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(Message started by: _Lee_ on Mar 14^th, 2006, 4:00am)

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by _Lee_ on Mar 14^th, 2006, 4:00am

You might be drunk, never stupid my friend.

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by nani on Mar 14^th, 2006, 8:55am

No, you're supposed to talk about it. Talking helps get the power of the emotions in check. Talk to us, or a counselor, or a good friend. Just keep talking, and writing. If you're feeling this bad, drinking is not a good idea, though.
Remember Ken, everytime we start with a new slate...we get to draw whatever kind of picture we want. Loss can make us stronger and more appreciative of what we do have. Go on and draw a beautiful picture. hugs, nani

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by maffumatt on Mar 14^th, 2006, 8:59am

Listen to Nani, she's a wise woman. Lee is right on the spot too. Be well.
Matt

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by TomM on Mar 14^th, 2006, 9:10am

Get professional help. No shame in admitting it. Many of us have; many more should.
I am dead serious.
TomM

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by ExplodingEyeBall on Mar 14^th, 2006, 9:24am

Don't delete this thread.

Use it as a starting point towards dealing with those things so you can put them behind you and remove the 'Drk' part of your name.

One at a time, you can go through this post and come to terms with each incident. Don't try tham all at the same time or it will destroy you.

Listen to our family here. Lean on our family here. Let them take you in and let you cry on their shoulder or cry with you but PLEASE...... don't delete this thread.

PM me if you want to talk privately. I've been through some $hit myself.

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by TomM on Mar 14^th, 2006, 9:27am

on 03/14/06 at 09:24:13, ExplodingEyeBall wrote:

Don't delete this thread.

..... don't delete this thread.

PM me if you want to talk privately. I've been through some $hit myself.

Many of us have been through a ton of shit that we prefer not to post on the WWW.
PM me or e-mail me @ tom.meyer@finnegan.com or tgmeyer@verizon.net when you want to chat.
TomM

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by john_d on Mar 14^th, 2006, 9:32am

I liked the post. Hope you talk more, it's a beautiful thing.
Hope and clarity is right around the corner.

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by sandie99 on Mar 14^th, 2006, 9:34am

I'm glad that you told us. [smiley=hug.gif][smiley=hug.gif][smiley=hug.gif]

I know from my own experiences that once you can finally tell everything to someone, that's when things begin to turn better. I hope that you won't delete this thread.

Best wishes,
Sanna

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Dragnlance on Mar 14^th, 2006, 9:45am

Ken,

You are not stupid, you are frustrated, frightened and confused. There is a big difference!
You mention the divorce is different this time. The reason, Love is different. Every person we love, is different, and the way we love them is different. I hope that makes sense. Breaking a relationship is a very hard thing to do.
Do not look at the future as black shadows that you cannot see into, but a bright white light that is difficult to see into. Black equates bleakness and dispair. White equates to positive happy future.
Part of your problem comes from changes on the outside that you cannot seem to control. Change from INSIDE comes from you, which you can control. Your life is in turmoil, but can become positive if you take that step.
You have taken the first step. You contacted us, your family in pain, and we are here to help. The next step is to change your perspective. Your future is not bleak. It is positive, but YOU have to make it that way, starting from the inside. You are a clusterhead, which means you can stand anything life can throw at you, as you already deal with the worst pain known to mankind. You can do this, you can survive and you can make things better.
No way it is going to be easy, but you can do it!!!!

Feel free to contact me as well.

