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(Message started by: Daddys_Devil on Sep 25^th, 2006, 4:20pm)

Title: Feelin Lonely
Post by Daddys_Devil on Sep 25^th, 2006, 4:20pm

One of my best friends and I aren't speaking. So I'm feeling a little depressed. And as we all know when I'm depressed I write. So here's a couple for all you out there in Clusterville.

A Dream of Hell :(
Trapped in Hell
I try to scream.
Praying that this nightmare
is only a dream.
Rolling on
like flowing blood.
THe pain grows
a roaring flood.
6 feet under
covered in dirt.
Black red blood
stains my shirt.
Trapped in Hell
I try to scream.
Praying that this nightmare
is only a dream.

Next: Lies :'(
You said you love me.
You said you care for me.
You said you'd protect me.
But how can you protect me form you?

And Lastly: My love For You :-*
The love I feel,
You will never know.
For the pain,
is all that I show.
I hold back the tears
& prey them hidden.
My love is so great
& yet so forbidden.
On my tears flow,
like the roaring flood.
Drowning in the water,
warm as blood.
The love I feel,
You will never know.
For the pain is all,
I know how to show.

Hope everyone likes 'em!

Always,
Felicia 8)

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by kimmiedawn81 on Sep 25^th, 2006, 4:33pm

I know how you feel, my best friend and I aren't speaking right now either. It sucks, I know.

I'm sorry.

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by Linda_Howell on Sep 25^th, 2006, 4:33pm

I know you're depressed young-un, but I swear I am going to drive to where you live and give you a huge hug on the day I hear a happy, upbeat poem from you. ;)

Why don't you be the bigger person and give your friend a call and start the ball rolling to reconcile whatever is between you. :-*

Linda

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by Daddys_Devil on Sep 25^th, 2006, 4:58pm

That'd be great if A. I thought he would answer and B. I had his number.

Always,
Felicia 8)

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by JeffB on Sep 25^th, 2006, 5:34pm

How can you feel that way when you have us? ;;D

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by Paul98 on Sep 25^th, 2006, 6:49pm

Give it time Felicia. If you don't have his phone # what about e-mail or that ancient form of communication...pen and paper. (I heard it still works. LOL.)

I hope in a day or two you hear from your friend.

-P.

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by Daddys_Devil on Sep 25^th, 2006, 7:37pm

You're right Jeff. I do have you guys. And I'm gratfull. You all make it bearable. Thanks. And Paul, I sent him an email but he's like most men and doesn't check them for a week at a time. And I would send him a letter but he lives in a different state and I don't know his address. It'll be okay. Hopefully he'll read this (hint hint you know who you are) and reply to my email soon. Thanks guys. But what do you think about my poems?

Always,
Felicia 8)

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by Paul98 on Sep 25^th, 2006, 8:01pm

The poems are very nice Felicia, you have a lot of talent. As linda said...ya gotta work on the up-beat side of writing ;)

Now, about that sweeping generality about men and checking e-mail ::) Sheesh! ;)

-P.

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by cootie on Sep 25^th, 2006, 8:01pm

I LOVE the poems........lots of feeling and thought in such short verses kicks ass Pam

Sorry yer feelin down.......I've had my bouts with close friends this summer at home myself.......wierd feeling !!

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by Daddys_Devil on Sep 25^th, 2006, 8:31pm

on 09/25/06 at 20:01:41, Paul98 wrote:

Now, about that sweeping generality about men and checking e-mail ::) Sheesh! ;)

-P.

;;D Ah ya know I gotta pick on ya every once in awhile there Paul. If I didn't, you'd think I didn't like ya anymore. :-* And I'll try to put a as you put it "up-beat" poem on. Just for you, Linda. Thanks for the replies everyone. Its put me in a lot better mood.

Always,
Felicia 8)

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by tanner on Sep 25^th, 2006, 10:59pm

Hi Felicia, I thought it was time to introduce myself since I always read and enjoy your posts.

I feel that you show remarkable talent for bending the language of life, love, pain, and empathy into some unique and thought provoking verbal images.

I wish I shared your talent! I would so much love to read some of your work that is not as "dark" as what we usually see here, and I don't just mean what we see of yours.

