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Title: Not such a good day ... Post by TonyG1 on Jun 27th, 2005, 9:25pm Today was not such a good day... I'm deeply and profoundly sad tonite because I got news today that my little dog I've had for almost 13 years is suffering from late stage liver disease ... :'( :'( The prognosis isn't so good. :'( Interestingly enough there weren't any warning signs... she got sick a couple of weeks ago and off to the vet we went ... Came here to vent as you folks were a great support to me when I was in my cluster cycle and you continue that work in other arenas as well. I have never felt so tired in all of my 39 years as I do right now. <sigh> Some kinda cosmic joke I think ... Let's make Tony a clusterhead and if that isn't enough let's take away all the ppl (dogs included) that matter to him. That bites hard !!!! [smiley=mad.gif] I don't have faith in anything right now and suspect it will be worse when I have to make that final trip to the vet with my dog .... Thanks for letting me vent ! T. |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Frank_W on Jun 27th, 2005, 9:27pm Oh man.... Tony, I'm so sorry. I lost my cat about a month ago, from a tick that was carrying "Bobcat Fever," which is apparently, some sort of parasite that destroys the red blood cells. We thought we'd caught it in time, and even the veterinarian was hopeful, but in less than a week, he died. *long, sad sigh...* Hang in there. [smiley=hug.gif] :'( |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Kris_in_SJ on Jun 27th, 2005, 9:41pm I'm so sorry, Tony, My beloved cat is getting on in years, and I'm dreading the time Also, I built a pond this spring and stocked it with beautiful fish. Who would think you could build a bond with pond fish?!? But I did, and 2 days ago, the neighborhood "evil wondering cat" ate my favorite one for breakfast. I'm still crying over it. The bond we build with our pets is a special one, and the pain is hard to bear. My heart goes out to you. Many Hugs. Kris |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by TonyG1 on Jun 27th, 2005, 11:10pm Thanks Frank & Kris -- So sorry for your losses as well !! :'( I'm just gonna take things as they come... she isn't suffering (according to the vet) yet. That is the last thing in the world I will allow to happen (suffering) and will do what I have to do as much as I will hate to do so. On the inside I'll be saying [smiley=nono.gif] [smiley=bigcry.gif] At least suffering is one thing I know something about (being a clusterhead) and I could not stand the thought -- she has been a comfort over the years during my attacks.. always patient and waiting for my dances with the devil to be over and the least I can do is to return the favor by staying with her when the time comes ... :'( :'( :'( [smiley=bigcry.gif] Damnit... sometimes life just sucks !!! |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by nani on Jun 27th, 2005, 11:29pm :'( I'm so sorry Tony. It's always hard to go through this kind of thing. Just keep loving her as much (if not more) as always and enjoy the time you have left. You're in my thoughts and prayers. [smiley=hug.gif] hugs, nani |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Candycane on Jun 27th, 2005, 11:58pm Tony, You seem to have really loved your pets, and I am sure they will be greatly missed. We feel your pain and hope you will find peace real soon. [smiley=hug.gif] [smiley=hug.gif] Pets are awesome!!! Never get mad at you, always happy to see you when you come home |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by cootie on Jun 28th, 2005, 1:13am Oh man SO sorry !! I have been there MANY A TIME......it never gets easier it gets harder ! I have 5 house cats and one is quite elderly and haveing alot of problems in this heat......my other one that is my BEST BUD has some issues and lost alot of weight. I have him on antibiotic theropy rite now hopeing that is all he will need to keep going. He'd freak totally out at a vets or goin to one (has some wild cat in him and they do NOT get over bad events).......I have a dog kennel too and have lost a few new pups which is never easy. We have them to loose them Pam My pets are my EVERYTHING.................. |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by LeLimey on Jun 28th, 2005, 4:21am [smiley=hug.gif] I'm so sorry Tony, I know how much it hurts losing a pet you love. Make the most of the time you have while she is not suffering and take loads of photo's. One thing that really hurt me when my last cat was killed was that I hardly had any photo's of her. Thats a mistake I won't make again. |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Carl_D on Jun 28th, 2005, 4:31am :'( Sorry to hear bro. It sucks to lose a best friend, and especially with a dog - they can be more faithful than some humans. Just remember you got all of us here, and you can vent anytime you need. Peace, Carl D |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by TonyG1 on Jun 28th, 2005, 6:04am Thank you all for your kindness! |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by giffy76 on Jun 28th, 2005, 9:45am Sorry to here about this. I went through the whole thing two weeks ago with my Lab, Bo. It's very hard to lose a member of the family especially at a time like this, when everything that can go wrong does. it sucks, but that's why we are all here. Stay strong, vent when ever you need to. |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by nani on Jun 28th, 2005, 7:12pm Tony, I got this in my e-mail today. I'm having my kids read it, too. We lost another of our dogs last week. :( Why Pets Do Not Live As Long As People Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten-year- old boxer named Belker. The dog's owners, Ron, his wife, Lisa, and their little boy, Shane, were all very attached to Belker and they were hoping for a miracle. I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer. I told the family there were no miracles left for Belker, and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog in their home. As we made arrangements, Ron and Lisa told me they thought it would be good for the four-year-old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt Shane could learn something from the experience. The next day, I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker's family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on. Within a few minutes, Belker slipped peacefully away. The little boy seemed to accept Belker's transition without any difficulty or confusion. We sat together for a while after Belker's death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives. Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, "I know why." Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I'd never heard a more comforting explanation. He said, "Everybody is born so that they can learn how to live a good life -- like loving everybody and being nice, right?" The four- year-old continued, "Well, animals already know how to do that, so they don't have to stay as long." |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by TonyG1 on Jun 28th, 2005, 7:24pm Thanks Nani! If you look at it in those terms it makes sense ... :'( I was doing so good with smoking ultra-light cigarettes... this morning I bought a pack of Marlboro Reds on the way to work and have smoked the whole pack already today... [smiley=smokin.gif] [smiley=smokin.gif] [smiley=smokin.gif] |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Candycane on Jun 28th, 2005, 7:30pm Personally I would rather eat a dog buisit, smoking is nasty ;;D Hope you're feeling better :) |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Bethany1 on Jun 28th, 2005, 7:30pm Its ok Tony, do what ya have to. I'm sorry to hear about your dog, that is just awful. [smiley=hug.gif] hugs to you- Beth |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Kiwiinoz58 on Jun 28th, 2005, 7:36pm I feel for you. I still remember what it was like to lose my favourite dog and that was 36 years ago! Be brave he's done the job he came to do for you. Jacqs |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by gMike on Jun 28th, 2005, 9:07pm Sorry to hear that. The only thing about pets is they don't live long enough!! Go day-to-day and make sure you enjoy every day with your buddy. All I can say is, give it some time after your lose your friend and then go rescue another dog. Mike |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Luke63 on Jun 28th, 2005, 9:12pm Vibes Tony. Luke |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by TonyG1 on Jun 28th, 2005, 10:28pm Thank you all for your kindness! I told Nani earlier that maybe it isn't such a bad thing that I have clusters ... otherwise I would have never found this site and such a gr8 group of ppl from all around the world! Perhaps the silver lining to the demon in my head... I found a good link < I guess a little sappy for some but it seems appropriate> http://www.tlcpoodles.com/prayer.html |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by sandie99 on Jun 29th, 2005, 3:30am Tony, I'm so sorry... :'( [smiley=hug.gif] I know that the idea of losing a pet hurts a lot. I don't care what the cynics say, but they, too, are part of the family. I nursed my guinea pig through illness which coul have been fatal and tried my best with the one which killed her. But losing my guinea pig Olivia in December 1999 hurted a lot. I had lost my father 2 years before that and losing this little creature who had helped me through that difficult time did bring back lots of sad, sad memories. Olivia died on my lap and the experience of seeing a fellow creature going through her last moments was a humbling experience I cherish. Looking back, it would have hurted more if I had had to put her into sleep... I would have kept wondering if something more could have been done. Now I know that it wasn't up to me and it was her time to go. I wish that something could be done for your dog... But while you still have her in your life, enjoy that. :) Best wishes, Sanna/sandie99 |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by alchemy on Jun 29th, 2005, 5:39am sorry to hear about your dog. i know just how you feel.the only dog we have left now is one we rescued from a horrible life of abuse. she was buned had her tongue split and the list goes on and on, she's 11 now and is not in that good of help. we've had her a little over a year now and just love her to death. all we can do is give her the happy life she deserves. i see the end coming and it breaks my heart. my thoughts are with you. take care jim |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Charlie on Jun 29th, 2005, 2:28pm Sorry to hear Tony but this is a good place to come. Most us have or have had pets. The little twerps get under your skin and it's hard knowing they are having a rough time. Keep us posted. Charlie |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by BMoneeTheMoneeMan on Jun 29th, 2005, 5:46pm Sorry to hear that, man. Keep your chin up. PF wishes BMonee |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by TonyG1 on Jun 30th, 2005, 4:23pm Well, it is over. My poor dog had such a rough time last night.. I slept on the floor beside her bed and she just could not find any comfort. Needless to say, I didn't sleep much (whats new about that) last night but that is ok. She wanted to go for a walk this morning and I took her but she was too weak to make it very far into the driveway before needing to stop and go back in the house. I took her for our last short walk together, talked with her a lot, and then we took our last ride together to the vets office. I stood by her and held her close while the vet administered the medication and then she was gone. :'( :'( :'( I bought plastic containing as a makeshift coffin and buried her at home (as it should be) with her favorite blanket and her favorite toy (lovingly