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(Message started by: LadyElaine on Aug 22nd, 2005, 9:37pm)
Title: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by LadyElaine on Aug 22nd, 2005, 9:37pm
I can usually find the bright side of things, but right now all I see is darkness.  My dad died 5 months ago today. It wasn't the best day for me today. For my whole family it was a crappy day. Then I get a phone call from my daughter she wants her daughter to come live with us.
No way would I turn that child down. Then I go get the mail and what besides bills is in my mail box.
A letter from IRS saying we owe them $4,476 from our 2003 tax. I know tomorrow is another day. I swear I can't think clear these days. To much to fast. I am paying hard for God to show me a bright side. Just a little light would be nice. I just want tO rest, sleep. Sleep isn't something I have done a lot of between clusters and hot flashes. I just so damn tired.
OK I am complaining about life. Figure I can every now and then. Then tonight it stormed and I bet all my turnip seeds were washed away.  :'(
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by alienspacebabe on Aug 22nd, 2005, 9:45pm
You absolutely can complain about life, Elaine!

There is a bright side - it will show itself soon. And you can and will handle this well!!

I don't have anything profound to say, but my thoughts are with you.
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by sassy_lady on Aug 22nd, 2005, 9:52pm
Stay Strong Sweety, Think about that wonderful Child coming to stay with you & the Joy you will have with her!! :)
Sorry things are bad today,  In my Prayers !!
Lots of love & prayers to You & Yours!!
Lots of Love Jolene
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by nani on Aug 22nd, 2005, 10:20pm
What a crappy day, E.  :'(  Sending "better days" vibes and prayers for you, hun. Chin up, girl. http://www.netsync.net/users/charlies/gifs/pet.gif
hugs, nani
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by blossom on Aug 22nd, 2005, 11:36pm
Dear Lord please watch over Elaine and her family in their time of great sorrow with the passing of her father.  This has weighed heavily on her heart, dear Lord, please see to somehow lift this burden from her heart and show her the light of life again.  May the child be blessed and bring light into her darkness.  Amen.
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by Jimi on Aug 22nd, 2005, 11:51pm
 and all God's children said............AMEN !
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by TxBasslady on Aug 23rd, 2005, 12:11am
[smiley=ohjez.gif]    

Good grief....when it rains, it pours!

I'll be headin' home tomorrow, E....I'll call you.

Much love to you, my friend.

Jean
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by Charlie on Aug 23rd, 2005, 1:31am
Beat the walls and scream Elaine. http://www.netsync.net/users/charlies/gifs/wild girl.gif

If anyone is entitled, it's you.  8)

After all, tomorrow is another day...... Scarlett O'Hara.

Charlie
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by LadyElaine on Aug 23rd, 2005, 5:12am
Thanks For the prayers. I am sure God will hear them.
Losing my Dad has been really hard on me. I can usually move forward. Since Dad died its been kind of bad for me. Its kind of like weights being placed on you and that weight was just to heavey and every thing after that just gets heaver.
I believe in Prayers and I belive in God and his word. He won't give me more than I can handle.
Thanks everyone for letting me vent!
Hugs to you all!
I am going back to bed.
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by Frank_W on Aug 23rd, 2005, 7:34am
[smiley=hug.gif] Hang in there, Elaine! You've got my number. Gimme a call or I'll call you... Be good to yourself. :-*
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight
Post by Sandy_C on Aug 23rd, 2005, 7:42am
What a day you have had Elaine.  Hang on, better ones are right around the corner.  Hugs to you.

[smiley=hug.gif] [smiley=hug.gif]

Sandy
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by burnt-toast on Aug 23rd, 2005, 8:10am
Do something nice for yourself Elaine.  Something that will help get life's crap off your mind for a short time.  That way you can come back refreshed and give it hell again.

Best Wishes

Tom    
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by lionsound on Aug 23rd, 2005, 8:15am
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Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by Langa on Aug 23rd, 2005, 8:21am
I’m sorry you had such a rough day yesterday Elaine – getting hit in the middle of it doesn’t help either.  Sometimes when it rains it pours huh?  Praying for a better day today for you love.

Hugs,
Langa
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by Big Dan on Aug 23rd, 2005, 8:22am
Love ya, Elaine...




-Big Dan
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by Melissa on Aug 23rd, 2005, 8:30am
For you sweets...

http://d21c.com/AnnesPlace/Angels/AngIvory.gif

love and prayers,
mel
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by Cathi04 on Aug 23rd, 2005, 8:41am
Sometimes, E....the very best thing you can do IS crawl back into bed.soo, honey, ya did good!!

