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(Message started by: I Cant Dance on Apr 23^rd, 2006, 1:29am)

Title: I made a mistake
Post by I Cant Dance on Apr 23^rd, 2006, 1:29am

I learned that I am somewhat of a lazy terd. I usually "cope" with exercise, but a few times now have decided to work outside. I found that when I have an attack, I can do simple manual labor types of tasks as a way to deal and accomplish something. The problem is that it has taken me about half the time to do some things during a hit than not, and my wife has noticed this. Aw crap, she reads this board too...

I have had a pretty rough time the last 6 or 7 weeks, and was really struggling mentally last week. I am starting to accept the horror and realize that nothing preventative or abortive is going to work for me. I am better just accepting that and am ready to fight every frickin day like clock work.

I wonder if I am getting to the peak, today during my daily two hour butt kicking, I was feeling like kip 9 when I would get a spike in pain that about took my legs out from under me. It was a total body reaction kind of like a reflex when you get burnt. Got like 10-15 of these "shooters" during the two hours. Just when I think it couldn't get worse, I feel like crying uncle.

Thanks for the vent.