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(Message started by: Redd715 on Sep 28^th, 2006, 9:27pm)

Title: Deja Vou
Post by Redd715 on Sep 28^th, 2006, 9:27pm

One year ago today my Mother died. Feelings and emotions are like a vocano erupting and ijnesting at will and with no expected timing. I'm volitile one moment and a shrivvling blob of flesh the next.

One minute I feel if prompted I could cut to the bone with anger, the next I feel I could be crushed under the weight of a thumb tack.

I miss her, I wish she was still here, I wish things were the way they were 10 years ago. and she still could be my councel, my sounding board, my Mom.

I Love you Mom, and I miss you more than you'll ever imagine.

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by alchemy on Sep 28^th, 2006, 9:41pm

Sorry for your loss and pain

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by georgej on Sep 28^th, 2006, 9:47pm

Sorry to hear of your grief.

I lost my father in January, 2004. There isn't a day that goes by when I do not wish that I could hear his voice again.

Best wishes,

George

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by Melissa on Sep 28^th, 2006, 9:47pm

Sorry Pegg.

My mom died 5 years ago on April 9th. Each time the date comes, I am reminded by my step dad of it. Otherwise, I don't even remember what day it is.

I feel more sad on my Mom's birthday.

hugs,
mel

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by thebbz on Sep 28^th, 2006, 9:48pm

sorry Red [smiley=hug.gif]
jb

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by tanner on Sep 28^th, 2006, 10:01pm

Pegg, you know how I feel :'( :'( :'(

......Tim

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by Fredmyyster on Sep 28^th, 2006, 10:01pm

I am sorry for your loss and share in your grief...
I lost my mom in 95 and the pain in my heart is as if it was yesterday.... i wished i could pickup the phone and tell her of my accomplishments as they happen only to feel the pain of the void because i cant....
Im not looking 4ward to the holidays anymore cuz that was her favorite time of year... Its all a front for the kids... Never sick and she was taken from me suddenly and without warning.......... < sigh >

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by Richr8 on Sep 28^th, 2006, 10:04pm

So sorry Pegg. Eventually you learn to deal with the loss, but the void is always there.

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by Jonny on Sep 28^th, 2006, 10:04pm

I knew my Dad only had so much time left and he wasnt even sick (I just knew).....I carried a camcorder every time I went to see him.

I now have hours of ten year old tapes that I have only watched once. maybe its time to watch them again, my Dad was one funny SOB :'(

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by maffumatt on Sep 28^th, 2006, 10:25pm

Some pains never cease. Remember the good times.
Matt

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by kayarr on Sep 28^th, 2006, 11:18pm

Pegg,

I know this sounds like some old over used saying but i.e. you know the way you twiddle your hair when you are thinking hard, just like your Mom......a part of her remains. We all leave bits of ourselves with and within those we care about. Try to let go of the sadness enough to feel her all around you.

I'm sorry you are sad [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by Carl_D on Sep 29^th, 2006, 1:11am

I'm so sorry Pegg. [smiley=hug.gif]

I find it hard to celebrate my birthday (and couldn't for years) since I was born on mom's bday and she passed said day in '93. April 20th has been a cursed day since that year, but the past couple of years I have not only celebrated my birthday, but the time I had with my mom.

Just remember, you will always carry her in your heart, and she is one of your guardian angels now.

Hugs,
Carl

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by sandie99 on Sep 29^th, 2006, 1:49am

Pegg... [smiley=hug.gif]

Losing a parent hurts a lot. It doesn't matter how old we are when it happends, it hurts. Let all those feelings come.

You know, it's been 9 years since my father passed away and the loss still hits me sometimes as badly as did on those first months after his death. Give yourself time. [smiley=hug.gif]

Best wishes,
Sanna

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by BarbaraD on Sep 29^th, 2006, 6:07am

I can emphathize (sp) with you. Lost my dad in '83 and my Mom in '92 and my brother in '98 and I still think of them every day.

The first anniversary of Bill's (my husband) death is coming up Monday and I miss the old goat.

Last night my daughter-in-law was dressing our little Caleb for a school play. She'd bought him some new clothes and he was throwing a fitt about them being "brown". I almost cried - my little brother HATED anything "brown" from the time he was a little kid. But I laughed instead and told him the new clothes did NOT look like doggie poop! It's funny the things that will trigger memories.

Hang in there honey, just remember the good times. It gets easier (in a different way) as time goes by. The emotions are normal - go with them.

Hugs BD

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by JeffB on Sep 29^th, 2006, 12:16pm

:'(

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by Charlie on Sep 29^th, 2006, 8:55pm

So sorry Pegg.

It does get better but we all know that it never goes away. You're gonna be all right though. You do just fine.

The camcorder thing is cool, Jonny. Nice going.

Mine died on New Years day. That really put a damper on things for a few years. Now I just drink. and download porn http://www.kolobok.wrg.ru/smiles/standart/thank_you2.gif?SSImageQuality=Full

Charlie

Title: Re: Deja Vou
Post by Fredmyyster on Sep 29^th, 2006, 9:01pm

L O L !!!!