known as Ms. Bunny) :) ... Strangely, I sealed it against water leakage as she used to love to play in the snow but absolutely hated rain ... :) I'm sad :( and expect I will be for some time to come; however, in another way, I'm so relieved that her suffering won't get any worse and that she is no longer in pain... kinda strange how those feelings are conflicted. I lost my best friend today but loved her enough to let her go ... :'( :'( :'( I guess I didn't need to give you all a moment by moment account of my day but you all took the time to respond to my original post and I wanted to let you peek at that moment. I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support and kindness!!!! It made a big difference for me in how I was able to handle the situation and means a gr8 deal! Thanks! Tony |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Frank_W on Jun 30th, 2005, 4:27pm :'( [smiley=hug.gif] I know how heart-wrenching it was for you, Tony. If you're open to the idea, you can meet up with her in dreams, and see how she's doing in her new home and new body. :) Just state your intent before going to sleep, and then keep an eye on your dreams. Don't rush yourself through the grieving process. It IS a process and it does take time. It is what it is, and time will make acceptance easier. Peace, Solace, and Blessings, -Frank |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by gMike on Jun 30th, 2005, 4:35pm It's extremely hard but you did what was right! I'll keep you in my thoughts. When it's time, rescue another little dog. Mike, who likes all dogs better than most people! |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Kim Y. on Jun 30th, 2005, 4:42pm :'(Tears are streeming down my face. I am so sorry Tony. I know the love for your members of the family that walk on all 4s they are special. Take care ......Kim |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by firebrix on Jun 30th, 2005, 4:56pm Just did the same thing for our Monty, TonyG1 so I know how you are feeling. I keep falling into giant holes of emptiness - they're all over the property. Haven't been able to visit the beach where we spent so much time yet, but it'll happen. It's never easy saying goodbye, but it's reassuring afterwards knowing we did the right thing for our canine friends who, more than any other species, know the meaning of love, friendship and devotion. They're so much more than just "dogs" to those who take the time to know them. My thoughts are with you TonyG1. You did the right thing, even if it was one of the hardest things you've ever done. I'm off to the city on Sunday to adopt a dog who's been at the rescue centre for 12 months. I think she'll be ready for some beach walks, ball games, Citroen rides, rump steak and fire-sharing. I know Monty would understand. Smokin' Dunhill here.......and wishing you happier days |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by TonyG1 on Jul 2nd, 2005, 12:53am Thanks all. Sorry to hear of your loss as well firebrix! It was the right thing but not easy as you well know... |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Charlie on Jul 2nd, 2005, 2:13am Sorry to learn this Tony and I know exactly how you feel. It's different with dogs. It's hard to convey. We're here for you though. Charlie |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by LeLimey on Jul 2nd, 2005, 4:36am [smiley=hug.gif] Why is doing the right thing always so hard? |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by TonyG1 on Jul 2nd, 2005, 9:53am on 07/02/05 at 04:36:15, LeLimey wrote:
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by TonyG1 on Jul 2nd, 2005, 10:10pm Well I didn't want to leave my 4 legged friends' grave to go unmarked nor did I want my yard to appear as a cemetary -- Today, I completed a rock garden with a large array of flowers and foliage, granite stones, etc. -- it is beautiful if I say so myself and a fitting memorial for my buddy. I plan on adding some lighting and a fountain when I find one that is appropriate. |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Frank_W on Jul 2nd, 2005, 10:55pm It sounds beautiful. If you get some photos, please post them. |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by TonyG1 on Jul 5th, 2005, 10:43pm Frank -- I'll send you a pic .... not up to setting up photo sharing tonite. |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Frank_W on Jul 6th, 2005, 10:07am Well, I told you last night, but man... The project really turned out beautifully. Amazing tribute... :) |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by TonyG1 on Jul 6th, 2005, 9:15pm Thanks Frank. I tried to setup the sharing so other folks could see but I got pic uploaded to the service and used a link in the post to this board but got the big red X ... not sure what I did wrong.... oh well. Glad you liked the pic, a gr8 deal of work but the end result was well worth it. Firebrix -- Got your email -- sent you a copy of the pic as well. Best regards and wishes for PFDANs for you all !!! My cluster family is the best !!! Tony |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by DonnaHar on Jul 6th, 2005, 9:50pm I don't remember how I found this site. I think it was someone here who posted it not too long ago, but I've passed it around my family as we all have/had pets and know how deep that love can be. I hope this brings some comfort to you. http://www.rainbowbridge.com |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by DonnaHar on Jul 6th, 2005, 9:57pm Oops.........this is what I wanted you to see................ http://www.rainbowbridge.com/Poem.htm |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by TonyG1 on Jul 10th, 2005, 4:28pm Thanks Donna !! |
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Title: Re: Not such a good day ... Post by Jonny on Jul 10th, 2005, 6:19pm Anything to keep that thread going ;;D Glad your PF Tony ;;D |
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