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(Message started by: B14CK5H33P on Feb 13^th, 2007, 9:19pm)

Title: The Day From Hell
Post by B14CK5H33P on Feb 13^th, 2007, 9:19pm

I knew this was going to be a hell day, but it wasn't until I took Zombie out this morning did I realize just how bad it would be.

I rode out my morning CH, got dressed and got the dog ready to take him to work with me. We got a MAJOR snowstorm today, and when it was coming down, it was so thick I could only see things about 100 feet away from me. To make matters worse, the wind was gusting hard, blowing snow into my face and eyes, and several times during the 40 minute walk to work I would just scream at the top of my lungs. That shit was PAINFUL blowing into my eyes and face. I made it to work, sopping wet and worn out.

My client has been highly delusional as of late, and decided to go off on me last week, and instead of walking away like I always do (which makes him think I am weak and easy to get his way over me) I started shouting back to him, and when he finally calmed down... I stayed wound up all day. He has been going off on his brother, his stepdad, and I was there when he called his mom a 'fucking bitch' and then was egging his stepdad on to hit him.

10 minutes after I showed up today from the brutal walk, he starts in on me again. I went into the other room and he followed me. The shouting match escalated to the point he was begging me to hit him, and he was yelling that he was gonna kill all of us. I called his stepdad and he was able to talk him down, and he finally went to his room and was quiet.
Now when I get wound up - I can't just shut it off; it lingers and takes awhile for me to calm down. At one point he reached for a knife and I told him that would be his undoing if he even tried to come after me with a knife. I told his mom today that, had he came after me with a knife, I would have picked up a chair and wacked him over the head with it to knock him out. She told me if it comes down to that, then I need to do whatever it takes to protect myself.

A couple of hours later I went to his room and said "I'd like to have a talk with you, if you can shut up and listen for 5 minutes without going into one of your rages. I basically set him straight on alot of things, and he agreed with everything I said. I told him he is going off on everyone who is trying to help him and if it gets to be too much and he keeps it up, I will quit and never come back, and his mom will not be able to quit her job to stay home and take care of him. That means he will wind up in a shitty nursing home or a mental health institution, and he will think he is in hell.

After that, not a word was spoken between us all day. I am hoping what I said will sink in, instead of going in one ear and out the other. I'm just glad he stayed calm long enough for me to try and reason with him. I told him he doesn't have an ounce of respect for his mom, and she is the one bends oveer backwards for him taking care of him everyday. I told him I didn't want an apology from him, and that if he was going to apologize to anyone, it should be his mother.

I just got home a while ago, and completely dread going in tomorrow. But I am proud of one thing: His stepdad congradulated me for sticking it out for a year now. He said I have outlasted every caretaker they've had, and he is quite shocked that I am still doing it everyday.

The truth is: I did quit back in December after an altercation, and they begged me back at higher pay. As bad as I need the money, it's days like these that make me wonder how much longer I am going to be able to tolerate this shit. My nerves are half shot anyway, and I couldn't stop shaking for at least 2 hours after the altercation I was so pissed off. It took awhile for me to calm down before I would speak to him, and after I said what I had to say to him, I told him to think about it, and walked into the other room. We didn't speak a word between us the rest of the day.

So yeah; I am a bit stressed to the maximum, and not sure how much longer I can endure this. I told his mom that it may be time to have his meds readjusted by the doc, because they don't seem to be working right now.

Sorry to vent it here, but my head has been ringing since the incident this morning and I am torn. If I quit this job, it will screw my boss up bigtime, as his mom would have to quit her job to take care of him, and then who would pay all of the bills? She already said she would have to put him in a home somewhere - and I strongly believe that is where he should have been a long time ago. At the same time, it may take forever to find a decent job, as I know alot of people who are out of work right now and can't find anything.
Anyways, I am going to try and de-stress a bit with some tea and candles, and try to crash a bit in the recliner.

[smiley=gocrazy.gif]
Peaced,
Carl D

Title: Re: The Day From Hell
Post by Jonny on Feb 13^th, 2007, 9:29pm

I would have knocked the MF'er out when he said he was going to kill all.....and then called the cops.....thats a sick fuck!

Title: Re: The Day From Hell
Post by B14CK5H33P on Feb 13^th, 2007, 9:48pm

He has this Jekyl / Hyde thing happening, and it is amazing how quick he shifts into one another.

He keeps daring me or his stepdad to punch him so he can call the cops on us. I told him if he takes one swing at me, I have his mothers permission to knock his ass out and do whatever I have to to defend myself.

I don't want to hit him, as he has a brain injury and sometimes cannot control himself, and he has even said he doesn't know why he blows up like that. I told his mom to take him back to the doc and get his meds adjusted, because that could be part of the problem.

Trust me, I WANTED to bust him in the mouth to shut him up, but have laid boundaries that - if he eggs me on, he is trying to get me to hit him so he can call the cops on me, and then try to sue me.
But yes, he is a sick fuck, and it's getting harder and harder everyday to go to work.

I think I handled it well. He went to his room and 2 hours later I went and had a long talk with him. I am just hoping some of it took. I told him that he needs to start respecting his mother, because she stretches herself too thin and bends over backwards for him and he doesn't even appreciate it. I think I made some headway with him, but will know for sure tomorrow.

Title: Re: The Day From Hell
Post by sandie99 on Feb 14^th, 2007, 2:21am

Carl,

I hope that today will be better one at work and otherwise.

Best wishes,
Sanna

Title: Re: The Day From Hell
Post by artonio7 on Feb 14^th, 2007, 12:04pm

I've in the past worked with a person who acted just like your client. It was like witnessing a double personality. I'm curious... what is your client diagnosed with?

with warm regards,
Tony

Title: Re: The Day From Hell
Post by Turts on Feb 14^th, 2007, 2:28pm

heres hoping that today is better than yesterday Carl,

i will be thinking of ya.

I cant say if i'd be sticking around for a pay check if i was getting threatened with a knife,

take care

Turts

Title: Re: The Day From Hell
Post by Brewcrew on Feb 14^th, 2007, 3:11pm

Carl - I've seen you bitch and moan and complain about this work situation for quite some time now, and I keep coming back to the same refrain in my head: "Who is in control, and who is being controlled?"

With statements like, "If I quit this job, it will screw my boss up bigtime, as his mom would have to quit her job to take care of him, and then who would pay all of the bills?," and "...it's getting harder and harder everyday to go to work," I wonder sometimes if you really want to improve your lot and get rid of the excess baggage.

It's pretty simple in my book - if it's too much weight to bear, quit. I see how you write - you're no dummy. I think you could do much better. Why do you insist on being held back by the guilt your boss has successfully hung around your neck?

Title: Re: The Day From Hell
Post by artonio7 on Feb 14^th, 2007, 3:30pm

on 02/14/07 at 15:11:32, Brewcrew wrote:

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I think you could do much better. Why do you insist on being held back by the guilt your boss has successfully hung around your neck?

Not to mention the Post Traumatic Stress that this situation induces.

with warm regards,
Tony

Title: Re: The Day From Hell
Post by froggy on Feb 14^th, 2007, 4:56pm

Wow, for once this shit isn't happening to me, it's happening to you. I fully empathize with you.

Here's something my mother always used to say to me, "Always have the birds' eye view".

It sounds like you're caught up in a beehive and need to back out to get some objectivity.

Stay tough