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(Message started by: Richr8 on Jul 17^th, 2006, 5:27pm)

Title: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by Richr8 on Jul 17^th, 2006, 5:27pm

Where do I begin. After only six months with the family, I finally got to meet many of you. What an amazing and heart warming experience. I truly felt emotions that I had thought I had lost the ability to feel. I will not even attempt to mention all of the unique, special, and always too brief, encounters that I had with many of you. The sadness I felt in not having the time to get to know each of you better was overwhelming. I literally spent only 8 hours in my room the entire weekend and that was only to pass out for brief periods so that I could get back to you all as soon as possible. I savored each moment and will cherish the memory of each of you throughout my life. I have been touched in a way that has changed me. I no longer feel alone, I am not afraid, yet my level of sadness is deepened knowing how each of you are impacted by this horrible condition. In contrast, I have been strengthened by all of your ability to remain, hopeful, positive, and still care deeply for your CH family.

If I had two wishes, the second would be that I was more comfortable in new settings so that I could have reached out to more of you and developed closer relationships in the brief time that we had. I know these things take time, and I’ll be around for a long time to complete the connections that time, or anxiety, did not permit.

You are truly an amazing group of folks, and I am proud and happy to have you all in my life.

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by thomas on Jul 17^th, 2006, 5:32pm

You just made me cry. What a way to open your heart up like that. You are a great guy and I was so glad to get to meet you. I agree, there is never enough time at these things.

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by maffumatt on Jul 17^th, 2006, 5:34pm

I was glad to see you there Rich. I hope to see you next year too.
Matt

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by Melissa on Jul 17^th, 2006, 5:37pm

Rich, all I can think of is "I'm going to give you a hug everytime I see you". [smiley=laugh.gif] You never did hold to your promise!!! ;)

I honestly wish we would have had some chat time together, but there's always next year, right?

So glad you came, you are a very nice man and I enjoyed the time I did have with you.

:)mel

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by thomas on Jul 17^th, 2006, 5:45pm

on 07/17/06 at 17:27:33, Richr8 wrote:

If I had two wishes, the second would be that I was more comfortable in new settings so that I could have reached out to more of you and developed closer relationships in the brief time that we had.

There's this real cozy little place in Davenport Iowa........... ;;D

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by broomhilda on Jul 17^th, 2006, 5:49pm

:'( Big huge Canadian hugs on over [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by Langa on Jul 17^th, 2006, 6:02pm

Very beautifully written. Got me all emotional. :'(

Sigh...the after convention blues can be very tough...we just have to keep thinking "till next time" or "see you in cyberspace".

Hopefully I'll meet you next year!

Langa

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by Richr8 on Jul 17^th, 2006, 6:12pm

on 07/17/06 at 17:32:42, thomas wrote:

You just made me cry.

I was gonna kick your ass to accomplish that until I saw how damn big you were.

love ya' big feller.

rich

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by Carl_D on Jul 17^th, 2006, 6:39pm

The convention I attended in Nashville was incredible! My jaw was on the ground throughout much of the event. It didn't feel like a convention of strangers, but rather a gathering of war veterans - Cluster war veterans you might say. We can try to explain what we go through to others but they cannot fathom it. When you meet a fellow CHead - no words even need to be spoken. Just a look in the eye reverbrates the 'yeah, you've seen it too' emotion of many vets.
For me, it was nothing short of a religious experience. The event Thomas referred to in Davenport, IA is similar, but more like a family reunion.

I'm glad you made it to MilCon Richard, and look forward to meeting you at either next years convention, or if you want to make the venture to DavCon in January - you'll have a blast there also.

Peace,
Carl D - 19 year CH veteran

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by Jackie on Jul 17^th, 2006, 6:44pm

Rich.....It was wonderful to meet you. One fine gent you are, Sir. We'll see you again and I'm gonna hug on you some more....:D

Love to you,
Jackie

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by TxBasslady on Jul 17^th, 2006, 7:51pm

on 07/17/06 at 17:32:42, thomas wrote:

You just made me cry.

