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(Message started by: ClusterChuck on Feb 16^th, 2006, 5:15am)

Title: Hello, again (added to)
Post by ClusterChuck on Feb 16^th, 2006, 5:15am

OK, I guess it is high time I did something right (or is it right?). I am getting beat up on many sides about this. It is time I told you what is up, and where I have been.

No, I have not had any more heart attacks. Yes, I am still getting hit, regularly. Yes, I am still working. No, I am not dating anyone. Yes, the Warden from Hell is still alive. Yes, oxygen still works, sometimes. No, I am not taking any meds for my CH.

But, the one major change is, that I have finally gone to a doctor (several, actually) and have been diagnosed with severe depression. There, it is out in the open.

Let me back up a bit: before I went to Norway, I stopped taking any CH meds. I got sick of all the experimentation, and side effects, when NOTHIN was doing squat, for my hits. The funny thing was, that my hits started to decrease. I went to Norway (had a VERY enlightening and enjoyable time) and came home. I was down to about 4 to 8 hits a day. It was delightful! After a couple weeks, my hit count started back up again, and got back to the 10 to 15 a day. Most were KIP 7 or higher. I even had two KIP 10’s. (That brings it up to about 8 KIP 10’s in 27 years.) Evidently, my mind refused to accept the numbers that used to be normal. I pulled into a shell. I stopped seeing or talking to people, except those that I had to, for work. I didn’t leave the house, unless I absolutely had to. I started having trouble sleeping. I stopped eating. I got down to only an hour of sleep a day. I lost a lot of weight. I stopped doing normal chores around the house. I cried a LOT. I was told I looked like death warmed over. I didn’t even go home for Christmas. I missed a lot of work.

Typical of me, I refused to admit there was anything wrong. Some how, I was even able to hide, most of it, from my daughters and ex-wife. My boss was the one to see through it. He basically forced me to get some help. I am now taking some good drugs.

Many things are coming back to par. Some are not, yet. Unfortunately, all the weight I lost, I found most of it. I am now getting about 3 or 4 hours of sleep a day. My cluster hits are down to 3 to 8 a day. They are still bouncing from side to side, though. I wish it would make up its mind. I am not missing work. I am sort of eating, again.

I am still having trouble with normal chores, like laundry. I kept buying more clothes, so I would not have to wash and dry them. I now have enough clothes to go at least 55 days. I am still having trouble associating with people. I am trying. It is very hard. I still keep telling myself that this will pass.

My doctor has almost forced me to write and post this. I am still having trouble coming out into the open again.

I am not looking for your vibes, prayers, or any of that. It is just time I let you know what has happened to me. I am sure that this will end. Hopefully, soon. Then I will be back to normal. But then again, maybe it has been good that the foul mouthed, dirty minded, harassing PITA, that I was, has not been here, and maybe never should come back. Whatever.

There, now I have let you all know. You don’t have to worry. I am fine. I am sorry for the length of this, but I cut it down to as short as I could. This has been VERY difficult, and time consuming to write.

But I am fine. Don’t worry about me.

Chuck

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Melissa on Feb 16^th, 2006, 6:14am

I hear ya, I know where you're coming from, and I know where you can go. Let me be an example that there IS light at the end of the tunnel. Nothing miraculous, nothing extraordinary, but getting back to "life".

Glad your doc twisted your arm and that you posted Chuck.

You know where to find me.

love,
mel

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Langa on Feb 16^th, 2006, 6:38am

Hi Chucky!

I'm so happy you posted luv. Depression is an awful thing to deal with and i'm so happy you're on meds that are helping you get back on your feet...your doc sounds like a good man too.

Hang in there my friend...there truly is light at the end of the tunnel and you are one tough, old bird :-*.

Know that we love you and miss you and are always here for you.

