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(Message started by: sandie99 on Feb 26^th, 2007, 2:24pm)

Title: Another dream crushed
Post by sandie99 on Feb 26^th, 2007, 2:24pm

I told you about the oportunity of a lifetime, that leading newspaper's journalism training program.

Well, today I got one of those unpersonal emails, which stated simply that they had made their choices and I was not one of the lucky 21 people who were picked. :(

Thank you all for your well wishes, vibes, thoughts and prayers. This time they were not enough. :(

Right now I'm feeling sad and disappointed. And ashamed for getting my hopes up and believing that I would actually have a chance... I know that I could rack my brain and go through every simple detail about the application, but it's no use, so I won't. It could be million things or absolutely nothing at all.

All I know is that when I saw that email, tears begun to fall down my cheeks. That's when I understood how much I really wanted a place on that program. This would have given me finally the career I've been working on for such a long time. Now I don't know what to do next. I just feel sad indeed. :'(

Perhaps the universe is trying to tell me something and I have missed the message. Maybe it's time to listen and quit journalism after I finish my MA and do something else. Too bad that I have been studying journalism since 1999. :-/

So, here's what I'm going to do: I'm going to find a good book, listen to my favourite music and cry until I have no tears left. :'(

May your day be PF,
Sanna

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Jackie on Feb 26^th, 2007, 2:34pm

I'm sorry, Sweetie....I know you're disappointed. But......where one door closes another opens. I'm thinking there is something much better just waiting for you.

Love & Hugs,
Jackie

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by fubar on Feb 26^th, 2007, 2:35pm

Don't be ashamed. You are just beginning the career road, and this is the first of many bumps in that road. You are defined by how well you handle those bumps. Be proud of your efforts, and keep your eyes peeled for the next offer that life extends to you.

-Fu

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by JeffB on Feb 26^th, 2007, 2:36pm

Sorry kiddo, Keep your chin up and stay positive. I bet something bigger and better is right around the corner just waiting for you. ;)

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by nani on Feb 26^th, 2007, 2:48pm

I'm so sorry sweetie. I know how disappointed you must feel. I've learned that life is like that. Just when you think you couldn't be let down any lower....
you discover that everything happens exactly the way it's supposed to. It's OK to cry, but remember... there's a reason for this. hugs and lots of love, nani

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Grandma_Sweet_Boy on Feb 26^th, 2007, 3:09pm

Allow yourself a day to mourn for the death of this dream - then pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and understand that one day, when the time is right - you will get where you want to be.

I'm sorry it didn't happen for you the first time, honey - but just like love - life says "ya gotta kiss a frog or two first" - makes you appreciate the real things in life later on.

Hang in there.

Hugs
Carol

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Mac_Muz on Feb 26^th, 2007, 3:12pm

To bad, time to put your boots back on and go try it again.... Someone who doesn't know you decided something you seemed to be hoping for... it didn't work out the way you hoped, so that part is too bad, but one door doesn't close with out opening a new one.....

Making books wet won't help, so just fill out another application and get buzy writting.... next time put it down that chocolate is you weakness.... I know it is one of mine! ;;D

In my life I have been knocked tea pot over kettle many times... I know which way up well by now....

The last time that happened I ended up with a cut wife, with stitches on her elbow, 3 broken ribs for me, and was more than 1,500 miles from any place I had ever been before.

I looked up, then I got up, and we tossed a leg each over that bike and continued the trip west... the next 9,000 miles I rode I rode with broken ribs and my wife, who is still my wife.. Presently I am supposed to be like you, writting that is..... mac

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Melissa on Feb 26^th, 2007, 3:22pm

No matter what you have done in your life, no matter what you have studied or spent your time doing, don't ever, and I mean EVER, think you have wasted your time!

Best just to try all sorts of different things in life with no expectations. ;)

lots of love & hugs Sanna,
:)mel

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Lizzie2 on Feb 26^th, 2007, 3:30pm

Sanna - I'm so sorry this didn't work out for you....

But all it means was that this wasn't the way it was supposed to happen. Your chance is out there - and chances are, it'll be better and more suited for you than this ever could have been. You can't see that now, but trust in it. You are a wonderful, intelligent, sweet, and caring woman. You will go very far - this is only the beginning and these hurdles will help build character for you.

But don't lose that spirit. And don't you dare give up!!! Things happen for a reason... Look how many different paths I've gone down in my life - and I never thought that where I am was where I belonged - not until it happened, and then I knew. You will see that one day....

It's okay to cry a little over this. Broken dreams are rough - no matter how you try to look at it. I still sometimes cry over my lost big ones - like medical school and things like that. But just remember - this doesn't define you or your life. You're going to do great things. I believe it!!!

Hugz,
Carrie :)

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by artonio7 on Feb 26^th, 2007, 3:37pm

Sandie...

Keep your chin up and NEVER stop moving forward. This is just one very small step at the beginning of a long and brilliant journey ahead of you.

I once was an assistant to an artist who makes more money on his art in one year than most of us can hope to make in a lifetime... He has many years of experience and is noted in many circles as the top of his field.

