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(Message started by: Roxy on Jul 22nd, 2003, 1:48pm)
Title: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by Roxy on Jul 22nd, 2003, 1:48pm
Before this last weekend, you could never, ever have convinced me that I could laugh and cry through a hit.  But folks, it is possible, and we have documented proof.... ;)  You could not have convinced me that I would have the ability to wait for the trex to kick in while surrounded by people......but, it's true.  Every time I get hit now.....I will be lonesome..... :-/

Let me explain how a bunch of ch'ers are also the worlds best supporters.

While sitting down on Friday evening to the great dinner we were having.....I get hit.  Being the dumbass eternal optimist that I am, I had brough nothing to the dining room.  DJ was kind enough to run back to the cottage to get a shot, and I high tailed it out to the terrace where I found Linda.  She immediately got me in a chair, and started rubbing that spot (which I'm convinced only she knows about).....I still can't remember what was said (I do know it was something about sex).....but I started laughing and crying at the same time......AMAZING.  Then we started laughing about laughing through a ch....(maybe the next convention we'll laugh more.....don't think we had enough laughter going on... ;) )  She stood the whole time, talked to me.....rubbed my neck.  She is an amazing lady, and those who haven't yet met her are in for a treat.  

To all of those that sat with me, held me, cried with me.....I will never get hit again without thinking of you.  I love you all, and my life will never be the same again.  

I cannot thank you guys enough, and I really wanted to bring everyone home with me..... :-*

Tracey

BTW:  Another thing I did learn....sleeping in a bottom bunk is not a good idea for a clusterhead....LOL..... ;D
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by Linda_Howell on Jul 22nd, 2003, 2:06pm

  I believe it had something to do with finding your G spot Rox........

  Oh God......stop!   my stomach muscles won't take any more.

 After that, Cat got hit and I did the same thing for her and she had the audacity to look up at me with tear stained eyes and ask " How did you know that was the right spot?"    After I slapped her up the side of the head with a DUHHHHHHHH"  look, I got her laughing as well.  Laugh, moan and cry.  Laugh, moan and cry....

              Linda
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by don on Jul 22nd, 2003, 2:11pm
Linda your the best!

If I get hit and you talked to me and rubbed my neck I would..................Well I'd have to kill you. LMAO
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by catlind on Jul 22nd, 2003, 5:23pm
Don, I said the same thing too.  Then I went to this great thing called a convention and was surrounded by CH'ers.

Not only did I not care if they were there with me, I welcomed them when I was getting hit.  They KNOW.  No words need be spoken, without ever skipping a beat with the rocking a med, an o2 mask and ice magically appeared.

A hand to squeeze, a person to rub the base of your skull, someone to just sit there in the room with you.  Never would have thought I could have that.  But it was there, and it was welcome.

Being alone during a hit was always the way I wanted it. Now I want my clusterbuddies ... not just here on the board, I want them to hold my hand, rub my neck, and give me the most loving caring tear filled hug afterwards that anyone could ever experience.

Thanks to my clusterbuds for helping me through.  BillyJ, Linda, Roxy, Mast, and DJ were my clusterbuds this weekend.  Each of them was there for me or with me in one way or another while I was getting hit.  To each of you I thank you from the center of my soul, I love you all and would not trade my ch for anything if it meant I'd have to give up a single one of you.

Cat
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by Roxy on Jul 22nd, 2003, 6:59pm
Don, you would be surprised at how you really don't mind clusterheads around.  The first time I got hit after arriving, jonny was right there fixing the 02 up for me (damn he's fast.... ;D), DJ was right there with my shot, and Cat and Mast had ice for my head before I even knew I wanted it.  They held my hand through the whole thing.....and I never wanted to smack any of them...LOL.

The one person that I didn't mention in the first post (cause I knew she would hate it), was my bunkbed buddy.  I think one night I rocked her right out of the top bunk.... ;)  She sat with me through the night, when it was really bad, and she can sure give a sweet injection (all those veterinarian years).  Of course, she was starting her cycle too.....and for some reason, she wouldn't let me shoot her up!!   LOL
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by don on Jul 22nd, 2003, 8:03pm
The concept of anybody being around me, let alone a group, is completely foriegn to me.

Many, many, many years of dancing alone I guess.
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by Linda_Howell on Jul 22nd, 2003, 8:13pm

And that's because you've never been to a convention Don.   Believe me.........None of us thought it was possible.

      Just leave me the fuck alone comes to mind.


I got hit in front of Susie and she was great. Had never seen anyone else get hit before.  There's just this...don't know how to explain it kind of thing.  I guess.....just a total understanding/no embarrassment thing.

and BTW, it's not so much rubbing the neck as it is that special spot to put pressure on.  