Love and prayers,
Langa

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by sandie99 on Feb 16^th, 2006, 7:02am

Chuck,

I'm sending some ((((((((vibes))))))) & prayers on your way. :) I'm glad to see you here again. :)

Best wishes & PF days,
Sanna

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by LeLimey on Feb 16^th, 2006, 7:12am

They say misery loves company.. and you won't know what misery is until you spend time in my company again this summer! ;)
I know where you are honeybun and I know how hard it is to make the effort to breathe never mind anything else. Existing is a monumental effort and as for thinking about living? ha.
You will get through this Chuckles, sounds like you have a good doctor there and with the right meds you're on the right track. Depression is soul destroying and I know how hard it is to be with people, even online.
If it isn't for the bad times we'd never know how bloody brilliant the good times are and I promise you there are good times ahead.
Remember we love you though and we'll be here rooting for you even when you don't want to be here to. We're with you 100% of the way, any time and all the time. Don't forget that okay? EVER! (Remember me? The short bitchy one? Well I was in a GOOD mood last time so don't make me come after you :P)

Did I tell you I think of you as one of my oldest friends?!
lots and lots of love
Helen XXX

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by pattik on Feb 16^th, 2006, 8:49am

Hi Chuck,
I think I understand how difficult it was for you to get this all written out to us, but your doctor was right to make you do this. Putting things into words is very therapeutic, and who better to accept and understand than this family. Don't feel pressure to post a lot, but I hope we will see you back here more and more as your life normalizes. We were pretty worried, and its just a relief to know that you are okay. Please keep in touch. [smiley=hug.gif] Pat

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by BobG on Feb 16^th, 2006, 9:37am

Been wondering when your name would show here again.
So sorry to hear about your, shall we say, down time but wonderful to hear you got help and are helping yourself to recovery.
I know you didn't ask for it but sending you best wishes and prayers.

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by minnie on Feb 16^th, 2006, 9:40am

[smiley=girlflash.gif] [smiley=winkkiss.gif] [smiley=hug.gif] [smiley=moonwiggle.gif] [smiley=sgrin.gif]
Chuckiepoo,
Love to you and Stephanie.I know how easy it is to crawl in a hole because of depression.I do spend most of my weekends at home alone with the cats.Church gets me out Sundays and I usually stay out til I pick up the girls.Would be very easy to stay in bed.I'm on Lexapro and that seems to help me.I had lost weight too and it seemed to find me again >:( .Keep well and please know that when your ready your seat is saved and so is your oar.We Love you and Stephanie so please try to keep us posted the place isn't the same without you.These guys try to be perverts and sexist but we need the old pro vert back [smiley=sgrin.gif]
Minnie

Title: Hello Chuck!
Post by Richr8 on Feb 16^th, 2006, 9:42am

on 02/16/06 at 05:15:10, ClusterChuck wrote:

But, the one major change is, that I have finally gone to a doctor (several, actually) and have been diagnosed with severe depression. There, it is out in the open.

I pulled into a shell. I stopped seeing or talking to people, except those that I had to, for work. I didn’t leave the house, unless I absolutely had to. I started having trouble sleeping. I stopped eating. I got down to only an hour of sleep a day. I lost a lot of weight. I stopped doing normal chores around the house. I cried a LOT. I was told I looked like death warmed over. I didn’t even go home for Christmas. I missed a lot of work.

Typical of me, I refused to admit there was anything wrong. Some how, I was even able to hide, most of it, from my daughters and ex-wife. My boss was the one to see through it. He basically forced me to get some help. I am now taking some good drugs.

I am still having trouble with normal chores, like laundry. I kept buying more clothes, so I would not have to wash and dry them. I now have enough clothes to go at least 55 days. I am still having trouble associating with people. I am trying. It is very hard. I still keep telling myself that this will pass.

My doctor has almost forced me to write and post this. I am still having trouble coming out into the open again.

Chuck

I'm new here but not to CH and have not had the pleasure of meeting you. From reading your post, it makes me wonder if I need some help too. Many of the symptoms you identify, such as, sleeplessness, isolation, not eating, low energy , socializing, are all things that are apparent in my life or are becoming a reason for concern. I have often thought about getting help, but always defer to the fact that it is just the condition that drives the behavior. After reading your post, I may look for help myself and quit blaming my psychological and social state on this horrible condition. In any event, you are clearly not alone, I have read many accounts from many of our freinds here that struggle with similar, "disfunction." I applaud you for taking that step and hope that you keep us posted on your progress so that atleast I might learn something of what can be a devastating psychological component of this condition.

Best of luck to you my freind,

Rich

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Jimi on Feb 16^th, 2006, 9:54am

Depression is a way of life for many on here Chuck. I mean, how can it NOT be. Not many peeps on here get hit as hard or as often as you. Depression seems like a normal bedfellow to me. I am glad you have found a good Doc to figure out the right drug to help you thru this. I want to thank you for the courage to post this. See you in July.