While I was with him... he wished to find a gallery to display his New Series of paintings.... he sent 160 complete packages to various galleries showing samples of his new paintings. He received 160 rejections. I was amazed that he never once flinched. I asked him how he could stand it... he then showed me two rather large file cabinets and asked me to take a look. Inside were thousands of rejections... His eyes twinkled with happiness while I looked through them.

I thought his reaction and mood was rather odd... and asked him why he was so happy.
He told me that each one of the rejections reminds him that he is not a quitter... and that is often better than the shiniest trophy.

Keep going forward!

with warm regards,
Tony

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Redd on Feb 26^th, 2007, 3:45pm

There are many paths that lead to any single destination. Just becauase this path found a roadblock, doesn't mean you give up your efforts to seek that destination from another path.

I have all the confidence in the world in you Sanna. Please don't give up on a dream. They just sometimes take a little longer than we would like for them to come true.

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Brewcrew on Feb 26^th, 2007, 3:48pm

Sanna,

I'm so sorry things didn't work out. Take some time, grieve the loss of what could have been, and then strengthen your resolve to go after that brass ring. And if you end up not working in journalism, just make it something else that you love.

Personally, I have a double major in history and philosophy. I have been working for the last 19 years as an industrial engineer. Am I sad or pissed? No. I studied history and philosophy because that's what I loved at the time. I don't regret it for a second.

Now, what I love more than anything else (not including people) is being able to provide for my family and having a career that provides enough free time to spend with my family and play in a band. You see? I have it all, and I'm not doing anything remotely related to history or philosophy.

Priorities change. People change. Attitudes change. You will change too. Allow yourself to be sad for awhile - but only for awhile. Then get back on that horse and ride, girl.

All my best,

Bill

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by kcopelin on Feb 26^th, 2007, 4:34pm

Ah Sanna, we were so praying that this would turn out differently. Lots of folks here saying the same thing-never quit. After 50 years I have pretty good hind-sight. Lots of opportunities that I had and missed out on, whether through my own choices or those of others, turned out to have been good to miss. You are a writer-keep writing and working at your craft.

Warm thoughts,
Kathy

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Lobster on Feb 26^th, 2007, 6:08pm

I would not look upon it as a reflection on yourself.
Positions such as those are filled based more on politics and contacts than on skill and qualifications.

It is certainly disappointing, but I would say you have no need to second-guess your application or any other way you represented yourself.

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Kevin_M on Feb 26^th, 2007, 7:08pm

on 02/26/07 at 14:24:08, sandie99 wrote:

I'm going to find a good book, listen to my favourite music and cry until I have no tears left

I do that every night but still have to go to work the next day. Don't be like me Sanna, keep trying! ;)

:-*

Title: SannRe: Another dream crushed
Post by TonyG1 on Feb 26^th, 2007, 7:53pm

Sanna - Keep you chin up !! The universe is telling you that there is something better in store for you. http://www.websmileys.com/sm/angels/biggrinangelA.gif While it may not be clear in the short term, everything happens for a reason and when it it should -- Even being afflicted with CH ... < scary thought there... > :)
Take care and PFDANs to all !!

T.

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by chewy on Feb 26^th, 2007, 7:54pm

When one door closes, another one opens.

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by E-Double on Feb 26^th, 2007, 8:54pm

on 02/26/07 at 18:08:10, Lobster wrote:

Exactly!!!
Persist and something will come about.

Hugs

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by ShariRae on Feb 26^th, 2007, 10:46pm

Hun...
"God gave us mountains so we could learn how to climb"
Just try to think of it as another mountain..another challenge to overcome...AND YOU WILL! Never give up on your dreams..ever.
Much Love
Shari

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by kayarr on Feb 26^th, 2007, 11:15pm

Darlin',

wow! You have so many people who truly care about you. Everything they say is true. All I can add is a huge hug! [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Tim_w on Feb 26^th, 2007, 11:38pm

Sanna
(THERE LOSS!!!!)
:-*
Happy Pappy

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by TxBasslady on Feb 26^th, 2007, 11:47pm

So sorry Sanna :'(

Look on the bright side though...you're still young, and many more opportunities will come your way, sweetie.

Keep your chin up :-* We're pullin for ya.

Jean

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by BB on Feb 27^th, 2007, 12:03am

Isnt that a horrible feeling when all your hope gets shattered by one cruel email :( . Life can be tough and seems so unfair at times.

Cry, yell, swear .... do whatever you need to to release the disappointment and frustration, then you will feel a sense of calmness and the strength to devise the next step.

You believed this was the best you could have got, but I am sure the next opportunity that will present itself when the time is right will be much much better.

Big hug to you Sanna. I know you can do it.

Annette

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by georgej on Feb 27^th, 2007, 12:37am

It's only one setback along the way, Sanna. Never quit. Your time will come.

:)

Hey, you're a clusterhead. You can do anything.

Best always,

George

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Cathi04 on Feb 27^th, 2007, 1:22am

Sanna, I am sorry! I know this was very important to you, but, as others have said, there's some kinda reason for this not happening for you. There is something better out there, and this was just one more step toward it.
Lick your wounds, take time to feel your disappointment, but, once you're done, get back up and keep working toward your goal!
You have a lot of people cheering you on,and we will continue right along with you!

