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(Message started by: artonio7 on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:08pm)

Title: Someone please tell me.
Post by artonio7 on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:08pm

Will there ever be light at the end of this never ending tunnel to hell?

I'm about sick of it all. [smiley=eek.gif]

Tony

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by AussieBrian on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:11pm

There's light, mate. There's always light.

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Kirk on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:15pm

Yes there is. There has to be.
[smiley=smokin.gif]

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by tessistired on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:18pm

Tony,

There is always light at the end of any tunnel despite what it may seem.

I am here for you my dear friend whatever you need that I may help you with just let me know please!!

KEEP THE FAITH!!!!

Tess

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by George_J on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:18pm

Sometimes it's pretty dim over that way, ain't it?

I think we carry our light with us--but you know that. Because that's what you do, from everything I've seen.

Best wishes,

George

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Maffumatt on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:24pm

Oh theres light, to bad there are so many damn tunnels though. Keep fighting the good fight my friend.

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by HeadhurtinMama on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:25pm

Tony, I find the light gets a little brighter with some chocolate ice cream, fuzzy slippers and some bugs bunny toons. I'll do a little of each in your honor tonight. [smiley=hug.gif]

Bridget

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Sean_C on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:33pm

I'm living proof there is ;;D

Good days & bad days Tony, we all have them ;)

Hang tough bud.

Sean..............................

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Grandma_Sweet_Boy on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:34pm

Tony - some days ya just gotta kick a$$ and take names.

Hang in buddy - there is indeed light at the end of the tunnel.

Sending you giant sized PF wishes!

Carol

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Jackie on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:40pm

You know there is light, Sweetie.....you know it!!!!!

Hang in there and keep lookin'....... :-*

Love & Hugs....
Jackie

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Jonny on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:44pm

on 01/08/08 at 19:33:16, Sean_C wrote:

I'm living proof there is ;;D

Ditto, 30 plus years chronic and then poof!

Ive had some visits since, but NOTHING like it was before!

Hang tough, bro!

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by PollyPocket on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:46pm

its there sweets. Fight when you can, rest when you can, but never stop looking forward to seeing that light.

Love ya Tony. I'm here sending vibes to ease your way.

Jen

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by cash5542 on Jan 8^th, 2008, 7:56pm

(((((((HUGS))))))) Hang in there! You were always so much help when Lisa coudn't find the light either!

Charlotte

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Annette on Jan 8^th, 2008, 8:00pm

There is always light my dear brother, even when you cant see it and dont feel like searching for it. Sometimes its as close by as the next turn in the tunnel, you may not have to go to the end to find it ...

I also found that the more you let out the darkness within, the pain, the feeling of despair, the doubt, the anger, the frustration ... whatever, then the easier it is for the light to find you.

Please rant, whinge, yell, cry, complain, kick pillows and punch mattresses ..... pour it all out to us here and it will make the load just a little bit lighter for you so that you can get to that next turn in the tunnel quicker.

HUGS !! LOTS OF LOVE !! PRAYERS !! VIBES .... in megaloads coming your way ... :-* :-* :-*

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by BlueMeanie on Jan 8^th, 2008, 8:05pm

Hang in there Tony. It IS possible and don't ever think it's not. There are many of us here that are proof of that.

22 years of cycles every year, then POOF... 4 year PF anniversary today.

Keep the faith.

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by chewy on Jan 8^th, 2008, 8:18pm

Repeat after me:

It will end.

It will end.

It will end.

It will end.

It will end.

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by BMoneeTheMoneeMan on Jan 8^th, 2008, 8:44pm

Bro, I have learned the light at the end of the tunnel is inside my skin.
I AM the light at the end of this tunnel.

Course, that doesn't help you, but you get what I mean.
;)

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by barry_sword on Jan 8^th, 2008, 8:54pm

Sorry Bro! :'( I am so there for you!!

Barry [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Sean_C on Jan 8^th, 2008, 9:05pm

on 01/08/08 at 20:18:47, chewy wrote:

Repeat after me:

It will end.

It will end.

It will end.

It will end.

It will end.

LOL I say;

Please make it go away

Please make it go away

Please make it go away

Please make it go away

;;D

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by artonio7 on Jan 8^th, 2008, 9:07pm

Hello friends. Thank you all for your kind words of hope, encouragement and good wishes.

The headaches are fairly frequent and thanks to o2 I'm not having to endure anything past a KIP 6. Of course I have much to be grateful for... many of you here are responsible for my getting the o2 to use as an abortive. Many of you nagged me relentlessly until I had little choice... and when I finally did get the o2 it made a world of difference to my existence. Again thank all of you for making any effort in this matter.