As for the loss of your dad. Mine's been gone 23 yrs now. A week after he died, I was still in pain, grieving, missing him.....and even a month later.....then 6 months..... I began to look for him everywhere I went.
I cannot tell you when it happened, everyone has their own timeline, but slowly, the loss....that hole in my life was replaced with warm memories that somehow helped me heal. It will happen to you, and at that point, you will know he never left you. He is ALWAYS with you, E.

Now, if that helps, this last little bit should be spectacular.....TELL THE IRS TO EAT YOUR TURNIP SEEDS!

Oh, and, love your granddaughter..it's all we can do!

We'll be in touch soon, E....meanwhile, take good care!

Cathi
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by Carl_D on Aug 23rd, 2005, 4:27pm
Major big  [smiley=hug.gif]

I hope today is a better day Lady E.

Thinking of you and yours,
Carl
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by Grandma_Sweet_Boy on Aug 23rd, 2005, 4:36pm
I like the idea of telling the IRS to eat your turnip seeds!

Hang in there girl - you can get through this one too.

[smiley=hug.gif]

Carol
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by E-Double on Aug 23rd, 2005, 4:51pm
Things will always work out!!

Cliche's suck but they are true ;)

Hugs to you!

E
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by blossom on Aug 23rd, 2005, 10:01pm
Elaine-

I thought about you all day today.  I am getting ready to go to bed and it seems I have so many thanks to give and so many prayers for those in need.  My thoughts are with you.  Love your granddaughter to pieces - maybe she is Gods way of helping you heal.  The young ones are such an inspiration and bring so much hope into our lives.  Enjoy her to the fullest - share your memories with her about your father so she will carry on his legacy as well, have her help you make a photo album/scrap book of him and you and her.  It's a great way to keep the memories alive and a wonderful way to spend time with your granddaughter.  
I agree as well about doing something nice for yourself.  Now, I don't know if you are a girly-girl or not but I LOVE to get manicure and pedicure.  It is fabulous.  If that's not your cup of tea go get a massage - guaranteed to make you feel like a big wet noodle!   ;;D  Oh and tell the IRS to stuff it - we all want to I nominate you as our spokesperson!   [smiley=laugh.gif]

Live, laugh and love-
Karen
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by LadyElaine on Aug 24th, 2005, 11:38am
I finally got out of bed, I searched those sheets for the money and couldn't find it LOL.
I did find $1,500 I can get off my credit card LOL. Only leaves close $3,000 more to go. Either way you look at it we are in deep shit LMAO. We been in deep shit before. It will all work out.
Like I told Jimi the wind is blowing but it will end, when it does, things will be out of place but most things can be rebuilt.
IRS can kiss my grits  ;;D

I don't know when things will be better for me about my Dad. You would think with all the deaths of family members and friends, and beloved animals, that I would be numb to it. It seems like the more the worst it gets.
If I have ever wondered why about anything,  Why not me instead of them. They all had so much more to offer this world than me. Its not mine to know only Gods. I go on, i am sure it will get better. It took me many years to cry for my granddaughter. It just happen sitting around talk with a good friend. It takes time I know.

Friends thank you for the letters the calls and the prayers it means a lot. Sorry I vented. Its so easy to vent here than to Buddy and others it would upset.

God Bless you all!
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by Jasmyn on Aug 24th, 2005, 12:35pm

on 08/24/05 at 11:38:02, LadyElaine wrote:
I finally got out of bed, I searched those sheets for the money and couldn't find it LOL.
I did find $1,500 I can get off my credit card LOL. Only leaves close $3,000 more to go. Either way you look at it we are in deep shit LMAO. We been in deep shit before. It will all work out.
Like I told Jimi the wind is blowing but it will end, when it does, things will be out of place but most things can be rebuilt.
IRS can kiss my grits  ;;D

I don't know when things will be better for me about my Dad. You would think with all the deaths of family members and friends, and beloved animals, that I would be numb to it. It seems like the more the worst it gets.
If I have ever wondered why about anything,  Why not me instead of them. They all had so much more to offer this world than me. Its not mine to know only Gods. I go on, i am sure it will get better. It took me many years to cry for my granddaughter. It just happen sitting around talk with a good friend. It takes time I know.

Friends thank you for the letters the calls and the prayers it means a lot. Sorry I vented. Its so easy to vent here than to Buddy and others it would upset.

God Bless you all!


Elaine money come and money go, that's the way of life.  It would be of no use worrying about it.  Do what you can and that is it.

Your Dad never left you it is you who stayed behind.  You will see each other again for now you ill just feel him close by.

Why not you, because you are you and what will WE do without YOU!  And God knows this.
Title: Re: I can Not Find a Bright side tonight!
Post by alchemy on Aug 24th, 2005, 12:53pm
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