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Mastifflvr28 on Feb 16^th, 2006, 10:12am

Chuck,
So glad to see you posting.
Sending you vibes, no matter what!!
We love ya,
Mast

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by catlind on Feb 16^th, 2006, 10:21am

Vibes and prayers? No I don't think so. A REALLY big 2x4? You bet.

Chuck depression goes hand in hand with this shit. You know that, you've seen it and helped so many who have experienced it. I know what it's like to crawl into that shell, and I know what it's like to come back out of it. I'm glad you are getting help.

One thing to do, is to force yourself to have a shower every day. It sounds simple, and it sounds ridiculous, but that little act can help you get through all this. No matter how much you don't want to, no matter how much you want to just hide, force yourself to do ONE normal thing every day. (whatever normal is in your world ;) )

And when you are ready, know that I'll be waiting on the other side of the light at the end of the tunnel....

with a 2x4 ;)

Cat

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Cathi04 on Feb 16^th, 2006, 10:56am

Hey, Chuck?? It's all good, my friend..........no vibes, just the constant interaction of friends who care so much about you-why, I'd almost do your laundry for you!
Had a nice conv with Carole last month. you're right, she, too, was clueless.or covering for you!
You KNOW what this is all about. The beast will do ANYTHING to destroy. This is one of his tricks.......the name of THIS game is to NEVER, EVER let the beast win-right?
The light is always on, Chuck.......

Cathi

PS-STEPHANIEEEEEEEE??? Check in, please!!!

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Svenn on Feb 16^th, 2006, 11:02am

:'(

No words is needed here

Svenn

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by vig on Feb 16^th, 2006, 11:09am

we're here for ya bro...
you aint alone

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Karla on Feb 16^th, 2006, 11:29am

I've been where your at and I know how bad it can get. Thank God for your boss and your dr. There is help out there for this and you don't have to suffer forever. Soon you will be the old Chuckipoo running around here. I have missed you. Take care and God bless you.

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by aprilbee on Feb 16^th, 2006, 11:31am

There is ALWAYS tomorrow...only way I get through some days...been fighting depression since I was a teenager...sometimes I feel bipolar...going from extreme happiness and then one wrong word and boom...crying and mad and depressed....there is ALWAYS tomorrow...

my favorite line in any movie is from Broadcast news...she tells her boyfriend that she's never hung up on someone because what if the next thing they said changed eveything...(then she promptly hung up on him), but my point is in your darkest hour, the next hour could bring total clarity to your situation and change everything...

hang in there...we are all here not just for CH but for mental support. it takes a lot to admit you have depression, we are all so strong, yet SO vunerable...

Good luck to you in your treatment...glad you found someone to help, and you KNOW you have hundreds of people here who understand... :-*

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Charlie on Feb 16^th, 2006, 12:04pm

It's good to hear from you Chuck and I hope things are getting back on track. I'm glad that you have some help from your employer and I guess you found a doctor that won't let you get away with much. Good.

We all need something. I was on the way a few years ago but lots of the anti-seizure meds....as well as those so many here take....are anti-drepessants. I wonder about what I'd be like without it all the time. I've been wondering about you too but now I expect to hear from you regularly. It's your CH assignment.

By the way, we don't want a "normal" Chuck, just your old fun-loving self will do nicely and keep after that lovely mug of yours. http://www.netsync.net/users/charlies/gifs/mirror.gif

God, it's good to hear from you.

Charlie

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by burnt-toast on Feb 16^th, 2006, 12:17pm

Ya' sure cover a lot of ground fast - thanks for the update.

Let's hope you can find time to drop back more often and my hopes are that along with your docs. we can somehow help you cope with your depression.

Best Wishes

Tom

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Sandy_C on Feb 16^th, 2006, 12:17pm

OK, at your request, no prayers - no vibes.

Glad to see you coming back here. You've been missed. As Pat said, writing is theraputic, so whenever you need a little therapy - just write to us. You know we'll write back.

Sandy

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Linda_Howell on Feb 16^th, 2006, 12:19pm

Chuck who? :P

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Peppermint on Feb 16^th, 2006, 1:22pm

Damnit, browser went all haywire after I composed my post... maybe it was too much anyway.