My current state is a terrible depression. It's difficult to see any hope right now and it hurts like hell. I have been trying to stay positive and supportive. I'm very reluctant to post this because I hate to add to the nightmares that you all already go through... I also do not wish to appear weak or a drama queen...

Please... you don't even have to respond to this... just please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I'm afraid that I am spiraling down further than I can ever recover from. I AM NOT GOING TO HURT MYSELF or ANYONE ELSE.
I just want your prayers.

Thank you for listening to me whine.

with warm regards,
Tony

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by andrewjb on Jan 8^th, 2008, 9:07pm

:), stay strong tony. andrew.

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Rosybabe on Jan 8^th, 2008, 9:14pm

Dear Tony, you are in my prayers. Please keep that chin up. Remember you are not alone. we are here for you.

:-* Rosy.

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Paul98 on Jan 8^th, 2008, 9:18pm

on 01/08/08 at 19:44:14, Jonny wrote:

Ditto, 30 plus years chronic and then poof!

Ive had some visits since, but NOTHING like it was before!

Hang tough, bro!

Walking proof! Never give up hope!

-P.

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Annette on Jan 8^th, 2008, 9:30pm

Lighting a candle for you and prayers coming your way Tony. I will keep praying until you are completely well again.

Share the hurt around and it will be a bit easier. Speak about it helps too. Its most definitely not a sign of weakness or being dramatic, its human, and its good !

Let us have your back while you put up your feet for a break. You have been fighting tough for a long time. Relax now and let other people row the boat for you while you rest.

HUGS

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by purpleydog on Jan 8^th, 2008, 9:32pm

Tony, this happens to many people this time of the year. I get affected by lack of sunlight in the winter in most years. Add to that, the fact I wake up in pain every morning, and don't want to move, let alone get out of bed and go to work. And my freaking doctor wouldn't give me any anti-depressants (ass hole).

I know how you feel. All I can offer is to keep getting out of bed every day. Hit the shower. And try to go for a walk, or get some form of exercise, it does help. And keep warm.

Don't worry about us, we'll still be here to give you a hard time when you need it. ;;D

[smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by DennisM1045 on Jan 8^th, 2008, 10:19pm

Tony,

You will find a way to get through this. Just vent away here all you want. We're here for you. Many vibes and prayers coming your way brother.

-Dennis-

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Jimi on Jan 8^th, 2008, 10:27pm

You have them Tony. What Chris said is true about the winter months and depression. You might want to consider anti-depression medications if it continues much longer. :-/

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by nani on Jan 8^th, 2008, 10:48pm

Oh sweetie...here's some light at the end of the tunnel. And me there waiting for you. (OK, it would be me if he was shorter, fatter and female... it's hard to find chubby Latinas with light at the end of a tunnel...)
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v203/nani36/23485311.jpg

I think I know where you're coming from, boo. Been there, done that...doing it again. Just remember to laugh. A lot. At everything...even the really sad stuff. I know your sense of humor can keep your head above water. Call if you feel like you want to talk.

Remember, we've got your back. Lean when you need to.

hugs and love, nani

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Cathi_Pierce on Jan 8^th, 2008, 10:57pm

Tony,
Someone once told me he was careful not to go too near the fire. Of course it was a metaphor, but it doesn't matter when you are so close to it!
You have been every else's ray of sunshine.......and look what you have accomplished, man! Why, you went to Norway to see our Mad Viking......and a lot more than just that! Drag out those memories, remember what you overcame to make that trip......not to mention..........err......the last Convention, right?
Push comes to shove, you have a pm........use the number my friend........
Now, inhale and exhale, repeat as necessary and DON'T EVER LET THE BEAST WIN! EVER!

Love and PF wishes,
Cathi

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Langa on Jan 8^th, 2008, 11:22pm

Been where you're at Tony. It's awful. But I forced myself out of bed, go for a walk and do the things I like to do...like baking. Oh yeah, a little anti-depressant helped. I'm still on it, working out every day and start working next week. Now to explain to the new boss about the CH's should they arrive early??? :-/ We'll see.

Hang in there,
Langa

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by kcopelin on Jan 9^th, 2008, 12:53am

Tony,
You have been such a blessing to me any others here. I understand the depression, and its reasonable to assume that there may be some chemical imbalances at work here. Please consider anti-depressants if this doesn't lift really soon.

You're in my prayers, brother.
kathy

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Charlie on Jan 9^th, 2008, 1:13am

I know you probably feel that the light at the end of the tunnel is that of a locomotive but it ain't.

