i dont get much sleep, maybe 1.2-3 hrs a night. i stay awake as long as i can because no matter what time i go to sleep he comes to visit soon there after. ive tried not using the morphine because, a. i don't want the dependancy. b. i want to try killawatt3's list and O2,O2,O2.
having said that, i stayed awake until 4am when my body said it was quits after 22 hrs of being awake. layed down, closed my eyes, and BOOM!! it happened. i was in so much pain i did it, i had no other chioce, i wanted to get some sleep. so i took 60mg. 30 min it was gone. so i layed down to catch some zz's. then an hour later i had another, lasted about 30 min. layed back down. then another, this one only lasted something like 10-15 min. awsome! so i went to bed. as soon as i dose off, my downstairs neighbors who are:
3  my friend, his girl, their child----1 room
1  roommate---1 room
1  roommate---1 room
1  friend's brother----couch in living room
2  vagrant and his 2 yr old daughter----posted up indiningroom  on a mattress
1  brothers girlfriend on the couch too.
thats 9 people in a 3 bedroom apartment. after i get my 1.5 hr. of sleep ive got to listen to the vagrant yell and curse at his daughter, their "room" is under my bedroom. this is an eveyday thing, not just today. ive paid my rent a few months in advance with my student loan money, because i try to be smart with that money.
having said ALL this, my question is, if ive signed a lease, paied in advance, in cash. shouldnt i be able to have some peace in my own home? where the vagrant should be in jail and his daughter with social service? this is annoying the shit out of me. i cant even live in my own home. and ive already paid for it. see i thought id still be attedning classes. its a shitty start to an already shitty day. PLEASE GOD let it go up from here. PLEASE.
so, do i leave it alone, or go talk to the landlord nextdoor and tell her EVERYTHING? cuz im about to call the cops on him as i sit here and listen to him yell and cuss and her cry. odd, nobody in that house has said a word to him. because its still happening.
im so tired. from lack of sleep and the morphine. its that er shit. the 12 hr. grrrrrr. so i will feel like tis til 5-6 tonight. does the maddnes ever end in a cycle? ( i know it does, it just seems like it doesn't)
thanks for listening/reading everyone. i think this site has saved my life!! thank you all!!!

i will tomorrow. as i said before i dont/cant work right now. kelsey holds the money so on her day off we are gonna go look for O2. we talked about it last night for a little while a both agree it the best treatment for my wore down body. i will, i sware! i dont lie.

ChefChris wrote on Nov 9^th, 2008 at 9:40am:


She who controls the poon controls the world.

            potter

im not taking the morphine anymore ive decided after my episope this am

If the neighbors are making it hard for you to deal with this, I'd say yes, talk to the landlord... If the vagrant belongs in jail then the landlord probably should know.

The narcs won't do diddly.  BTDT.

Hope you're listening to the folks here.  You've gotta understand--it worries us when we hear about people being prescribed narcotics to control CH--it's not just the addiction issues.  Two years ago, we lost a valued and beloved member here from an accidental overdose on Fentanyl patches. 

There are better ways.

All the best,

George

Chris, Jackie said it. There are occupancy laws for rentals. Speak to your landlord about this sitch. It's hard and it's sad, but so is an overcrowded home!
Fentanyl patches, morphine.........no difference. They can kill, man! Give your body a break, try the melatonin and the Red Bull, get on a routine, and take control of the beast... he's just beating the tar out of you!
I'm glad you're going to get the 02. If you need any help, just ask, ok?

Wishing you a peaceful, PF rest tonight......
Cathi