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(Message started by: Carl_D on Oct 25^th, 2004, 10:58am)

Title: Natural Drunk! No Alcohol Needed!!!
Post by Carl_D on Oct 25^th, 2004, 10:58am

Day 6 of no sleep - and that is with taking my sleep meds that should be knocking me out. Last sleep before that was about 10 1/2 hours for a 2 week period. I even stopped caffeine intake for the last 2 weeks - no help. Going through SEVERE Mountain Dew withdrawls!
I feel like the back of my head will blow off at any given minute.
For the CH's, Trex has been more miss than hit lately, and it is driving me crazy. Between my head and my legs vying for highest rank of pain threshold, I'm not sure which is worse. Okay, the CH's are the worst - but the constant 24/7 headache is getting really fucking old. I can't even bend over without feeling like I am getting hit with a baseball bat and almost falling over.

What is majorly pissing me off is I have been trying like hell for the last couple of months to get myself back on track doing music again, and trying to finish my book. I can't even concentrate when I try to write, and just get flustered and give up. My old band, Act of God, asked me to do a benefit concert with them. I agreed - thinking I might be able to pull it off. ::)
The only rehearsal we had was over 2 weeks ago, and I was unable to stand and had to sit through it. I haven't heard back from Mike, so I'm not sure if they are nixing the idea or not.
I am just too fucking frustrated that it seems everything I set out to do falls apart, and I fucking hate it with a passion unequalled to death!
Now, with my legs fucking up on me, and me living on the 2nd floor of my building with an unmerciful amount of steps, I am facing the possibility of having to move to a ground floor apartment. I HATE MOVING!!!

I am physically and mentally wiped out from exhaustion. Calling the Doc again today, even though my appointment is next Monday. I do have to admit though - sleep deprivation can provide some good hallucinations - and some bad. I especially love the feeling that I am moving even though I am sitting still, kind of like sitting at a train crossing. Just as long as I don't see any little pink Christina Aguilera monsters I'll be okay. Staying at my brothers today, and going to try and make a long overdue phonecall to a friend later.

Peaced out!
Carl D

Title: Re: Natural Drunk! No Alcohol Needed!!!
Post by nani on Oct 25^th, 2004, 2:54pm

:'( [smiley=hug.gif]