Here's a hug..........

Cathi ;)

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Barry_T_Coles on Feb 27^th, 2007, 2:36am

http://bestsmileys.com/hugging/1.gif

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Charlie on Feb 27^th, 2007, 3:52am

Rats.

Sorry this happened but it certainly isn't your fault. You're gonna do just fine in the long run.

Just wondering that after a day or two, if writing a real letter to these pinheads would be worth it. You never know. I have a friend that goes out of his way to ask questions of people. A lot of people love it when you do. It's amazing how successful he is with this. Don't complain, but maybe just ask what they might do.

Whaddya think? You might get something good out of it.

In the meantime, be nice to yourself.

Charlie

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by zwibbs/Scott on Feb 27^th, 2007, 5:06am

This can mean only one thing------That there is something out there that is much, much better for you !!! Keep your head up !

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by sandie99 on Feb 27^th, 2007, 12:23pm

Wow. Thank you all so very much for your kind words. :) I appeciate each and every post a lot.

It's the day after and I feel better.
Maybe it's some of the inspirational books I've read lately of my "CHit happends, let's move on" - attitude, but I do feel that I've done being upset about it and moved on.

Naturally, there is still that one huge question mark hanging over my head: what will happen next with my career. I do believe that what's meant to happen, will happen. I just hate this uncertainty I feel this very moment.

If this had been the first set back I've had with my prefessional life, I probably would have taken this all more lightly yesterday. But at my age I've had many of them and it gets harder and harder to make it in journalism.

Now, I do not feel defeated. I just wish that I'd get some sort of clue what I'm meant to do professionally, if this is not it or some kind of visible sign that I'm meant to write for living.

It's always good to live with hope.

Hugs & PF days to all,
Sanna

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Brewcrew on Feb 27^th, 2007, 12:43pm

I don't know, Sanna - From what I can tell, all the best journalists are old guys and gals.

You've got a little more experience to gain. You're not going to quit writing, are you?

Bill

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by sandie99 on Feb 27^th, 2007, 1:01pm

Charlie,
I have been thinking about writing an email to the man who emailed me the news. But I haven't, because I'm not 100 percent sure if I want to know why he/they didn't pick me. And I'm not sure if the answer would help or be truly truthful. Because, let's face it, he coudn't tell me that it's my age (26), my gender or things like that even if it would be the truth. And if the reply would be something like "you were the candidade 22 who just did not make the cut" would not help me the slightest.

Bill,
I can promise you: I will never ever quit writing. I write every single day; I have 2 blogs, plenty of notebooks, this message board, lots of unfinished stories... But will I be writing pieces of journalism? That I do not know.

BUT if I will one day be awarded for my writing, I will thank that program for not including me... ;;D

Sanna ;)

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by LadyElaine1 on Feb 27^th, 2007, 1:18pm

Like Jackie said the right door will open some day. It will happen, never stop dreaming and doing what you love.

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by tanner on Feb 27^th, 2007, 1:42pm

Sanna, I wanted to post to this thread when I first saw it but am limiting the time I look at screens somewhat and I wanted you to have your day of mourning. I am not going to be able to read all the posts that have come in in the meantime so forgive me if I am just repeating what others have said.

I hope by now that you realize that your dream has not been crushed only bruised and bruises go away. I can tell from your posts to this board and from your attitude towards life in general that you are without a doubt someone that the world needs in journalism!

Whether it turns out to be print or one of the other mediums, you will break through! Unless you have one heck of a translation program ;) you are head and shoulders above the vast majority of Americans your age that aspire to the same end. Don't you ever give up! We (the world) need fresh open minded journalists with the qualities that you so abundantly share with us here.

Chin Up and i will be waiting to hear about the next and better road that opens for you.

Hugz .........Tim

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by Charlotte on Feb 27^th, 2007, 3:51pm

I'm proud of you. The competition was fierce, and they didn't pick you. It happens. It's just sad.

Charlotte

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by fubar on Feb 27^th, 2007, 7:06pm

You could always just blame the gnomes. I hear they are evil and not to be trusted. I'm just sayin'.

;)

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by TonyG1 on Feb 27^th, 2007, 8:07pm

on 02/27/07 at 19:06:42, fubar wrote:

You could always just blame the gnomes. I hear they are evil and not to be trusted. I'm just sayin'.

;)

Someone say ... Evil gnomes ... ?? http://www.websmileys.com/sm/evil/teu01.gif

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by barry_sword on Feb 27^th, 2007, 8:31pm

Knock the dust off and follow your dream. The doors will open for you! :)

I wish that I would have followed through on a couple of plans but eh, I'm happy :D

Barry

Title: Re: Another dream crushed
Post by sandie99 on Feb 28^th, 2007, 3:55am

Blame the gnomes... ;;D Thank you for making me laugh! [smiley=laugh.gif]

I don't know what will happen, but I can promise that I will never stop dreaming. I have always done that and I bet I always will. :)