Chuck, I'm glad to hear from you, you know everyone misses you. This is tough stuff, and I wouldn't know anything about how you're getting through it, but I think you started off great with this post.

Listen here, that business about that dirtyminded, foulmouth, blah, blah PITA... *I* miss that guy, and I know I'm not alone.
Don't sell yourself short, you have a lot to offer... who else is the offical booby-snatcher, the "PRO"vert, the one who seems to know the cure for stick-up-the-ass-syndrome? Hm?

Stick around, I'm sure it'll get easier with time.... and if it doesn't, use that 2x4 Cat mentioned she'd give you, might lift your spirits to play whack-a-fool..

All my love to you (and prayers so Ha),
Pep

P.S. How is Stefanie, besides being alive? Tell her to get her patootie on here for a min.

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by nani on Feb 16^th, 2006, 1:33pm

on 02/16/06 at 13:22:05, Peppermint wrote:

that dirtyminded, foulmouth, blah, blah PITA... *I* miss that guy, and I know I'm not alone.

Well, I don't miss him too much. ;)
I do however, miss my PITA boss at "the paper".
Listen, butthead (that's my work nickname for him), I know where you are. I've had to claw myself outta that place a few times. Your claws are sharp (even if your mind isn't) and you'll be back to your old self soon. You know we love ya!!! Hugs (and I need a raise), nani

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Cathi04 on Feb 16^th, 2006, 2:36pm

:o :oOH MAH GAWWWDDD!!!!!!!!!! :o :o
I've GOT it!

You simply need to cut your hair, and all will be well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously..no matter how foulmouthed, crusty, grouchy or perverted you are...........

You have friends at the ready, to hit you with sticks, offend you, pelt you with livestock excrement, and love-bomb you-whatever is appropriate........

Glad to see you've opened the door friend, you've been missed.

The Old Hag.....

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Woobie on Feb 16^th, 2006, 4:18pm

[smiley=hug.gif]
[smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Jasmyn on Feb 16^th, 2006, 6:42pm

I'm glad to see you. It takes a lot of effort, in this state of mind, to interact with the world but we have to force ourselves, in the end it is worth it.

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by thebbz on Feb 16^th, 2006, 9:10pm

;)
Took very large balls for that post. Enlarged balls are the first sign of depression decreasing. [smiley=laugh.gif] Hats off, glad your fightin.
all the best
jb

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by nancyc on Feb 16^th, 2006, 10:55pm

HI there, my brother! There have been so many times I have thought of you. I understand the depression shit....believe me, getting hit and going thru the big D is a hell in it's own....But always know, you have a family here...and I am only one state away...Me and Tristan (who is almost four now) will come and kick the beast butt for you if need be...Know you are loved! And God bless you for all the times you have been there for me, bro. You have kept me going thru so much. God bless ...I love you, smiles,nancyc PS I thank God for each one of my clusterbuds here!

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Gator on Feb 17^th, 2006, 3:25am

Welcome home, bro. You've been sorely missed. That post took a lot of courage. Ya done good. I understand only too well the hole you are crawling out of - it damn near killed me, with help from my dumb ass. It's always good to see another survivor. Tell that boss of yours that your cluster family thanks him for stepping in where others might not have wanted to get involved.

Looking forward to seeing you around more often.

Mike

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Ghost on Feb 20^th, 2006, 10:28am

Sorry I missed the return but I am so dang glad to see you back ! ;;D

Hang tough my friend and dont let the carp get you down. :'(

Mike

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Cathi04 on Feb 21^st, 2006, 11:23am

Chuck, I am going to keep this thread alive. You have done so much for so many. You are theuor cheering section, when you need the cheers. You are the soft shoulder, the kick in the pants and the outrageous humor.
All that is good, please dont get me wrong, but it is what is underlying......that heart of yours- that consuming concern for everyone else that makes you shine.
You popped your head out once, and it was good for all of us-including you.....please, pop in again soon.

Just know you are loved by many.
Cathi

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Sandy_C on Feb 21^st, 2006, 11:32am

Good morning Chuck. Hope today's a better one than yesterday, and that tomorrow is better than today.

Sandy

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Jasmyn on Feb 21^st, 2006, 1:08pm

Ditto Cathi.

