Sorry I'm new, I have been suffering from headaches for years now. I have many other issues ( should I post all them...? ) I'm not looking for pity just open for advice. I have been involuntaraly sent off twice for suicide crap ( last time a overdose on sleeping and anxiety meds, all months worth at once but I lived ) :( I am hurting myself and loved ones to with it. I feel at the end of my rope often lately. I can't hold a job, lost every thing valuable and feel like a parasite more and more to people that try to help me. I'm court ordered to see a shrink for a while (yay.. not) I can not see a nerolagest, no $ should I be blunt about this to the shrink? I'm scared to be sent off again or be forced ( in the court order I'm must "take meds and only as prescribed" ) to take antidepressents that I can't stand, or the worst be sent off (HATE THAT) any advise?

Read this for starters:

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Welcome to the board Jonathon. Sounds like you've got a seriously full plate. I'm always wary of giving advice, especially to someone with as many issues as you apparently face. It's a daunting task for a specialist, more so for an uneducated bozo like myself! ;)

The depression over the headache pain, been there more times then I care to remember. The "why me" spiral you can get into when you're really getting hammered, that just sucks. Do you have any kind of a support network? Family, close friends? My wife is really good at kicking me in the butt and getting me moving forward again when I start to spiral down. Keeping a tight control on my CH, always having my prevents and my abortives lined up to do battle with the beast, that's my defense against the depression of CH.

What are you using to treat your CH? Do you have a decent prevent med, like Verapamil, Lithium or Topomax? What do you do when an attack starts, Imitrex, Oxygen?

Joe

As support goes I have only my girlfriend. I have not come clean with this thinking that I would be called insane. She has migraines I tell her that my headaches are a completely different animal. she acts like she tries to understand, but its hard to understand some of the things I do. ( hit myself in the head ect. ) I'm sure that I'm labeled a pill popper now... Recently my girlfriends parents n brother n her come by after I took everything I could find in the house I could find. Was not pretty I don't remember much at all but I was out of it and pissed at the world had a bad cut on my arm from putting my elbow through the glass table and apparently did not mind giving a peace of my mind. So I have them pissed (but my girlfriend I did not fly off on her) and I can't remember much of it. Darn what bad timing    
   Should I try to get more people to understand? Personally I think it is a lot to swallow n difficult to understand. As of now my treatment is only OTC pain meds and a cold can of soda held to my head. I only see the local mental health clinic and I have not come clean with them fearing of been sent off. The caffeine treatment will interact with me so that is not a option. I feel to often my options are to thin  :-[

If you haven't been officially diagnosed, that's the first thing you should do. After you've done that, you should:

1. Seek help re: your suicidal tendencies. The vast majority of people here live and thrive despite this condition.

2. Click on the following link (assuming that CH is what you have), print several copies, and present one to each of the people you need to understand your situation:

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All of my life I listened to my uncle Laurie pace around the house, often wringing his hands, talking about his fear of death. Guess what? He died at 80.

Can you imagine the loss of quality for his entire life?

After being in practice fo 40-yrs as a mental health type, I surely know about he difficulty of someone breaking the ice and starting to work on their problems. However, in all that time, I never had someone break thru and care for themselves--and then express regret for having taken the risk.

Thanks for the help, I'm still wondering if I'm gonna open up to the shrink or clam up. I still have over a week before the appointment. Guess I have time to think about it