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(Message started by: Lizzie2 on Jan 7^th, 2005, 9:13pm)

Title: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Lizzie2 on Jan 7^th, 2005, 9:13pm

I dunno...the smiles are fading. My mom was in the bathroom crying tonight because she is tired of this. My dad told me that my mom can't keep coming down because she is so tired. They said they will be here for a couple hours tomorrow afternoon. Used to come the whole day....

Then my boyfriend...he prolly won't come tomorrow. Says he doesn't like hospitals. My fear is that he doesn't like me. Guess I can't really worry about it now. My mom says if he can't deal with hospital shit now, then I better find out because this certainly won't be the last time. I told her that she always used to say this would be the last time....

Depressed now, I guess. Wish this shit would end.

I'm here at least thru the weekend and prolly a few days next week. Anyone in the Philly area that wants to visit (hint hint Randy....) let me know. I'm bored out of my head and yet...this joint still sucks.

I sign online maybe twice a day because I am missing classes, clinicals, and work, so I have to have connection to my teachers, etc. So those of you that are wondering how I can have a headache bad enough to be in the hospital but can still get on my computer...that's the answer. ;)

Tired tired tired of dealing with this shit. Can't be positive all the time I guess....

Love and hugz,
Lizzie2/Carrie

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by broomhilda on Jan 7^th, 2005, 9:18pm

[smiley=hug.gif]Carrie [smiley=hug.gif]

Its so hard, stay strong you are fighting so well, try not to let the folks around you get you down, I know its your family and your b/f but you have to put you, yes you, first and foremost in getting better.....

Thinking of you and sending big hugs on over and hey someone go drop in and give Carrie some real hugs, please!!! :D

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Jimi on Jan 7^th, 2005, 9:27pm

Worrying a little about you little one. But you are one of the strongest people that I know. ALWAYS be prepared to start over. And one day, you will look back on this time and think "Man, those were some rough times, but it has shaped me to who I am today.

((((Hugs)))) Hang Tough

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Lizzie2 on Jan 7^th, 2005, 9:36pm

http://tinyurl.com/54uh

Aren't I hot shit? At least I can't have prednisone moon face any more! Wooohoooo the positive side!!! hehe

Sorry the pic is blurry...I took it with my photo verizon picture phone.. ;;D

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Lizzie2 on Jan 7^th, 2005, 9:38pm

hmmm well yes the Red X is definately hot shit. hahaha Can't figure out what I'm doing wrong trying to post this one!

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Charlie on Jan 7^th, 2005, 9:49pm

Rats.

Sorry about all your troubles [smiley=hug.gif]

Try to remember that ultimately, it's you that you have to take care of. Do that. If you don't, things won't get better. Think of the worst thing that can happen with the others if you pamper yourself for a little while. My guess is that you can handle it.

Good luck Kid.

Charlie

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by PrettyH8Machine on Jan 7^th, 2005, 10:36pm

Sorry to hear your still in the sterile hotel. I hope they get this under control soon so you can go home. Long hospital stays are no fun at all.
Big hugs, vibes, prayers and well wishes pouring out your way.

Peace,
CD

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by E-Double on Jan 7^th, 2005, 11:00pm

Didn't I tell you to just screw him and that would change his mind!

I mean screw him ;)

You know the cliche' but honestly if it's meant to be then it's meant to be.......

Feel as good as you can my dear.
Try to be + and know that we're here for ya!

Love ya :-* [smiley=hug.gif],
E2

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Jeepgun on Jan 7^th, 2005, 11:03pm

Ditto what Jimi said, Carrie. Each day that you spend brings you one day closer to getting out of there and getting your life back. I dearly hope you can get some relief and some quality rest. Keep your chin up. We're pullin' for you. [smiley=hug.gif]

-Frank

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by unsolved1 on Jan 8^th, 2005, 12:12am

So you're in huh? For Clusters? Whatchya gettin (meds) ??

Best Wishes

Hope ya feel better soon

Unsolved

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by OneEyeBlind on Jan 8^th, 2005, 8:48am

Hugs to ya, Carrie. Now would ya please get better and get out of there. If ya need a cheery phone call, IM me your number ...... I'll give ya a ring. [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by LeLimey on Jan 8^th, 2005, 12:07pm

Oh I do hope you feel better soon. I hate hospital stays too and I think just being away from home and all that's familiar is what is the most depressing bit. For me it was not being there when the kids went to bed or being able to look in on them at night - it was at night I cried the most.
I hope you get some time off for good behaviour soon hun!
Take care
love
Helen

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by bigred on Jan 8^th, 2005, 12:28pm

Hi lizz
Nice to meat ya. Sorry to hear your in the hospital. Hears hoping you have cable tv. And a pain free stay.
Dont let the boyfreind thing get ya down. Im sure he may want our need somthing soon and it will give ya a chance to extract a little revenge.
Me and the kids send our love from hear in Iowa.
bigred

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by taraann on Jan 8^th, 2005, 1:30pm

Oh hosipitals suck...not only the feelin crappy part but the feelin jailed part. I get sooooo antsy in the hospital.