Chuck we are gonna be like flees on a dog until you show your head again ;)

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Ghost on Feb 22^nd, 2006, 9:13am

Keeping it alive

;;D

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Ghost on Feb 24^th, 2006, 10:58am

Still keeping this alive
;;D

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Edna on Feb 25^th, 2006, 1:29am

Chuck my friend,

go check your mail

love you much,

big hugs,

EDNA :-*

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Svenn on Feb 25^th, 2006, 7:03pm

Keeping it alive

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Cathi04 on Feb 25^th, 2006, 8:29pm

(hands on hips, stomping my foot)......CHUCK? You get back here immediately!!!
People are looking to hear from you.
Just a word to let us know you're working on this thing.
I completely understand laying low, but ya gotta take some baby steps, mister!

Cathi

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Svenn on Feb 27^th, 2006, 5:30am

Keeping it alive

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Jasmyn on Feb 28^th, 2006, 1:07am

Call in Chuck!

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Tim_w on Feb 28^th, 2006, 11:59am

Been there done that Chuck ! not fun !
Praying things turn around for you real soon !
And praying you get some much needed PAIN FREE time!
Happy Pappy

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Ghost on Mar 1^st, 2006, 10:03am

Keepn it alive
;;D

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Svenn on Mar 2^nd, 2006, 2:26pm

Keeping it alive

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Charlie on Mar 2^nd, 2006, 6:10pm

Quote:

Keeping it alive

Keeping "it" alive Chuck.

Yer it. http://www.smileygenerator.us/forum/Smileys/default/cry.gif?SSImageQuality=Full

Charlie

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Cathi04 on Mar 2^nd, 2006, 9:27pm

this is a YOOOO-HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

bump..............
Chuck?

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Ghost on Mar 3^rd, 2006, 9:38am

Keepn it alive ;) ;;D

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Svenn on Mar 5^th, 2006, 8:49am

Keeping it alive

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Jasmyn on Mar 5^th, 2006, 11:59am

Come on Chuck, just say Hey all! ;)

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by sandie99 on Mar 5^th, 2006, 12:19pm

Keeping it alive. :)

I hope that you're feeling better, Chuck. [smiley=hug.gif]

Best wishes,
Sanna

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Svenn on Mar 6^th, 2006, 9:39am

Hi there

Had a few minutes on the phone with Chuck today on the phone.

He is alive and in his own words "doing fine"

Was damn good to hear his voice

Svenn

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Ghost on Mar 6^th, 2006, 10:28am

Thanks Svenn great to hear it, Tell him he is missed and we all are glad he is doing fine!

Mike

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Svenn on Mar 7^th, 2006, 12:22pm

Keeping it alive

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Cathi04 on Mar 7^th, 2006, 10:55pm

CHUCK SETZCO, YOU LONGHAIRED CROSSDRESSING HIPPY FREAK............................................................bite me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope that does it..............
if it works, he'll be out here in no time!

(dont tell him where I'm hiding, K?)
Annie-Onymous

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Linda_Howell on Mar 8^th, 2006, 12:04am

Chuck. I have just one thing to say to you if you're reading this at all.

If I was feeling like you are right now.
If I was hibernating just a little too long. If I was worrying everyone who loved me.
If I wasn't heard from in a long long time.

What would you say to me.?

Linda

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Jasmyn on Mar 8^th, 2006, 12:07am

Thanks for the update Svenn.

Chuck, it is time for you to say a few word here, it is very important to our sanity ;)

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Svenn on Mar 10^th, 2006, 2:10am

Keeping this alive for a dear friend

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by catlind on Mar 10^th, 2006, 8:45am

on 03/07/06 at 22:55:28, Cathi04 wrote:

CHUCK SETZCO, YOU LONGHAIRED CROSSDRESSING HIPPY FREAK............................................................bite me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You left out lily white a$$ed before the freak ;)

Cat with a 2x4

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Jasmyn on Mar 11^th, 2006, 2:00am

Bump

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Charlie on Mar 11^th, 2006, 11:59am

Chuck..... check in or else we'll post those pictures we took of you and Jonny. http://monsterteam.info/images/smilies/smiles_pack/party10.gif?SSImageQuality=Full

http://www.mzon.ru/public/kuzya/fluder.gif?SSImageQuality=Full

Charlie

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Jonny on Mar 11^th, 2006, 12:25pm

on 03/11/06 at 11:59:32, Charlie wrote:

Chuck..... check in or else we'll post those pictures we took of you and Jonny.