Linda
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by M.R. on Jul 22nd, 2003, 8:52pm
I want to thank the people on the golf course. I also am the type to say "leave me the f**k alone, I'll be okay", but it was different with people that understand. Thanks Dave for the nasal trex, and who ever came up with the pill. And to Brad for chasing them down, keeping me from doing both at the same time (I would of at that moment) and the ice towel. To Billy who tried to drive the cart as nice as possible (thats a feat) and who put up with me in the cart. And to Joe who gave me a 37, best score of my life. Sorry to slow you folks down behind me.  Next year I'm starting the Pred. (or whatever I'm taking at the time) 2 weeks earlier.
   I owe you all a heartfelt thanks.
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by Ree on Jul 22nd, 2003, 10:41pm
That is exactly what it is all about Cat... Understanding and caring for someone that you love that is hurting... some of my earlier times getting flamed was when I told people how I helped Dave get through an attack.  You guys acted (and I witnessed it) the same way that I do... You told your friend/suffererer that it would end that they could do it and you got them what they needed... You guys can really understand our side now! Yay.......... M. R.  How many times did I call you by the wrong name...... Dave says your welcome and it was great also meeting you this weekend love to you all ree
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by Mastifflvr28 on Jul 22nd, 2003, 11:11pm
Like I said in my previous post...I'd never change sides with a supporter.
You can't know what a supporter goes through unless you become one yourself.  I've never seen an attack before and I cannot BELIEVE how helpless I felt.  And you won't believe it either until you see a hit.


I'll stay the sufferer until the next convention,

Oh yeah...slumber party, my house, tonite :)
Mast
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by DJ on Jul 23rd, 2003, 12:04am
Those of you that were around several years ago when I experienced my first hit as a 'supporter' with Elaine will remember it was a life changing experience for me.  I publically said 'thank you' and apologized to my bitch ex wife for all of the years she suffered with me.

You can not understand what it's like to be on the supporter's side of a cluster headache until you've been there in person!

To Margi, Bonnie, Ree, Cootie, Deb, and all of the rest of the supporters out there, you are the REAL HEROS!

You think it's hell suffering with cluster headaches?  Until you've seen it from both sides, you will NEVER truely understand just how horrible it is!

DJ
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by catlind on Jul 23rd, 2003, 9:49am
Amen to that DJ.

I'll take the pain of the CH HANDS DOWN to the pain of a supporter.

Clark has a whole new respect from me.  Each and every one of you that is a supporter are truly real heros.

Cat
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by vig on Jul 23rd, 2003, 9:55am
So it is proper that all CHers be cross-trained as supporters as well.

$.02

-p
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by nancyc on Jul 23rd, 2003, 10:39am
I will always remember how DJ encouraged us in Atlanta to experience someone else having a ch...then and only then could I understand what my son, my exs and my family and friends and Toby had suffered with me..thanks DJ for that reminder again. smiles, nancyc ps wish i could have been there this year!
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by Roxy on Jul 23rd, 2003, 11:21am

on 07/23/03 at 09:55:41, vig wrote:
So it is proper that all CHers be cross-trained as supporters as well.


From what I saw, I don't think there is any training necessary, the ch'ers automatically knew the right things to do....no extra words were spoken, just quietly and capably everything was done that needed to be done.  Everything seems to come naturally.....everything except the pain of watching someone you care about hurt so bad, and feeling so damned helpless that you can't make it stop for them.  

It's much easier being on the receiving end of a hit than being on the supporting end.....I do realize that now.
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by vig on Jul 23rd, 2003, 12:42pm
There's no award.  We're splitting hairs.  They both suck.

I've been both.
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by Elaine on Jul 23rd, 2003, 4:14pm
I am so glad to see your post Roxy, I learned the same way you did I could laugh and cry at the same time durning a cluster.

I watched helplessly as you and the others got hit. I still like to go hide when I get hit. Drummer was the first person I saw get hit and I remember his words to this day. He warned me ahead of time not to touch him, or he would have to kill me LOL, so I kind of back off when people get hit. I know the night the doctor was there with you and you were getting hit it brought me to tears, so I had to leave.

I am so gald I roomed with you. You are wonderful! I just fell in love with you.

Big hug goes out to you lady!
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by Mastifflvr28 on Jul 23rd, 2003, 10:27pm
I wasn't sure about the touching thing.
I'm still not sure if I'd accept anyone being around me with a hit.

I dared to put my hand on Cat's leg during her hit and she grabbed my hand so fast and held on for dear life.
Best feeling in the world for me at that moment.

Mast
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by catlind on Jul 24th, 2003, 8:16am
Dammit Michelle, ya made me cry again!   :'(

Gawd when is this gonna get better.  I have been mostly avoiding the convention post partum blues by keeping busy with getting the information typed up.

I'll tell you all now, that after I get that done, and the final stuff is finished from the convention, and after I have moved, and Clark is gone and I'm alone, that's when I'm gonna fall, and I'm gonna fall hard.  So when I disappear for awhile, I'm ok, just trying to cope with being alone.

Dammit, I gotta stop this crying!

I love you all so much!  The impact my roomies have had on my life is beyond words.  The impact everyone of you has had on my life is unbelievable!

Not one of you, and I mean not a single one of you! better ever hurt yourselves because of this, you would completely and totally devastate me as if my own husband or child were to hurt themselves!

Cat
Title: Re: Laughing Through a Hit
Post by Ree on Jul 24th, 2003, 7:15pm
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW you guys........... awesome posts.  What a family... ree


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