HUGE HUGE MEGA VIBES!!!!

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Jimmy_B on Jan 8^th, 2005, 1:34pm

I hope you get paroled soon! Would love to come & see you, but I hate hospitals ;;D.(You've probably heard that before).

I'm sure you remember my story of going AWOL in Jefferson Hospital & leaving ADA.

Seriously, get better guick...

Jimmy

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Ree on Jan 8^th, 2005, 2:04pm

Sorry sweetie... man, you must be on the verge... I hate hospitals and the way the staff comes in at 6:00 am and asks if you've have had a bowel movement in the last 24 hours!!! I always say "Have YOU???" What you can do is put this stay to use for you... You can get yourself well and stop worrying about who is visiting first of all... You're the one that needs to get well and it doesn't matter what kind of attention you get in that respect as long as the attention of the medical staff is good. Also you can see what kind of nurse you want to be and take a mental note. You are a patient, so now you know how a patient feels. Once when I had a back problem and couldnt get off the couch I felt like Dave was always saying 'in a minute" when i needed something. I picked up the phone and called my friend who is a nurse and said... "When those little lights go off and someone needs you that can't get out of bed... go to that person as fast as you can!" Use this as a learning experience to be the best nurse you can be...

I try to avoid hospitals at all cost!!! love to you buddy... 5 R's Rest, Read and Relax if no one comes to see you... and Remember we love you ~~~Ree~~~

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by lionsound on Jan 8^th, 2005, 3:27pm

Carrie!!![smiley=hug.gif]

think about how many of us are visiting you every time you come here!
....Right on your lap(top). :)

We love you!

may you be well and PF,
-Rori

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Grandma_Sweet_Boy on Jan 8^th, 2005, 3:30pm

Carrie - sending you "get better fastest" wishes so you can get sprung and go back to whatever normal is supposed to be!

Take care little one - do as you're told by those in charge and know that we're all thinking of you.

Hugs
Carol

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Lizzie2 on Jan 8^th, 2005, 6:44pm

Thanks mucho... :)

Getting over cluster #2 of the day. That sounds pretty damn good, but I'm not supposed to be having any on this junk! Well...that's what meds do I guess! Bwahaha

Unsolved, when I was upstairs I was on so much I can't actually remember it now. If you want, I can email you the power point presentation I'm working on for headache education for nurses. Majority of meds fall under the category of reglan (didn't get this time), droperidol, cogentin, DHE, MagSulfate, D5 1/2NSS, and some other fun junk. I'm on a shitload of daily meds for some neurological conditions and some other crap...too young for all this! haha

Anyhow, right now I'm on IV lidocaine. It is currently running at 2mg/min (I think or is it hour? haha...I could look at the pump but it is currently beeping its little head off because it thinks the bag is empty when it's not!). A study out of Australia on IV lido said the average success was at 7-21 days on the lido. I've been on it since Wednesday night. They won't be doing this for 21 days or I will have to quit school! Ahhh....somewhat stressed.

The boyfriend is going. Shit if he can't handle it now, how's he gonna handle chronic migraine and chronic cluster my whole and his whole life? What would he do if we were married and had kids? Just not show up? Don't think I'm worrying about the future too much because this actually could have been the somewhat near future with us...

Some of you remember James (the stunning 6'2" black dude from wedding/recital/etc pictures). We basically were never officially together but we dated for over a year. We didn't become "official" because he never wanted to get married or have kids. He says he's pretty serious about it...He's 29 (turns 30 in May), and he says if he got married he'd be an awful father because he's great with kids for a short period of time. He lies...he's great with kids all the time...he just has to say this so he can keep up appearances. Haha And he said that if his wife left him, he'd have to kill her, and then he'd have to get out of jail, etc. He's hilarious. That led into quite a convo! The thing I love about him is that he's from Philly his whole life and he's totally living in reality. Here's a pic of us from my best friend's wedding in August of 2003 if it'll post.

http://tinyurl.com/4yt25

Well anyhow...not worrying about all that crap for now! Supposedly David is coming tomorrow...we'll see how it goes.

Ree, don't worry about me learning to be a good nurse. Every clinical experience my instructor writes "extremely good at relating to patients" because I've more or less been one forever! Well it started with having a tumor when I was sixteen. That was pleasant. haha Especially being on my face. And no, it was no "Face Eating Tumour" like they play on Discovery Health! haha

This is my 8th stay for headaches, and I have learned much. I continue to learn much as a nursing student, nurse extern, patient, etc.

Although my patients will hopefully always be neonates, I hope I am always the nurse that I hope to be....

Can see both sides of it sometimes though. Being a nurse ain't easy. But it's sure as hell better than being a doctor any day of the week! ;) :-*

Hugz,
Carrie :)

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Gator on Jan 8^th, 2005, 6:53pm

Hey Carrie! Lots of pain free wishes and hugs for you.