Lance

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by tanner on Mar 14^th, 2006, 11:03am

http://www.dailyom.com/graphics/bambooborder2.jpg Ken I am so glad that everyone jumped in and didn't give you a chance to delete your post. I wanted to be able to tell you that there is always light at the end of every tunnel. I am having to remind myself of this everyday because I have never been so low. I'm not working . I have watched our savings dwindle to nothing. My Linda is carrying the entire financial burden and I am getting hit by the most/worst attacks in the history of my 20 some years of being chronic! There is not a night or day that goes by that I am not trying to figure out a graceful way to end my life without too much collateral damage, but there isn't one! I have people who care about me and would forever think I took the cowards way out. I spend a lot of time on a site called care2 trying to have a positive influence on others just to keep myself from falling through the crack! Then I come here and I read posts from FU and you and so many others and i think (you effffing crybaby get over it and stay the course) this will end and it can only get better. I wish that I had already had the opportunity to meet you in person so you could feel the hug that I am sending you, but it's there!!

lets all hang in there together bro............tim

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by cootie on Mar 14^th, 2006, 11:04am

Seems by a certain age alot of 'what we have dealt with' starts to add up more then what we are looking forward to that is supposed to be GOOD. There's more bad added up and less time for enuff good to make up for it or overpower it. All you can do is find what you like to do and concentrate on that...........do things you like for yourself even if it is jus sittin along a grassy bank fishin with a beer and bucket of chicken. Time to live for you now........and avoid situations that mite end up an addition to the darkness. Seems we dwell on the bad times.......not sure why but we do.......so recognize that as a part of nature and move on and leave it behind you. It's not just YOU feeling this way. I think at one time or other were all haunted by our past because we are not satisfied with how we dealt with things......we did it how we seen it back then......now that we've changed we of course would of dealt differently. Can't dwell on what ya don't have or what's missing.......can't change that.....but you CAN change what you have now or can search for you want or like. It's all you can do. Stupid when drunk and stupid when not Pam

Take care and hang in there.......depression moves over like smoke thru a forest.....don't let it creep to far and suffocate you !!!

ps: Odd you started this thread about this cuz I have been feeling similar....I don't have alot of serious BAD behind me but I do have alot of issues and things I wish I'd handled differently or done differently that have been adding up lately and depressing me. People I didn't spend enuff time with or keep in contact with.....stuf I said or did.......even pets I couldn't tolerate we let go that I fineally understand NOW.......little too late.

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Ghost on Mar 14^th, 2006, 12:56pm

Is he still sleeping it off? [smiley=laugh.gif] [smiley=laugh.gif] [smiley=laugh.gif]

Glad I was able to read it b4 it vanished!

Makes me think.

Thanks

Mike

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by ExplodingEyeBall on Mar 14^th, 2006, 1:02pm

on 03/14/06 at 12:56:39, Ghost wrote:

Makes me think.

Makes me worry.

Does anyone have his phone number?

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Ghost on Mar 14^th, 2006, 1:03pm

Mom and Maria does! ;;D ;;D ;)

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by tanner on Mar 14^th, 2006, 2:19pm

I just want to bump this until someone comes back and says he's ok!

..................tim

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by BlueMeanie on Mar 14^th, 2006, 2:23pm

on 03/14/06 at 14:19:44, tanner wrote:

I just want to bump this until someone comes back and says he's ok!

..................tim

I sure hope so. Please check in Dark Angel.

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by seasonalboomer on Mar 14^th, 2006, 2:30pm

on 03/14/06 at 11:04:12, cootie wrote:

All you can do is find what you like to do and concentrate on that...........do things you like for yourself even if it is jus sittin along a grassy bank fishin with a beer and bucket of chicken.

Sometimes wisdom creeps up and bites you so hard in the ass you didn't even see it coming. Almost made me get teary eyed Pam! Succinct, perfect, exquisite.

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by tanner on Mar 14^th, 2006, 5:11pm

Bump, anybody heard anything yet?

..................tim

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Dragnlance on Mar 14^th, 2006, 7:21pm

nothing yet

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Jonny on Mar 14^th, 2006, 7:27pm

A message was left on his answering machine, ill let you know if I hear more.

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Lizzie2 on Mar 14^th, 2006, 7:35pm

[[{Ken]]} I'm glad you posted....

Jonny - thanks for leaving a message for him.

