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(Message started by: Yournotcrazy on Apr 15^th, 2006, 9:20pm)

Title: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by Yournotcrazy on Apr 15^th, 2006, 9:20pm

Written by Clusterheadaches.com

I am retired too young and write music for a living. Two albums, country and rock. What words or verses would you use, to describe CH. I will write the song and give all proceeds here. Including and urls I own.

So What would the tiltle be?
What could we say to the public media?
War, crime..........I believe in monsters?
Verses and words.........written by Clusterheadaches.com

This is how I can help......I own 4 sites now.

I am not crazy

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by Melissa on Apr 15^th, 2006, 9:27pm

One short sentence I hear with each cycle since my husband and I have been married is: "I just want my wife back".

:(

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by FramCire on Apr 15^th, 2006, 9:32pm

I'd call it "The Unwelcomed Beast"

My words would include "you've overstayed your welcome since the day we met but it doesn't seem to matter to you. No medications are your master, nothing makes you fret, it's a helpless feeling having nothing I can do"

Just a few ideas off the top of my head. The beast is in my head right now, so it probably stinks.

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by gore2424 on Apr 15^th, 2006, 9:40pm

I want to heal
I want to feel
like I'm close to something real
I want to feel like I was before

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by Dragnlance on Apr 15^th, 2006, 9:41pm

Call it " The Hell In My Head"

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by gore2424 on Apr 15^th, 2006, 10:00pm

" Demon In My head"

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Post by Yournotcrazy on Apr 15^th, 2006, 10:32pm

Man,

Thank you so much, there is already so much hear and I will take even more. Not matter what we think. My job is to "cluster" the words and put them together. Whe you are hurting give me some words.

So I am hearing numbness, monster, demon, unseen killer of the heart and mind.......FramCire your words I can feel.

Heal feel real. I will update. It will be

Body:Verse

Chorus:

Body: Verse

Chorus:
Bridge:

Chorus:

I'll take anybodies help and critique. I am a member of ASCAP and SAG.

my back ground www.martinellimusic.com I am working on my second album which will be country. This is for us.

Thank you to you all.

Kris

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by Jasmyn on Apr 16^th, 2006, 3:18am

Great Stuff! 8)

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Post by Jonny on Apr 16^th, 2006, 3:30am

on 04/15/06 at 21:27:01, Melissa wrote:

"I just want my ~~wife~~ life back".

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by BarbaraD on Apr 16^th, 2006, 7:41am

I want a beer
But I got a tear
The noggin is achin'
The furniture I'm breakin'

Clusters are baaackkkk
Clusters are baaackkkk
I'm hurtin' deep in my eye
I prayin' to God to die
It hurts too bad to cry
Why me ole Lord , Why me???

Well, you said it was country.... :)

Hugs BD

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by aprilbee on Apr 16^th, 2006, 10:37am

My thoughts are "just take me now and end this, I can't take it anymore" and then when the sweet relief from pain comes, I apologize to God and myself...

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Post by davyp on Apr 16^th, 2006, 6:07pm

Was listening to a jack johnson song and started making up my own lyrics which would have been directed at my doctor if he had been here.

The song was, Sitting, Waiting, Wishing . I was getting hit at the time and cant remeber much of it but the bit that sticks in my head is :

Well i was sitting waiting wishing, that you`d beleive in my condition, then maybe youd see the truth
(cant remember the next bit).
Must i always be waiting waiting on you,
Must i be always be playing playing your fool,
Ive sang your song, ive danced your dance, ive gave the drugs all a chance but putting up with them was`nt worth ever having you.

Probably of no use but what the heck.

:) Dape :)

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by maffumatt on Apr 16^th, 2006, 6:36pm

your very talented Kris

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Post by john_d on Apr 16^th, 2006, 6:44pm

on 04/15/06 at 21:20:58, Yournotcrazy wrote:

I am retired too young

is that possible? ;)

The words I used for the last cycle when I had no o2 or meds.

The night has arrived and I quietly sit alone. My thoughts and life purpose escape me while tension and dread rolls in like a storm. the mantle clock quietly plays it's ninth hour song, hell is about to visit me once again.

edit... just listened to your music, I am not religous but very, very nice stuff.

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by catlind on Apr 16^th, 2006, 9:16pm

Always in the recess of my mind, waiting to wage the next battle in a war we cannot win

It's not cancer, it's not heart disease, it's not a brain tumor, it can't kill me, but it drives me to kill myself

It's not about death, it's about life, about quality of life.

Loving moments with my spouse, Laughter and games with my children, Living to the fullest.

Fear in the eyes of a child, uncomprehending and wanting to make mommy/daddy better.

Heart pain and ego pain for those who support us - when they can't, no matter how they try, make things better during the good and bad and sickness and health
(Read Jackies post on the supporters board)

And most of all, for those of us that persevere, and believe we can find what will help, we are

UNCONQUERED

Cat

Edited to Add: Creed, 6 feet from the edge:

Please come now
I think I'm falling
Holding on to all I think is safe
It seems I've found the road to no where
And i'm trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say...