Hope all turns out well in the end.

Gator

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by E-Double on Jan 8^th, 2005, 6:54pm

You rock kid!!!
All heart......
Love ya ,

E2

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by don on Jan 8^th, 2005, 9:35pm

Quote:

This is my 8th stay for headaches

Geeesh. They are going to be pissed when they find out women dont get clusters.

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Lizzie2 on Jan 8^th, 2005, 10:38pm

LMAO you should see my presentation in the early unedited version for my honors project. First I have the old stereotype for clusters and then on the page of "The Reality" it says Women DO get clusters. Has some ratios, etc. hehehe

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Lizzie2 on Jan 10^th, 2005, 11:15pm

Well the update:

Still here. Needing the big vibes I guess! Today was not a good meeting with the neuro. I will post more on this later but now is not a good time to discuss it. It was an upsetting day for me, but tomorrow is always a new day. :)

Love,
Lizzie :)

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by nani on Jan 10^th, 2005, 11:43pm

VERY BIG VIBES GOING TO YOU, CARRIE
[smiley=hug.gif] [smiley=hug.gif] [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by LeLimey on Jan 11^th, 2005, 10:58am

[smiley=hug.gif]
love
Helen

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Lizzie2 on Jan 11^th, 2005, 9:36pm

Hugz back :)

Still here...hope to leave Friday :)

Love,
Lizzie2/Carrie :)

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by LeLimey on Jan 11^th, 2005, 9:42pm

Woo Hoo... out in time for the weekend! That is great news. I'm really pleased!

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Lizzie2 on Jan 11^th, 2005, 9:50pm

Thanks Helen,

It was a good headache day, but not a happy day for my heart!

Kept having SVT which is a form of tachycardia(heart racing) that is VERY fast...like 225 beats per minute. At one point, two nurses and a tech came running into my room, but this happens to me a lot so I tend to deal with things okay. The one tech asked me if it scared me. It didn't really though! It happens to me fairly often...I'm just not connected to a monitor when it does!

So....still praying for both of us!!

Hugz,
Carrie:)

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Lizzie2 on Jan 11^th, 2005, 10:20pm

OK let's see now if any of these pics I took on my phone out of boredom will post!

This is my watch and the time is AM in the morning. I was bored or woke up for some odd reason. This is also my nursing watch!
http://tinyurl.com/4af93

This one would be me taking a picture of myself with my phone at the time labelled on my watch! Not bad for random during the night! haha
http://tinyurl.com/5ubg

;;D I never sleep well at night...so now I've taken to taking pictures when I wake up at 3 something in the morning. Fun times!

Lizzie2/Carrie :)

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Lizzie2 on Jan 11^th, 2005, 10:22pm

Well dang...in this thread every time I try to post random pics of myself, I get a red X. I don't THINK I'm ugly enough to break the screen...but apparently shutterfly and tinyurl do! <sigh> :)

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by nani on Jan 12^th, 2005, 12:41am

Hi Carrie...still sending vibes... [smiley=hug.gif]
love, nani

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Lizzie2 on Jan 12^th, 2005, 3:53am

on 01/12/05 at 00:41:14, nani wrote:

Hi Carrie...still sending vibes... [smiley=hug.gif]
love, nani

Hi nani,

Glad to have you back. Now please stay!!! [smiley=hug.gif]

Starting my 4am wakeup call so more later...

Carrie

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by nancyc on Jan 12^th, 2005, 12:37pm

God, I hate hospitals and I am a nurse...if i am not working ...dont you dare put me in a hospital....when i was admitted a few weeks ago for my back...the nurses had ME putting my own traction on..they were too lazy to do it...they took 2 hours to bring my pain shot so the Doctor had to put me on a PCA pump.....I pray I never become such a sorry nurse as the ones I had in the hospital.....SIS, i certainly hope your nurses are better than the ones I had....praying for you. smiles,nancyc, a nurse that hates hospitals!

Title: Re: Still in the slammer...heh
Post by Lizzie2 on Jan 12^th, 2005, 2:13pm

on 01/12/05 at 12:37:20, nancyc wrote:

Actually I'm going to be either emailing or calling their NCC's to tell what an excellent job the nursing staff has done on their respective units. I have been thoroughly impressed since I came on the floor I'm on now sometime last week. I did NOT want to be on this floor even one bit, but I honestly think I've made friends to come visit when I'm working up on Maternity!

I dunno...part of it is a change of view on my part as before I became a nursing student there are some things I would have complained about that I don't complain about now. However, it's taught me to see nursing from even more angles. I've been working in hospitals since I was 16, but I never had a nursing job.

I truly believe that the nursing staff (even if just ONE nurse is that angel nurse) can make or break a hospital stay. I hate to be here, but I have received most of the time excellent care. Just haven't always seen eye to eye with my neuro, but things are better yesterday and today.

How IS your back??
Gentle hugs :)
Carrie :)