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(Message started by: Melissa on Feb 26^th, 2008, 6:37pm)

Title: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Melissa on Feb 26^th, 2008, 6:37pm

#@$@$#$%#$^%##^$^#$&%*(*
$%$^^^#W%^#@$%*&^%$#@#$%^
)(&^%$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>:( >:( >:( >:( >:( >:( >:( >:( >:( >:( >:(

DAMNSONOFABITCHFUCKINSHITCRAP!!!

Sorry. I'm ok now. Really.

Back to your regularly scheduled program... :-[

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Annette on Feb 26^th, 2008, 6:38pm

So sorry Mel ! What terrible timing ! :-/

Sending prayers and vibes and hugs [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Melissa on Feb 26^th, 2008, 6:42pm

Annette, don't worry, I'm not in cycle...yet.

Just a whole lotta shit piling up right now. I'm tired, in pain, tired, anticipating PPD AND my cycle, and am hoping to God it holds off for at least 2 weeks after I have my baby. I can't handle a newborn, vertigo, anxiety and CH's all at once. So I got that on my mind in addition to sitting around here with this big ass lump on my belly. I'm getting paranoid about her not being "ok", that something is going to be wrong with her.

OMG I'm a mess plus I'm not getting much sleep.

I can't be fucking cheery all the time!!!!

Sorry. :-[

almost forgot to add acid reflux. Not that it matters, just thought I'd get it out on paper...er, black squiggles...

*sigh*

People must perceive me as an attention wh0re. I'm so sorry, after Ava's born, I'm sure I won't be online much, so you all won't have to worry.

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Guiseppi on Feb 26^th, 2008, 6:54pm

after Ava's born, I'm sure I won't be online much, so you all won't have to worry.

Oh yeah, cuz we'll let you go awol....NOT!! Sending all of the warm fuzzies I have your way, take care.

Guiseppi

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by lilboo on Feb 26^th, 2008, 6:58pm

Oh Mel, sorry your going through all that. I sure hope you continue to post after Ava's born, I'm looking forward to seeing some pics.
I know I don't post much but I like reading your posts, you usually bring a smile to my face.
Sending good vibes your way.
Kathy

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by George_J on Feb 26^th, 2008, 7:00pm

On the one hand, I'm really sorry to hear you're going through a rough patch, and I hope that all will be well very soon.

On the other hand, I will be careful to stay out of your way. ;)

All the best,

George

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by jimmers on Feb 26^th, 2008, 7:08pm

Mel,

Do me a favor. Spread your arms out shoulder height, wrap them around an imaginary friend and give a big Ol hug! that would be me and Barb!

We know times are rough right now and things may not be going so well, but the hug is there girl and we love ya!

P.S. I need the hug to!

Jim and Barb :-*

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Annette on Feb 26^th, 2008, 7:08pm

Things can get overwhelming Mel and you do have SOOO much on your plate right now.

You are most definitely not an attention seeker. We all love you and care for you and thats why we keep asking how you are doing.

The last few days of pregnancy are terrible. You feel so heavy and bloated, back pain leg pain tummy pain galore and you just cant get into a comfortable position! I remember asking my obstetrician to please do a caeserian because I couldnt cope anymore. He gave me this look which made me want to strangle him at the time ! :P

And yes the looming fear that things might go wrong. However, thats just the products of a tired and worried mind. You know in your heart that Eva is just fine and she is just enjoying her warm, safe, comfy environment right now. She will come out soon enough.

Hang on there Mel, and pour it all out. Dont hold anything in because sharing will help make you feel better. You are surrounded by friends and family who do genuinely care here. Just be yourself, however you feel now, dont have to be upbeat and cheerful at all, we understand.

HUGS and more vibes going your way. :-*

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Jackie on Feb 26^th, 2008, 7:21pm

Hang in there, Sweetie and Hang on!!! Not much longer to go. Things will be just fine. It's getting really long by now but it's gonna be just dandy real soon.

Love & a big hug to you...
Jackie

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by E-Double on Feb 26^th, 2008, 7:23pm

%$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_

That makes me feel like

))(*&^%$#@!

Ya know what I mean?

Sometimes it is more like $%$##$%^ while other times it is more like !@#$)(*&$^*&

It's really weird but the worst for me is _+#(%*!+-=0)

It's all good and know that you will be fine and your bundle will be fine and life is damn good

Ya know what I'm sayin'?

Title: e: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Melissa on Feb 26^th, 2008, 7:57pm

I took a box of kleenex, shut the door to my bedroom, crawled up on my bed and had a good cry.

Now I come back on here and I'm crying some more, but then I read Erics post, LOL!

I love you guys sooooooooooooooo much!!!! :-* :-*

Jimmers- [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Ray on Feb 26^th, 2008, 8:03pm

Melissa:

We love ya, we're here, and we can take it. Don't hold back, let it all out.

Did I mention that we love ya?

Ray

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by barry_sword on Feb 26^th, 2008, 8:14pm

Hi Mel! [smiley=wave.gif] It won't be long now, hopefully sooner than I predicted.

I really enjoy reading your posts. So please stay with us as much as you can after Ava is born.

Here is a hug for you and Ava. [smiley=hug.gif] [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by PollyPocket on Feb 26^th, 2008, 8:20pm

Hang in there kiddo!

and I'm usually sayin #$*&^%%$)_!$$(%^ even before my feet hit the floor in the morning so I can appreciate ::)

hugs your way hon.

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by cosmicfunkfather on Feb 26^th, 2008, 8:22pm

Hi Mel.... hang in sweetie.Its get like that sometime [smiley=hug.gif] [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Redd on Feb 26^th, 2008, 8:22pm

The roller coaster of hormons/emotions has begun my Sister...