Ken - we're all here for you, through good AND bad. That's what family does - and THIS family does it better than any other. I've always said that we all need someone who accepts us for everything we are...that's what we can do for you.

Hang in there, buddy...

Carrie/Lizzie2

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Jonny on Mar 14^th, 2006, 7:48pm

on 03/14/06 at 19:35:48, Lizzie2 wrote:

Jonny - thanks for leaving a message for him.

I didnt leave the message, just passing on what I know, Baby.

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Lizzie2 on Mar 14^th, 2006, 7:55pm

on 03/14/06 at 19:48:38, Jonny wrote:

I didnt leave the message, just passing on what I know, Baby.

ohhhHHHHHhhhh i see. Well thanks for passing it on for us! ;) :-*

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by thebbz on Mar 14^th, 2006, 9:06pm

[smiley=huh.gif]
Your not losing anything here... were all gettin drunk with ya. where are you? We miss ya.
Check in when your in the mood.
sheez your one of the best ones here man
jb

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Charlie on Mar 15^th, 2006, 1:14am

Hope things look better by now.

For God's sake check in though. You're being
as hard on some of us as yourself.....well close anyway.

Charlie

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Jasmyn on Mar 15^th, 2006, 3:38am

Hey Ken, divorce is like death, it is a great loss that needs to be mourn and it is even harder when kids are involved.

One of the perks of CH is that you lose friends in the outside world but that you get a permanent family and friendship base here, on this site. Keep on writing here and your poetry, keep on talking until it is out, then you can start dealing with it.

Sometimes life and the past just come like a big bolder, rolling over you until you feel crushed but like Pam said, you cannot change a thing about the past. I know it is easy to say these words and give advise but I need to remind myself of this.

You are not alone, you are not stupid to feel like this or to talk about it.

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Melissa on Mar 15^th, 2006, 7:51am

The people here are true friends to me. I have what some would call a "best friend" (besides my husband of course), but we fell out of that a long time ago, so in actual, she is just my "friend". It's a long story.... But anyway...

There's nothing wrong with us all being your only friends. It's the same for a lot of us, especially due to what it is that connects us.

I believe we were made to be connected and I have yet to find a bond that is stronger than the one we make here. We may not be able to hop in a car and visit each other, but that doesn't matter. It is REAL and it is HERE.

I think we've all been saved 10 times over from this place, and I'm not just talking about CH's. There are so many opinions and personalities milling about, that it's like its' own village.

Anyway, ditto to what the others said, and understanding what you're going through is the usual.

love ya Ken,
:)mel

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by maffumatt on Mar 15^th, 2006, 8:16am

I have moved so often in the last few years that it's hard to keep up with people. I don't think you can say that I have any real friends, at least not in Kansas. I can't get to close to my employees because that will get you screwed in the long run, most of my RL friends I have lost contact with over the years too. I am lucky to have Mary, she's my best friend and as long as I have her and my kids (and you crazy fuckers) thats all I really need in the long run. I post things here that I can't talk about to my wife and I do lean on you people a little, especialy in the wee morning hours when there isn't anything in this world but pain, and self pity,and CH.com. Lean on us my friend..............
Matt

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Drk^Angel on Mar 15^th, 2006, 8:35am

Y'all really think one little case of beer gonna hurt me? LOL

PFDAN......................................... Drk^Angel

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by Melissa on Mar 15^th, 2006, 8:50am

on 03/15/06 at 08:35:05, Drk^Angel wrote:

Y'all really think one little case of beer gonna hurt me? LOL

PFDAN......................................... Drk^Angel

You're a clusterhead. It'd probably take when dropped from 30 feet. ;;D

Title: Re: Don't read plz... I'm drunk and stupid.
Post by john_d on Mar 15^th, 2006, 9:39am

on 03/15/06 at 08:35:05, Drk^Angel wrote:

Y'all really think one little case of beer gonna hurt me? LOL

PFDAN......................................... Drk^Angel

yes, but good luck with the real stuff