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(Message started by: Melissa on Dec 28^th, 2005, 12:16pm)

Title: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Melissa on Dec 28^th, 2005, 12:16pm

DAMNIT >:( >:( >:( >:(

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Ghost on Dec 28^th, 2005, 12:29pm

Got Vibes and hugs?
Now you do hang tough and keep strong!!! ;) :-*

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Grandma_Sweet_Boy on Dec 28^th, 2005, 12:32pm

Hang in there kiddo. You know you'll be really ticked off with yourself if you do that. C'mon, you can do it.

Breathe, Melly, just breathe!

Hugs
Carol

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by JDH on Dec 28^th, 2005, 12:34pm

So Mel it sounds like you either just ate or had sex :o
Be strong, you'll make it ;)

Jim

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by pattik on Dec 28^th, 2005, 12:39pm

[smiley=nono.gif] [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by seasonalboomer on Dec 28^th, 2005, 12:39pm

Damnit, don't give in to the bullshit that "the voices" are spewing. No, it's not okay to just have one. And no, it isn't THAT hard! You have all the strength you need to stop, just shout them down and get on with it. Our society perpetuates the idea that you are likely to relapse into being a smoker because it is SOOOOO HARDDDDD. Bullshit.

#1 - Start to focus on the image you have of yourself. Does she have a cig in her hand? If so, you better start redrawing your image. And she shouldn't have a smoke in her hand. What does she like to do? What does she act like when things get stressful? It's all part of moving past cigarettes.

As soon as you change your iamge of yourself you start living the life of a nonsmoker, not simply someone who doesn't get ot smoke anymore. WHICH YOU DON'T!

So, that's all for this afternoon's "boot camp" moment.

(You can do it.)

Scott (9 years after my last cig)

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Rock_Lobster on Dec 28^th, 2005, 1:06pm

Have at it.
http://www.bryanhenry.com/fart_flamer.jpg

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Ghost on Dec 28^th, 2005, 1:14pm

on 12/28/05 at 13:06:40, Rock_Lobster wrote:

Have at it.
http://www.bryanhenry.com/fart_flamer.jpg

OMG!!!
LMMFAO!!!

[smiley=headbanger.gif] [smiley=spit.gif] [smiley=bow.gif]

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Donna_D. on Dec 28^th, 2005, 1:14pm

Food for Thought:

I have had Walking Pneumonia since before Christmas.

If I weren't a smoker I probably would be well by now.

Being sick sucks.

Don't do it, Mel.

DD

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by thomas on Dec 28^th, 2005, 2:12pm

I've had a cold since Thanksgiving, if I didn't smoke i'd be well too. ::)

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by nani on Dec 28^th, 2005, 2:26pm

Please don't!!!

Melly, you've been a real inspiration to me by losing all that weight AND quitting smoking!! I'm struggling with those issues myself right now, I NEED you to stay strong. Call me selfish... :-[ hugs, nani

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Jasmyn on Dec 28^th, 2005, 2:51pm

((((((((((((((((((((((((Hang tough)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Sean_C on Dec 28^th, 2005, 2:59pm

You can do it Melllypoo ;;D Don't let it win, you can do it. ;)

Sean.................................

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by E-Double on Dec 28^th, 2005, 3:20pm

Don't spark one up.
Grab one of your little guy's teethers and chew like hell.

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Melissa on Dec 28^th, 2005, 4:03pm

Thank you so much everyone, well uh... maybe except Rock :-/, for your words of wisdom. This is my first cycle NOT smoking, so it's been a very trying one for me. I have had clusters for 15 years, and 12 of them I smoked. Consequently, my clusters and my smoking both started when I was 16. Anyway, Jan 23rd will mark 1 yr since I had quit...again. Some of you remember last time I quit, I had quit for 1 yr and 4 months... then I had Eli and my CH's came back with a vengence when he was 2 1/2 weeks old. I also had started smoking again because I could not bear going through the cycle without some sort of crutch. (and I sure as hell can't drink!)

I shouldn't have much longer in my cycle (praying) so it's amazing to me that the urge is so strong right now. :-/ I just hope I can make it through, and I'm sorry to have outburst on this, but I was having a VERY hard time.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

:-*mel

P.S. I really don't want to start up again, I like the way I smell, I love the way I don't get sick anymore and have colds for forever, and I like the fact it's not the first and last things I think of in the morning and before bed. It doesn't dictate my life anymore.... I do.

Think I'll tattoo that somewhere...

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by lionsound on Dec 28^th, 2005, 4:15pm

on 12/28/05 at 16:03:53, Melissa wrote:

It doesn't dictate my life anymore.... I do.

You said it yourself!!! :D

GO MEL!!!!!

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Karla on Dec 28^th, 2005, 5:33pm

I have found with any drug or narcotic etc cigarettes included that you will have cycles of dreams of using and desires of using. The most you can do is prepare for these cycles and over come them by being strong and having a good support group. Vent away. Keep your positive imagae in your minds eye. That will help alot. Remember to breath and remember this to shall pass.

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Charlie on Dec 28^th, 2005, 6:29pm

Don't do it. It's way too hard to quit all over again. You'll hate yourself. Remember how much fun you have standing out in a blizzard with others. What joy! http://www.netsync.net/users/charlies/gifs/happy arms.gif

Charlie (who will never understand why anyone would restart after months or even years. That I do not get)

Keep at it Mel. http://www.netsync.net/users/charlies/gifs/girl wave.gif

Charlie

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by TonyG1 on Dec 28^th, 2005, 8:59pm

Don't do it. Like i'm one to talk but we are CH sufferers and are much stronger for it in terms of whipping a need for a smoke ...

