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(Message started by: Mikey on Mar 24^th, 2003, 9:15am)

Title: Life before CH
Post by Mikey on Mar 24^th, 2003, 9:15am

Here i sit, trying to remember what life used to be like before CH. I'm a 36 Yr old chronic father, married, 2 sons, Derek 16 and Corey 12. I used to be a very outgoing and energetic type of guy, who liked to forward this to his family in a big way. I used to do all of the chores any other man would do. I used to sleep laying down flat in a soft bed with my wife, without the fear of being awaken by excruciating pain. I used to get up in the morning, after a good night sleep, having rested and getting ready for a day at work, just like any other man would do. Then I remember coming home from work and meeting my family for dinner, and enjoying it without pain. Then I remember how I would get a little rowdy with my boys, maybe out in the yard wrestling around or playing football and playing with the dog, throwing her ball for her. Sometimes even a board game with the boys too. Then do some up keep around the house if needed.

Then I would spend the rest of the evening with my beautiful wife, talking about or day, hugging, playing, just having an overall pleasant evening with each other going to bed snuggle to sleep together without interruption.

Now, as i sit here, a pain has just shot right through the back side of my eyeball, stabbing, burning. It is trying to blast away my precious moment of memory and thought. I'm trying to hold on, but it's pulling harder and harder, faster and faster. It sneaks up on you like a prowler in the night. Now my beautiful moment has been snatched away from me! The pain is relentless, I can't stand it anymore, but I have no choice I must take another breath or die. Now I become confused, which one of those 2 things would be the better of the choice?

Then, the attack subsides, and I live to have my precious memories and thoughts again, and most likely, to be interrupted, again.

Mikey, :'(

Title: Re: Life before CH
Post by echo on Mar 24^th, 2003, 9:29am

I too often think of those days -- waaaay back when I didn't know what a CH was, or that they even existed.
Seems like a life time ago.

Title: Re: Life before CH
Post by jonny on Mar 24^th, 2003, 7:05pm

I dont remember those days, got this shit at 14 so thats a memory I dont have. Bummer!

................................jonny

Title: Re: Life before CH
Post by suzy617 on Mar 24^th, 2003, 7:10pm

Sorry your in so much pain Mikey. You must always keep in mind the pain free moments and what they have meant to you. Don't ever give up on that.

suzy

Title: Re: Life before CH
Post by 2late on Mar 24^th, 2003, 7:15pm

i'm hopin' you get some relief, it's really hard to remember what life was like before, kinda like life before kids, don't really remember but i know it was alot easier. ..........Jack

Title: Re: Life before CH
Post by Mikey on Mar 24^th, 2003, 7:44pm

Thanks Guys, I was really down when I wrote this one.

Mikey, just pissed off now!! >:(