Hold me now
I'm 6 feet from the edge
And I'm thinkin
Maybe 6 feet ain't so far down

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by tanner on Apr 16^th, 2006, 9:39pm

Kris, I am having a kip8/9 right now and I hate to come near this board and whine! I can only say that I am spending more time lately thinking about how to leave this life without adding more pain to the peiple who love me then anything els. I don't want to cop out or let anyone down (like all of my fellow warriors on this board) but I don't know how much more I can take. I have one disease that is killing me (liver) but i have one that is making me want to die! .....tim

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by jimmers on Apr 16^th, 2006, 10:37pm

Lets call it "One eye is crying"

Just a thought.

Jimmers

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by Yournotcrazy on Apr 16^th, 2006, 11:46pm

I got yelled at by my wife this morning. I grabbed a guitar from off the wall and started in on our words and statements made here. I played quiet! when I went into the room I told her my job right now. What an awsome group. To inspire me and private messages. I am rebuilding my site to sell two of my albums now I have become more healthy.

Some asked me to put my website on my personal link. I will do that. I also have to learn more here and about financial support and etc. I have the melody and all your words in note book. Title I am going for

"Monsters Under My Bed" I want to make it for us but also generic where we can allow others to relate. With these words we are going to become a music site LOL.

Tanner, both are killing you!!! I see know differance except one is a monster under your bed and who believes in monsters? Who could understand the words below: fear, afraid, confussion. Shit give me death o Lord but not CH. Give me cancer but not CH. In my prayers.

Working away!

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Post by ..Danielle.. on Apr 17^th, 2006, 12:59am

These are the lyrics to Paul Brandt's "Cry if you want too"
The first time I heard this, it just felt like he was talking about CH's.
I play it a lot when i'm in cycle

Cry if you want to
I won't tell you not to
I won't try to cheer you up
I'll just be here if you want me

There's no use in keeping a stiff upper lip
You can weep you can sleep you can loosen your grip
You can frown you can drown and go down with the ship
You can cry if you want you

Don't ever apologize venting your pain
It's something to me you don't need to explain
I don't need to know why I don't think it's insane
You can cry if you want to

The windows are closed the neighbors aren't home
If it's better with me then to do it alone
I'll draw all the curtains and unplug the phone
You can cry if you want to

You can stare at the ceiling tear at your hair
Swallow your feelings and stagger and swear
You can show things and throw things and I wouldn't care
You can cry if you want to

No I won't make fun of you I won't tell anyone
I won't analyze what you do or you should have done
I won't advise you to go and have fun
You can cry if you want to

when it's empty and ugly and terribly sad
I can't feel what you feel but I know it feels bad
I know that it's real and it makes you so mad
You can cry

Cry if you want to
I won't tell you not to
I won't try to cheer you up
I'll just be here if you want me to be near you

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by sandie99 on Apr 17^th, 2006, 4:43am

Our own song... now that would be just brilliant! :)

Title... I can see that there are plenty of suggestions already. This one came to my mind: "Dancing with the Devil".

Sanna

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by Charlie on Apr 17^th, 2006, 3:53pm

Lotta talent here over and under the surface. Wish I had something along these lines but I have all the creative talent of as bag of hammers. http://www.netsync.net/users/charlies/gifs/quill.gif

Charlie

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Post by maffumatt on Apr 17^th, 2006, 4:04pm

Your song the cave seemed to me to be about CH, I listened to it several times and I can relate to it.

Title: Re: Written by Cluster Headaches.com
Post by Yournotcrazy on Apr 17^th, 2006, 6:41pm

Ya maffumatt, the Cave was about my fight with Ch and depression. I just thought we need one for us and non Religious LOL. Man we do have talent here! I better get the song done quick.

I could not image anything worse then abunch of CH'ers pissed off. Maybe we should become the armies special ops unit. We just go in waves of differant times men and woman. LOL. If were gonna right our own songs souldnt we buy chcardnight.com and play cards too!

OK I will be quiet.

Word,

Kris......

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Post by maria9 on Apr 17^th, 2006, 8:10pm

OK, I will try to start this one, please add to it:

The Monsters Under My Bed

I am afraid to go to sleep at night

for fear that they will wake me and start pounding on my head.....

Marsha

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Post by maffumatt on Apr 17^th, 2006, 8:19pm

one of my fav quotes about CH, i forget who said it first, but its the most accurate description of ch I have heard............... pure and exquisite pain........... if any single line sticks out in my head its that one sentence

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Post by Carl_D on Apr 17^th, 2006, 10:42pm

I believe Drummer was the one who called it exquisite. Very accurate indeed.

I wrote a pretty hardcore song 2 years ago called "Sleepstalker (To My Sweet Serial Victim)" that will be on my FORMER - The Loss of God ep which I hope to have out late summer.

My favorite line to summate my feelings of the beast and CH can be summed up in a Nine Inch Nails song called "The Becoming" where it chant: "Won't give up it wants me dead, goddamn this noise inside my head!" It was my mantra when I first went chronic.

Peace,
Carl D

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Post by I Cant Dance on Apr 18^th, 2006, 12:32am

I am looking forwar to a new song, my theme song lately is Huey Lewis' "I Want a New Drug"

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Post by Donna_D. on Apr 24^th, 2006, 10:22pm

Bump..

This is too good of an idea to let it go four pages back!

DD

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Post by Dragnlance on Apr 25^th, 2006, 9:00am

bump again