so I will wait and see.

I knew my remission would be a short one as my cycles usually last at least one year and this one ended early at the five month mark, with only two months mostly PF except for an odd hit and some very strong shadows.

I have my o2 and am ready to do battle once again, but still so afraid of what's to come. I guess we never get used to the beast and the way it effects our lives.

Thank you Dennis, appreciate your support.
The main reason for not wanting to go with the Verap this time round is we are starting our biking season and I would much rather not be on Verap as my friend Drew37 say's:
"It is like dragging a piano behind you while riding" and although I can ride and exercise on it I am looking to bust the cycle itself.
What have I got to lose, right?

I just did the "alternative" so we will see.

good luck Barry, I hope that the alternative lets you defeat the Beast this round  ...  PFDAN wishes bud.

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Similar circumstances here, Barry.  

After using verap for the first time with a cycle five years ago, tapering off led to heavy shadows for several months.  Two months pf and it started again, but then stayed chronic for four years.  Last fall it miraculously let up so I tapered off the verap, but started again in December.

2005 I experimented with HBW seeds, first a heavy dose, which got me five days pf, then followed with small doses thereafter.  It got me regular periods of pf but did not bust the cycle after over a month's very routine use, so ceased and withdrew back to verap.  I knew though they had an effect and can work.

Anyway, since December this go-round had been getting worse and worse, verap @ 480 daily was not at all cutting it.  With continued hits per night developing into attacks at work also, raising the verap was the next step, except with a new job that had high physical demands, too much exhaustion had me leery to go higher with verap, but ya gotta do something, I had a decision.

I know there can be difficulty busting while in the worst of a time that may be chronic again, so... sorta threw out any protocol of seed-doing.  Ordering 500 RC seeds I took 50 every other day for a week (200), five days pf then back to where I was it seemed.  So followed by 35 every other day after that for a week (about 125).  The last two weeks now have only been very rare slight shadows and one random hit.  Whatever power they had to bust, I was going to use it. The only side effect was a sore stomach that went away several days later.

Not recommending as a method but they stopped a locomotive.  I'm still on 480 verap, which was practically useless a month ago but things are fine now.  I'll taper off very gradually soon if this keeps up and have leftover seeds for future maintaining.  

These can work, Barry.

Good luck, Barry.   I hope you are PF soon.

I also had to make the decision whether to try seeds or go back to Verapamil.  I chose the later and am having success so far.   The side effects suck though. 

Hang in there!

Hugs,

Jeannie

Hang in there Barry.

Many give up too early. If I can help let me know.

You all are so awesome, thanks. Last night I did a second dose and got four hits that were up there on the KIP scale.

I could bail on what I am trying and get on the Verapamil but I still have faith this is going to work for me. It just seems like I have really angered the beast, and that scared feeling is back, but if this works it will be all worth the effort.

PFWDAN to each and every one of you's.

The night following my last post I was continuously hit again (I'm jinxed), but followed the next day with a simple 35 seeds, not letting it get a foothold and have been pretty good since.  It's weakened the hell out of its persistence, requiring much less for continued pf.  I'll do the same again even if it's to get a dead cat bounce, looking to taper off the verap soon.  Stay with it, Barry.  

Hang in there Barry!!!  
I only wish I could at least try the alternative route - I have been on stupamax to keep my chronic migraines at bay for years before the beast stepped into my life... It walked in despite my being on topamax.  I am afraid to detox the to allow the alternatives to work.  Migraines might eat me while I'm having a CH them I'll be screwed.    So I am stuck with Verap & Lithium... seem to be working for now - they help a little.  
I admire your determination and bravery!!  Gotta see if it truly works or it isn't worth it, right!??  Nuthin's easy - esp. with what we've got to work with... Not any easier than starting on any other med anyway - can just think of it like that!!  Takes a few weeks to see if verap works right??  hehe

Wishing you PF times with this new batch, and hoping it sticks!!  

Val

The hits are becoming more frequent and increasing with intensity each day. I was going to dose again this weekend but after much discussion with my best supporter and wife Angie we decided it might be best to start back on the Verapamil and not to dose.

Maybe I did not give this enough time or maybe I needed more of it, but I am getting labeled hard and need to get this under control. I know where I stand with the Verap and slowly getting it back into my system.

The o2 is working but is taking much longer this time around to abort the hits, especially the after I go to sleep hits, they are the worse by far!

I might try this method again with another cycle, but don't know, I will see when that time comes, but for now I am on Verapamil and o2.

PFWDAN to each and everyone of you's.

 Barry

Thanks Dennis. I hope and have confidence the Verap will work again for me, hopefully as well as my last cycle.

I have a script for a pred taper, but would rather not go that route, as it makes me feel real s#*ty, but if I can't take it anymore I will get on it.
Thanks again my friend.