Clusterheadaches.com Message Board


    
      
        Clusterheadaches.com Message Board
        (http://www.clusterheadaches.com/cgi-bin/yabb/YaBB.cgi)
      

        New Message Board Archives >> 2004 Posts >> I just want to say....(a rant) Partial CH Related
        
(Message started by: helpless23 on Apr 19^th, 2004, 2:10pm)

Title: I just want to say....(a rant) Partial CH Related
Post by helpless23 on Apr 19^th, 2004, 2:10pm

I just want to say a few things. A rant if you will. I hear this is a great place to blow off steam. Although this is partialy CH related - it's not all.

First of all I want to say to Redd I think it was... Damn girl! Good riddance is right! You know, my husband sufferered long before I met him. But when the CH's came back, I was right there, in tears not knowing what to do. NEVER ONCE did I EVER THINK about leaving him - or that I couldn't help him deal with CH's. Lord KNOWS I was LOST IN THE DARK without a CLUE of what it was, what to do - ANYTHING. I knew NOTHING. All new to me.
We BOTH found this site and tried EVERYTHING SUGGESTED. I went through wars with the Ins. Co's (and I ranted then too) but I found sanity in most of the people here...just LISTENING and supporting...Imagine...ME the supporter...having the SUFFERERS support ME! What a blessing!

You have found the most precious bunch of people next to your blood family that you will EVER find here. Hell - I have even vented to the wrong people for the wrong reason (because I was upset) just to vent...and then felt bad afterwards, and they all opened me with open arms! 1,2,3....it was forgotten. I've learned NOT to do that anymore, or at least try not to...

I have tried to play Dr. too, as I'm sure we all have, sufferers and supporters and nothing worked. But WTF?! You just get up and leave? Take the easy way out? That's not love. That's not committment. It takes a VERY special person to not only support the loved one with CH - but for the sufferer to LET them.

Man, it's been the most hellish day in the world - and I kept calling my husband at work crying to him over the phone - and he was busy (understandable) - then I thought.....of you guys. This place. This wonderful 2nd home....and knew you guys would just listen, hear me out and let me vent.

I pray everyday for each and every Cluster sufferer out there, whether I know you or not..whether you're on this board or not. I pray my heart out all the time.

I'm very greatful - you guys (and I'll say it for the 1,000th time) have given my husband HOPE...answers...education....so much....I can't thank you enough.

And what you have done for me - I can't begin to even explain. I don't think I can put it into words.

Thank you 1,000 times....everyday. I'm sorry that this disease exists, but since it does, look what came out of it? A great family, a wonderful bunch of people - -

I believe in God and I believe that everything happens for a reason. Maybe it's a little naive or even a lot naive - but that's how I feel. I have faith.

I'm not even going to go on about my day - but I feel better already! With no response, no nothing..I just feel better knowing that some of you will read it. No need to respond...thanks for letting me post and having Ken and I as part of your family.

I hope that the fundraisers that I am going to do for OUCH really take off. I can't wait to help out. Thanks for the opportunity.

Much Love,
Toni

Title: Re: I just want to say....(a rant) Partial CH Rela
Post by Cerberus on Apr 19^th, 2004, 2:25pm

Helpless...

Good show, its amazing how much wisdom can come from such a tragedy.
Sorry yer having a rotten day...chin up.

Ramon

Title: Re: I just want to say....(a rant) Partial CH Rela
Post by Jeepgun on Apr 19^th, 2004, 2:29pm

Ditto. Hope you're feeling better soon, Helpless. Hang in there.

Title: Re: I just want to say....(a rant) Partial CH Rela
Post by thomas on Apr 19^th, 2004, 2:37pm

Hang in there Toni, you are in my thoughts. Hope the day gets better for you.

Title: Re: I just want to say....(a rant) Partial CH Rela
Post by Gator on Apr 19^th, 2004, 2:39pm

[smiley=hug.gif] Let it all out. We are here for you.

Hope your day gets better.

Gator

Title: Re: I just want to say....(a rant) Partial CH Rela
Post by helpless23 on Apr 20^th, 2004, 8:16am

Thanks all of you. The day did get better thank you!

Thanks for all the support! It felt good to just vent! :-*

Much Love,
Toni