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(Message started by: Carl_D on Oct 27^th, 2006, 2:12am)

Title: The Loss of God (part two)
Post by Carl_D on Oct 27^th, 2006, 2:12am

Part one of this is an instrumental. This one was written on the acoustic. I start recording today, and hope to have the first two tracks "The Shadow" and "Dance Without Music" done by Halloween. That'd be sweet. These will be recorded later, as the next track I will record after these two is "Sleepstalker (To My Sweet Serial Victim)" - Which I have waited a long long time to record and anxious to get it out of my head... but anyways...

The Loss of God (part 2)

It feels like Seattle rain, when the tears pour from the pain
There’s blood upon the floor, at least in my brain
It feels just like Seattle rain

It’s been days since I’ve slept, wondering if Jesus wept
My head’s crucified day after day by the cluster beast’s torment
Wondering if Jesus wept

They say it’s just a headache, but they don’t know the pain
To make a grown man cry, and beg for death
Unseen physical torture, a horror beyond horrors
For those who suffer this – it feels like the loss of God

The drilling in my head has stopped; in my head I grab a mop
To clean up the blood now that the pain has stopped
Until the beast returns to cast his lot

Today she said she’s leaving me, no longer can she bear to see
The way I thrash about in the torturous agony
She said today she’s leaving me

They say it’s just a heartache, but they don’t know the pain.
To make a strongest bent and a sane person insane
When the cluster beast just attacks again and again
Now I’m all alone – it feels like the loss of God

{guitar solo}

It’s just the first attack today; it’s just the second attack today
It’s just the third attack today; it’s just the fourth attack today
Make it go away, make it go away, make it go away
It feels just like Seattle rain!

{end solo}

Peace,
Carl D

Title: Re: The Loss of God (part two)
Post by kcopelin on Oct 27^th, 2006, 10:02am

Wow
Carl, I am very thankful that you didn't give up, bro.

kathy

Title: Re: The Loss of God (part two)
Post by rickyshot on Oct 27^th, 2006, 10:43am

OMG Carl You have captured exactly how I feel during cycle.

I hope you never give up :-*

Title: Re: The Loss of God (part two)
Post by georgej on Oct 27^th, 2006, 10:52am

Way to go, Carl....

Get it out there.

Best wishes,

George

Title: Re: The Loss of God (part two)
Post by Carl_D on Oct 28^th, 2006, 5:18am

One thing I have done in the past is lay down my guns and give up battle. Then again, the battle was the wickedest I ever seen.

Fought enough of them, and had victory for long enough to learn the last few pieces of the puzzle as far as I needed, that when this new and different battle began, I built up more fight than I have ever had, and will only lose it when I draw my last breath.

I ran into a few snags with my recording program, but nothing drastic. Still back to recording, and this will be the most carthartic disc I have ever done.

I'm glad you could relate to it. I am more than sure you will relate to the rest of the songs on this disc, as they were borne out of alot of pain which we all know far too well. The concept of this whole disc is based upon my own struggle with trying to believe in a God who says he will not give your more than you can handle, yet when I know I can't handle it, I can't imagine the suffering of a child with CH. While I have many questions, I regained my faith a couple of years ago.

And if no one else knows - God does.

Peace,
Carl D