In my defense.....I was drunk, passed out and I have no idea where the midget in the pictures came from.....LMAO ;;D

Title: ;) ;) ;)
Post by cootie on Mar 11^th, 2006, 3:15pm

One thing that is very true is that some of the funniest funnest coolest people others "think" are that way all the time can be quite the opposite and the fun person can be so misunderstood cuz in real life they have the severe'st depression mood swings and problems with life. I'm always our groups CLOWN here at home so to speak....shut up I heard that ;) ......I am always makein everyone laugh at home no matter where we go. But I can't always live up to it and when I am not myself around everyone or I sort of start gettin moody and depressed and keep my distance and start keepin to myself to deal with it they think I am pissed at them about sumthing and being a bitch. I am a supporter and I go thru alot of depression modes.......usually a few things goin wrong in a row sets the pace. I don't take stress well yet I sure the hell can talk to others about theres. I've met you a few times Chuckie and you struck me as bein a really kick ass cool guy and alot of fun and laughs and unpredictable not to mention spontaneous. With all the pain you go thru it's a wonder you can keep up and don't fall into depressions.....and there are ALOT of good meds out there that can help you change a bit to be able look at yourself from a different angle and change "how" you deal and help you deal better. I also go thru spells where I withdraw from everything......but no one misses me like they do you dam it !!! ;;D ;;D ;;D Coolness for Chuckie Pam

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by kcopelin on Mar 11^th, 2006, 6:07pm

Okay Chuck,
I have never met you. But thanks to Linda Howell I have seen your picture. And I will post it, I swear I will, if you don't at least tell us all to STFU.
please.
kathy
p.s. been there bro-depression sucks big time and I though I was too strong to succumb. Yeah, right. :-[ got scars to prove that I survived buddy and I wouldn't have if I hadn't talked to someone. Even someone who just pissed me off.

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by ClusterChuck on Mar 12^th, 2006, 10:44pm

OMG!!! I can't believe this thread is still active. Let it die. No one needs to be reminded. I will survive, or I won't .. whatever ..

Typical of me, I am not responding to any of the depression treatments, in the way they hoped, so far. Maybe it is time to say screw them all, and just go hybernate ... I hate all the drugs they push.

The beast has been particularly vicious this past week. Today, I have broken my own record, with the number of hits. I have had one EVERY single hour, between 5 of and 5 past the hour. I am looking all the empty O2 containers. I probably will run out tonight. Oh well. Shit happens.

I'm not here to whine, I hate that. I am not here to ask for prayers or vibes, save those for those that really need them. I am just asking you to let this thread go. Enough is enough.

I am fine.

Maybe, someday, things will get better for me, if not, oh well ...

But please, let this thread die. Spend your time and energies where they are needed and deserved.

Chuck

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Jasmyn on Mar 13^th, 2006, 12:31am

You see... bugging you got you here to talk at least and there is no worthier person to spend some time and energy on.

Chuck you've been here for us many years.

You will get my vibes even if you don't want it. :P You are loved. :-*

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Svenn on Mar 13^th, 2006, 1:36am

You should know better then say that Chuck"brother"

That we keep this thread alive is bc we all love you

Its called PURE LOVE

btw,was great to finally talk to you again

Svenn

Title: Re: Hello, again (added to)
Post by Charlie on Mar 13^th, 2006, 10:49am

Glad you're still angry (who wouldn't be?) enough to post this Chuck.

The problem killing this thread is that we love it almost as much as we love you... http://www.netsync.net/users/charlies/gifs/loveshower.gif

Beats the shit out of me why though.. :o

Charlie

Title: Re: Hello, again (added to)
Post by Melissa on Mar 13^th, 2006, 11:12am

Chuck, try Cymbalta yet?

Title: Re: Hello, again
Post by Sandy_C on Mar 13^th, 2006, 3:07pm

on 03/12/06 at 22:44:24, ClusterChuck wrote:

Spend your time and energies where they are needed and deserved.

Chuck

Doh! We are doing just that, Chuck. We're spending our time right where we want to spend our time. With you.

;;D

Sandy