Shit, me too, Thomas.

Just when I think I've no more tears left, you go and spill your heart.

Funny thing about clusterheads....we pm each other alot and unfortunately some never get the chance to meet. I firmly believe that all clusterheads connect to a certain extent. Some of those connections become special.

Rich is one of those special connections. I feel so privileged that I was able to share so many hours, so many thoughts, lots and lots of laughter and so many tears with you.

I hope you know how special you are to me.

It's so true that we come into each other's lives, and we never leave.

I'm so happy that you found those lost emotions....and that you feel the strength that we all experience as a family. Please don't let any sad thoughts enter your mind. We're all in this together, sweetie....and even though we're all different....we all suffer.

I know you've been thru some rough times, but that's almost all behind you now. From this point on, remember that you're loved and thought of. One thing I can promise you....this family will never leave you and this family will love you as long as you allow them too.

Thank you so much Rich, for giving me the opportunity to be a part of your life.

Much love,

Jean

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by BlueMeanie on Jul 18^th, 2006, 11:37am

Enjoyed very much talking to you Richard and ever so glad to have met you. Take care buddy.

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by TxBasslady on Jul 18^th, 2006, 11:45am

on 07/17/06 at 17:45:03, thomas wrote:

There's this real cozy little place in Davenport Iowa........... ;;D

Not sure I would say cozy....WTF [smiley=huh.gif]....temp gets up to about 23 during the heat of the day...LMAO

But it rocks in January....and if it happens this year...it'll be our 4th year.... :o

J

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by Charlie on Jul 18^th, 2006, 5:44pm

Glad to have met you too Rich. They are right though, Davenport can get cosy even in winter.

Charlie

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by Mastifflvr28 on Jul 18^th, 2006, 9:48pm

It was so great to meet you Rich, you fit in SO well. Loved spending time with you and so glad you found your family,
Mast

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by Jimi on Jul 18^th, 2006, 11:33pm

Quote:

I have been touched in a way that has changed me. I no longer feel alone, I am not afraid, yet my level of sadness is deepened knowing how each of you are impacted by this horrible condition. In contrast, I have been strengthened by all of your ability to remain, hopeful, positive, and still care deeply for your CH family.

I think that you got it Rich. It was nice getting to know you. You are right, your life will never be the same.

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by Peppermint on Jul 18^th, 2006, 11:41pm

on 07/17/06 at 17:27:33, Richr8 wrote:

I literally spent only 8 hours in my room the entire weekend and that was only to pass out for brief periods so that I could get back to you all as soon as possible. I savored each moment and will cherish the memory of each of you throughout my life.
(xxsnipxx)
If I had two wishes, the second would be that I was more comfortable in new settings so that I could have reached out to more of you and developed closer relationships in the brief time that we had. I know these things take time, and I’ll be around for a long time to complete the connections that time, or anxiety, did not permit.

Richard, it was a pleasure to meet you, you seem like a sweet warm person. Didn't get to talk much but I am certain that this will not be the last time you gather with your new family. It's only just begun!

Note: Next time I'm doing Sandra Bernhard in the lobby, please make sure there is something in the glass besides a mixing stick! [smiley=laugh.gif]

Btw, I heard say, did anyone ever tell you something about you reminds them of Mel Gibson? Well ya do! ;;D

Pep

Title: Re: My turn. Thought on Milcon
Post by LeLimey on Jul 19^th, 2006, 10:22pm

Aww Rich.. it was so good to meet you :)
I miss you so much, I didn't get nearly enough time to chat to you but I loved every minute that I did.
Thank you for being so protective of me, thank you for letting me handle things myself. Having you there beside me was a safety net though and I thank you for being just absolutely perfect. Why the bloody blue hell is AZ so far from me huh? I couldn't ever have enough of your company [smiley=hug.gif]
Thanks for simply being one of the most special men I've ever met
with love always
Helen xxxxx