For instance what would a person of talent write to truly describe how you feel about someone that has always been there for you even in some very hard times, this person knows that you love them, they know that you like them, they know that without them you would not be who you are and for that matter may never have lived as long as you have? Yet even though they know these things your expressions of affection never feel sufficient to you. In case you haven't guessed I am asking what would I write to express all this to the love of my life if I had your talent? I'll bet it would be something beautiful and memorable to the point of evoking images of love, happiness, affection and all of the emotions that are so hard to show in a tangible way. I'll bet it would be Angelic!

What could that same person (you) write to describe the way someone like me feels about a family that cares, understands, and lifts me up with their profound understanding of where I am and what I am going through? What can you say to the mostly annonomous group of supporters that have done all this without any motive except love for their fellow humans. How does one express the tenderness and compassion that they feel for a group (family) such as these fellow CHer's and their supporters?

How do I thank all these people and put such depth of feeling into those words as you do into your works?

......................Tim

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by Charlotte on Sep 26^th, 2006, 1:41am

Tim, I think you did quite well on expressing.

Felicia, I like the poems but they are painful right now. I hope you feel better soon.

Thank you, you two, for sharing your words witho those of us who can't quite find the words.

Charlotte

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by Daddys_Devil on Sep 26^th, 2006, 7:00am

on 09/25/06 at 22:59:46, tanner wrote:

I wish I shared your talent! I would so much love to read some of your work that is not as "dark" as what we usually see here, and I don't just mean what we see of yours.

For instance what would a person of talent write to truly describe how you feel about someone that has always been there for you even in some very hard times, this person knows that you love them, they know that you like them, they know that without them you would not be who you are and for that matter may never have lived as long as you have? Yet even though they know these things your expressions of affection never feel sufficient to you. In case you haven't guessed I am asking what would I write to express all this to the love of my life if I had your talent? I'll bet it would be something beautiful and memorable to the point of evoking images of love, happiness, affection and all of the emotions that are so hard to show in a tangible way. I'll bet it would be Angelic!

What could that same person (you) write to describe the way someone like me feels about a family that cares, understands, and lifts me up with their profound understanding of where I am and what I am going through? What can you say to the mostly annonomous group of supporters that have done all this without any motive except love for their fellow humans. How does one express the tenderness and compassion that they feel for a group (family) such as these fellow CHer's and their supporters?

How do I thank all these people and put such depth of feeling into those words as you do into your works?

......................Tim

Angelic? Hate to tell you this hun, but I am anything but an angel. What lies behind beautiful words is not always the sunshine you where expecting. Again I will try to get a happy poem on as soon as I can. But things are a little hecktic around here right now so it might have to wait a while.

As Charlotte said Tim, you did a pretty good job yourself. Now all you have to do is put it in a poetry like form. Compare you love for her to the sun. Tell how the people here have truely saved your life and mind. Just let the words flow and nothing can stop you. If you wanted to any one of you could easily write just as well, if not better than me. Set down, grab pen and paper, think about what you want to say but would never say out loud, and write the words as they come. Example:

My life without the dark,
Would be nothing but gloom.
Like love with out the pain,
is nothing but sure doom.
I hide in the shadows,
where secerts creep.
Monsters fill my head,
not letting me sleep.
I feel the pain
that others pass.
Collecting them like rain,
to fill my broken past.
My life without the dark,
Would be nothing but gloom.
Like love with out the pain,
is nothing but sure doom.

Always,
Felicia 8)

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by Tim_w on Sep 26^th, 2006, 8:29am

Great writing
Life is too short to be mad at friends!

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by Charlie on Sep 26^th, 2006, 4:27pm

Wow.

Glad you posted and even gladder you come here when you feel this way. It's okay to feel a little depressed now and then but it's even okayer to come here when you feel that way.

Keep it up.

Charlie

Title: Re: Feelin Lonely
Post by Daddys_Devil on Sep 26^th, 2006, 4:45pm

YES!!!! [smiley=sayyes.gif] I finally got ahold of him. He's been really busy and his head's been acting up again. Did I forget to mention he's a clusterhead? :-/ He hasn't been able to get on much because he has to drive 2 hours to get to the docs about 3 times a week. So i can understand. I'm just glad I finally heard from him. Thanks for the support guys. You're the best! :-*

Always,
Felicia 8)