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Jonny on Dec 28^th, 2005, 9:22pm

I did coke everyday for nearly 15 years, started selling it so I didnt have to pay for it. When I started smoking it I knew I had to quit and did, just walked away from it!

Ciggs are more hard to quit than herion, its something most cant just walk away from.

Melly, you got a year under your belt on this....Dont you dare fuck this up!!!

I still smoke ciggs so that tells you how much stronger you are than I am, Keep being that strong....your a role modle for lots of folks here.....Even me!! :-*

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Melissa on Dec 28^th, 2005, 10:19pm

Don't worry, I didn't light up, and I won't.

It's been a very trying day though... My son hit a tree when hubby and daughter took him sledding...

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v708/mfiltz/ElisOwies.jpg

He's OK, but I need to pick up some of that cream that helps to prevent scarring. We are extremely lucky a branch didn't take out an eye or two. :(

And before they came home, I had just got home from shopping and was taking things out of the car when Nikita (our Sheltie) went across the road (she normally doesn't do that, she always is by my feet). I turned around and saw the car coming, and well, I saw the front passenger side tire hit her. To make a long story short, we got back from the vet an hour ago, and she had said we have one lucky dog. Just need to keep an eye on her for the next 24 hours, make sure she doesn't vomit or her gums turn white. She's sorta groggy from the pain pills the doc gave her. Basically, no broken bones, no internal noises, she can walk (with a slight wobble on the hips, where she got hit), and she's responsive. She is going to be VERY sore for awhile. :(

And now that things have calmed down, my head is hurting again. I'm sure tonights activity will be up. ::) I'm a little pissed off right now as I bought Jesse a bottle of Single Malt Scotch that was on sale and I CAN'T HAVE A DAMN DRINK OF IT!

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Grandma_Sweet_Boy on Dec 28^th, 2005, 10:45pm

Aww, that poor little tyke. Now that's the saddest little face I've seen in a while. I'm sure he'll be fine Mel, but in the meantime, give him a big hug from me.

And the dog - good Lord woman - you've had a day and a half. Thankfully, it's nearly over. Just go to bed - tomorrow's another day!!!

Hugs comin' your way tonight.
Carol

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by cootie on Dec 28^th, 2005, 11:50pm

Smokein BAAAAAAD !! Am glad I never developed the habit......but I do smoke when we go out......bad bad bad !! I feel like shit the next day.....thought it was havein a few beers when out but when I drank pop all nite twice recently and not one beer (I was drivein) I REALIZED it was the dam cigs !!!! I am amazed at how the docs ask you rite off the bat if you smoke when you go in for sumthin. The doc that treated my broken foot said it WILL AND DOES slow healing by a long shot and screws up the immune system.....my doc keeps askin me about smokeing also.....said it flares up arthritis and other pain problems and does cause colds ect to last ALOT longer and get more of them. New Years eve party is comein up and I jus know I am goin to smoke like a dam chimney but I don't want to 'dam it' !!! Screws up my sinus for days too......all sorts of things. WHY DO WE SMOKE ANYHOW ?? I can tell if sumone is a heavy smoker by lookin at em.......yellow teeth and all Pam :P

Keep up the good work........don't be a butttttttt !!!!!

PS: sorry bout the accidents around the house....glad everyone is ok !!!!!

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Mastifflvr28 on Dec 28^th, 2005, 11:53pm

So sorry you had such a crappy day Melly,
I'm SOOOOOOO glad you didn't smoke. Keep it up, you can do it.
You do NOT want to go through quitting AGAIN!!!!!
Love ya sweety, sending huge vibes up to ya
Mast
2years quit in Feb

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by nani on Dec 29^th, 2005, 12:11am

Oh, poor Eli and Nikita! :( I'm sorry y'all have had such a bad day. I'm glad everybody is OK, though. :)

And I'm so proud of you for not giving in, Melly!! WTG!

http://bestsmileys.com/happy/5.gif

hugs, nani

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Linda_Howell on Dec 29^th, 2005, 3:37am

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So Mel it sounds like you either just ate or had sex

Nope. I'll bet you anything it's because of her headaches.

Melissa, you gave me a pack of your last cigs in Nashville. Said you were done. I know you've been back to them a few times BUT hon you did it for a year or more and you can do this. You are obviously a LOT more disiplined than you think you are. I am so very proud of you you have no idea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do I have to come to the frozen tundra where you live and kick your butt?

Linda

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Linda_Howell on Dec 29^th, 2005, 3:42am

I see you're on-line right now Mel. Don't make me call you and wake up your family ;;D

Linda

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Melissa on Dec 29^th, 2005, 3:54am

Quote:

Nope. I'll bet you anything it's because of her headaches.

How the hell did you know?? ;;D

Quote:

I see you're on-line right now Mel. Don't make me call you and wake up your family

LMFAO Linda! I am trying to wind down from an attack. :P My anxiety is just a little high right now, so I also had to take a Xanax and am waiting for it to kick in.

:-*melly

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Linda_Howell on Dec 29^th, 2005, 4:10am

SEE! I know all and se all. ;;D

Can we all give Melissa a big ol "high five" and a "fuckeneh" while we're at it????????????????????

Hell yes you can do this Mel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Linda

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Linda_Howell on Dec 29^th, 2005, 4:12am

Oh. a , P.S. here.

Mast? Drag out those pom-poms once again.

Linda

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by vig on Dec 29^th, 2005, 4:31pm

High Five!
;;D

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by Mastifflvr28 on Dec 29^th, 2005, 6:37pm

High Five and Fuckeneh!!!

http://www.maplefallswebdesign.com/misc/cheerleader.gif

:)Mast

Title: Re: I am really, really close to lighting one up
Post by LadyElaine on Dec 30^th, 2005, 7:35am

Mel every time you want a smoke, go suck on the o2!
It helps me. I am Pulling for ya !