I found it to be the case as I've been pain free since 1991 after nearly 23 years. No one was more surprised than I but I I ain't complaining. It will get better.

Lots of vibes Tony.

Charlie

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by mummymac on Jan 9^th, 2008, 2:23am

Quote:

My current state is a terrible depression. It's difficult to see any hope right now and it hurts like hell. I have been trying to stay positive and supportive. I'm very reluctant to post this because I hate to add to the nightmares that you all already go through... I also do not wish to appear weak or a drama queen...

Tony

I know this is the worst feeling ever and you feel you will never feel normal again.

BUT I promise you that you will, slowley and surely it gets better day by day.

Make the effort no matter how hard

GET UP, GET SHOWERED, GET DRESSED

and most importantly talk to people, in the flesh, on the phone and here on this board it will all help.

Baby steps will turn into bloody big ones.

Belive and I will belive for you

love and hugs

Tanya

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by zwibbs/Scott on Jan 9^th, 2008, 6:32am

Tony , There is always light---sometimes it's hard to see it. Hang Tough--better days are directly ahead of you.

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by barry_sword on Jan 9^th, 2008, 7:34am

Tony, you will be in my thoughts today and I will be praying you get some relief from the hits. Hang in there, we are all with you on this. May you catch a break soon bro!

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Melissa on Jan 9^th, 2008, 8:24am

on 01/08/08 at 19:08:49, artonio7 wrote:

Will there ever be light at the end of this never ending tunnel to hell?

Yup. Some tunnels are just longer than others, but the end result is the same. Gotta have patience and optimism and live your life inbetween, kwim? ;)

*hugs*

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Ghost on Jan 9^th, 2008, 8:43am

on 01/08/08 at 21:07:28, artonio7 wrote:

You and everyone here always have my prayers, everyone here is my lifeline.

Mike

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Ray on Jan 9^th, 2008, 8:51am

Dear Tony:

You can count on my prayers, my friend. I too have depression, so I can feel your pain. I'm here for you and feel the love being sent! My best wishes for you.

Ray

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by thomas on Jan 9^th, 2008, 8:54am

on 01/09/08 at 08:24:19, Melissa wrote:

Yup. Some tunnels are just longer than others,

Have to agree with Mel on that one. Sometime it just seems soooooo hopless, but you've got to hold on to those things that make the fight worth fighting. This is temporary, who you are and those who you love and love you, are forever. It's like a piece of iron in the forge, beat up, melted, almost destroyed, but comes out into something stronger than it was before and with a purpose. Hang tough.

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by alienspacebabe on Jan 9^th, 2008, 11:13am

on 01/09/08 at 08:24:19, Melissa wrote:

Some tunnels are just longer than others, but the end result is the same.

Well said, Mel! Never thought of it that way.

Tony, remember: it always ends. I'm here for you until it does.

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Post by sandie99 on Jan 9^th, 2008, 11:18am

((((((TONY))))))

You wanted prayers and you'll get plenty of mine, that's for sure. Depression is a nasty side effect which ch can bring with it, I know it too well myself. But I also know that it ends, it always does. Let yourself have the time to get past it and you WILL.

Hang on in there, Tony. [smiley=hug.gif][smiley=hug.gif][smiley=hug.gif]

Sanna

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by wildhaus on Jan 9^th, 2008, 2:16pm

Quote:

Will there ever be light at the end of this never ending tunnel to hell?

Tony, to be honest I don’t know……… I am still looking for it my self….. !
and that is why I come to this little “Clusterville”, it gives me a good
portion of hope, that helps me to go on! to look for the light, the hope,
and a strong believe there is light at the end of the (what seems like a never ending) tunnel.

“The highest form of wisdom is kindness” (a Talmud quote)

Tony you are one of the most KIND persons I have ever had the honours to
have the right to know, and you have the wisdom to go on looking
for that light and finding it!

“Be patient and you will finally win,
for a soft tongue can break hard bones. (Proverbs 28:13)”

I think you are the person it was written about……

Who is a wise man? He who learns of all men.” (a Talmud quote)

….. listen to the “old” guard in the (virtual) village they know….
they are (for me) a very big help……….. and I bet they are for you

the way you are for all of US

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
and don't lean on your own understanding……..
and he shall direct your way. [Proverbs 3:5, 6]”

“Proverbs are short sentences drawn from long experience.”
(Miguel de Cervantes)

Michael

Title: Re: Someone please tell me.
Post by Guiseppi on Jan 9^th, 2008, 2:21pm

Luv ya Tony, hang in there. [smiley=hug.gif]

Guiseppi