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(Message started by: Jeepgun on Jan 7^th, 2005, 11:08am)

Title: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Jeepgun on Jan 7^th, 2005, 11:08am

Mom

Do you think that if you slap me again,
your feelings of inadequacy will subside?
One more punch and maybe you will be able to destroy
the things that you despise about yourself.
Am I the effigy of your frustration and resentment?
Do you feel better after battering me?
Then hit me again. Punch me. Scream at me. Curse me.
Leave me in a sobbing, retching, trembling ball.
I'll run to apologize. You are God.
I'll try to fix everything. It's my fault.
I love you.
I can't seem to make my nose stop bleeing though, and
I can't fix this terrible bruise under my eye.

-Frank H. Weeden

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by lionsound on Jan 7^th, 2005, 11:34am

:'(

wow, Frank. that took a lot of courage to put on paper.
(it's dead on)

-R

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Langa on Jan 7^th, 2005, 12:00pm

:'( :'( :'(

Thank you for sharing something that painful from the depths of your heart Frank.

We have similar backgrounds...the important thing to me was forgiving them as an act of my will so that I wouldn't be in a prison of pain.

Love,
Langa

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Ree on Jan 7^th, 2005, 12:22pm

that took me back... all i can add :'(

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by purpleydog on Jan 7^th, 2005, 12:49pm

I understand.

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Jeepgun on Jan 7^th, 2005, 12:53pm

Thanks... Things are good now. It took a lot of years and a lot of honesty. Forgiveness comes, but it can be a long, hard road...

-Frank

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by cat14 on Jan 7^th, 2005, 1:01pm

The only part I have trouble with is the "I love you" part??????? Good poem though

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Jeepgun on Jan 7^th, 2005, 1:08pm

Well, I'll tell you: After being battered, I would go back to her (or my father) and apologize, and when you're a kid, you think you deserve it, and that you're being punished for something you've done wrong. When you're a kid, your parents are infallible. They are God, or the closest thing to God that you've ever known. Saying "I love you," was a way to gain reassurance, to attempt to mend the relationship, and to regain some kind of security. (Even if you get punched or slapped for making the effort...)

-Frank

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by cat14 on Jan 7^th, 2005, 1:51pm

I just want to wrap my arms round you and take away all that hurt! [smiley=hug.gif] [smiley=hug.gif] [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Jeepgun on Jan 7^th, 2005, 1:55pm

Thank you, but it doesn't hurt anymore. If it weren't healed, I wouldn't be able to write about it. But hugs are always welcome! :) [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Langa on Jan 7^th, 2005, 1:56pm

on 01/07/05 at 13:08:16, Jeepgun wrote:

Frank, Nani, Becky, and I already decided that when we meet you in July we're all going to smother you in hugs and kisses...

Lucky man you... ;;D

Langa

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by cat14 on Jan 7^th, 2005, 1:57pm

Then wrap them around me?

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Langa on Jan 7^th, 2005, 1:58pm

;;D

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by cat14 on Jan 7^th, 2005, 1:59pm

Sounds kinky to me? ;;D

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Langa on Jan 7^th, 2005, 2:02pm

on 01/07/05 at 13:59:11, cat14 wrote:

Sounds kinky to me? ;;D

Kinky is as kinky does and you my friend are not allowed more than 2 drinks...

LOL.

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by cat14 on Jan 7^th, 2005, 2:03pm

Sorry Frank, went from sweet poems to kink????? Its Langa fault ;;D ;;D

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Jeepgun on Jan 7^th, 2005, 2:07pm

ROFL, Langa!!

[smiley=hug.gif] :) Somehow, I think July is going to be a good month. LOL! ;;D

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Langa on Jan 7^th, 2005, 2:08pm

on 01/07/05 at 14:03:41, cat14 wrote:

Sorry Frank, went from sweet poems to kink????? Its Langa fault ;;D ;;D

Your Fault! You're the one that wanted to get smothered! ;;D

Langa

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by cat14 on Jan 7^th, 2005, 2:10pm

Should I bring the maid outfit or the cop? :o

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Jeepgun on Jan 7^th, 2005, 2:11pm

:o I'm completely..... SCANDALIZED!!!

(the maid outfit. definitely) ;;D

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Langa on Jan 7^th, 2005, 2:13pm

on 01/07/05 at 14:10:36, cat14 wrote:

Should I bring the maid outfit or the cop? :o

The Dominatrix one looks really cool on me... ::)
And I think I'll wear that one because you've all been bad, very, very bad... :-*

Langa

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by cat14 on Jan 7^th, 2005, 2:15pm

I do think you'd look good in black, Langa

Its soooo your color ;;D

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Langa on Jan 7^th, 2005, 2:26pm

on 01/07/05 at 14:15:22, cat14 wrote:

I do think you'd look good in black, Langa

Its soooo your color ;;D

[smiley=laugh.gif] [smiley=laugh.gif] [smiley=laugh.gif]

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Charlie on Jan 7^th, 2005, 7:14pm

http://www.netsync.net/users/charlies/gifs/QUILL.gif

No matter how bizarre, you get, we're here to have fun at your expense. No matter, that was good Frank.

Charle

Title: Re: Poem... (Warning: Depressing)
Post by Jeepgun on Jan 7^th, 2005, 9:28pm

Why thank you, Charlie! [smiley=laugh.gif] I love the GIF, too! That's hilarious!! (I feel like that quite often! Darn it, words are just too clumsy and inadequate!)

Love ya', man. [smiley=hug.gif]

-Frank