It won't be long now.... ;)

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Kevin_M on Feb 26^th, 2008, 8:23pm

Yes, Eric does have a point. Lots of things we may worry about never happen. Be ok Mel, things that are tough become well worth it, amiable, and can overshadow difficult feelings previously amassed wanting things to be ok.

luvya Melly :) :-*

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by DonnaH_again on Feb 26^th, 2008, 10:24pm

If it's OK with you, Mel, I'd like to use your word (DAMNSONOFABITCHFUCKINSHITCRAP!!!") when I'm really stressed.

You're almost home free now girl and I hope you have that camera all set to capture Ava's birth......you must post those in the delivery room that aren't rated "private", or "private's".

You've got to know that we all love you and will be looking for your posts.

Now, breath in, breath out, phu, phu, phu. There you go, keep the rhythm.

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by kcopelin on Feb 26^th, 2008, 10:38pm

Mel,
During my final days of pregnancy I found myself doing hideously mean things, like ripping all my hubbys popular mechanics magazines into tiny shreds and feeding them to the fire (that'll teach him to come near me with that thing again) I jumped up and down (but ended up just wetting my pants.) I went for a very bumpy boat ride-got seasick. Finally, when not another person on earth could stand to be around me, including myself, labor began.
I reiterated the threats about coming near me "with that thing" again.
Then my daughter was born.

Love at first sight and every single uncomfortable, irritated, bloated panicy moment was forgotten.

Hang in there Melissa,
(((hugs)))
kathy

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by nani on Feb 26^th, 2008, 10:53pm

on 02/26/08 at 19:23:33, E-Double wrote:

I know, huh? ;)

Hang in there, melly... :-*

big hugs, nani

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by broomhilda on Feb 26^th, 2008, 11:08pm

pssttt hey Mel!

Big [smiley=hug.gif]'s my friend!

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Grandma_Sweet_Boy on Feb 27^th, 2008, 5:53am

It wong be long now, little one. Hang in there.

Hugs
Carol

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by lionsound on Feb 27^th, 2008, 6:48am

[smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: e: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by BarbaraD on Feb 27^th, 2008, 7:07am

on 02/26/08 at 19:57:42, Melissa wrote:

Ok, ya'll get ready -- the crying's started - Ava's getting ready to make her appearance.... Granny's "hunch" - sure sign... won't be long now....

Get your bag packed Mel.....

Hugs BD

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Langa on Feb 27^th, 2008, 7:19am

Ava will be fine and you'll get through this. Promise!

By the way, any family going to be around to help after Ava's birth? Always good to have that extra help around especially if you're anticipating PPD.

Love ya,
Langa

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Melissa on Feb 27^th, 2008, 8:11am

Kathy- ROTFL @ "that thing"!!! OMG, ;;D

Donna- you can use it anytime you want. I'm 100% sure I'll be using it again myself, lol. :)

Langa- Jesse is taking a week off, I have my neighbor lady who will be checking in on us a lot. The day after I have the baby I'm starting up my Cymbalta again, hence the vertigo. ::) I'm hoping with a taper up that I can avoid it though (taking a pill every other day at first).

Everyone- The support you all are giving me right now make this part of my life easier to go through. Right now I am not me, I usually don't lean on others, but a very smart woman who no longer comes to this board told me once that I just have to take it, smile and say thank you. No matter how much I feel like I'm being weak when I do.

So, thank you!

Thank you for all the hugs, the understanding, the patience, the prayers and for just letting me "get it out" without calling judgment. :'( :) [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Rosybabe on Feb 27^th, 2008, 10:00am

hormones, hormones, hormones, I hate hormones >:(...Ava is ready Mel :), she will be here real soon ;) and you will not remember the pain and discomfort when you get to kiss your little miracle :-*

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by midwestbeth on Feb 27^th, 2008, 10:12am

Awww Mel. Hugs [smiley=hug.gif]

It won't be long until you are feeling much better.......

Beth

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Peppermint on Feb 27^th, 2008, 10:35am

Melo... just try to breathe and stay as mellow as possible, you are going to be fine!

For the PPD thing, its scary to anticipate having been through it once. Even if Jesse is taking a week off, and you have that neighbor come by, any extra hands you can get your hands on will be great.

If your insurance covers it, you may want to think about getting a post-natal "nurse" or in home attendant, if you do feel the ppd coming on strong. I know if I ever had another one, I would look into it as a possibility (depends on your health insurance though).

Ava baby will be here soon, so just think of her tiny little fingers and her pursed little lips and it may keep you on the sunny side ;)

BIG HUGS,
Pepp

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by Melissa on Feb 27^th, 2008, 10:38am

on 02/27/08 at 10:35:51, Peppermint wrote:

so just think of her tiny little fingers and her pursed little lips

Oh that made me smile and tear up! :)

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by cash5542 on Feb 27^th, 2008, 11:55am

More hugs and well wishes. You are about to close this chapter of your life and open another fullof suprises and joy!

Charlotte

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by sandie99 on Feb 27^th, 2008, 12:01pm

Lots of hugs and great feeling vibes your way, Mel! [smiley=hug.gif][smiley=hug.gif][smiley=hug.gif][smiley=hug.gif][smiley=hug.gif]

Wishes,
Sanna

Title: Re: %$#^$%^&*(*%^$#%^&#$R%^T*()&*_
Post by HappyElaine on Feb 27^th, 2008, 12:03pm

Your baby will be here soon, he is just so warm and cozy inside you he doesn't want to leave. :) You two will be eye to eye soon. It will be such a special time.