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(Message started by: snook on Nov 18^th, 2004, 7:19pm)

Title: depression for chs yes agreed, I to share that pai
Post by snook on Nov 18^th, 2004, 7:19pm

:'( :'(If one thinks this is a pity party for not being a ch head with depression YOUR WRONG. MAN I totally not only understand I also live with someone who is depressed( just starting to allow himself to digest it and get help) and thats a beginning. :'( :'( :'( :( :( :(But I one who has had about here and there myself, am falling deeper into that black hole again. Its the same old sh, watching your tomatoe go through the bullsh of the beast, seeing him change , his energy dwindle, lack of laughter, exhaustion, loosing weight, the sparkle and shine of the soul dissappear,the spooning at night and missing holding tight. I understand the what where and why, but its just so dam harD, OR i SHOULD SAY NOT HARD. bEFORE ANYONE GETS THE WRONG IDEA , I AM A STRONG AND LOVING WIFE.... And know that this will pass, sometimes its hard and Im just feeling very lonely tonight, I hope you wont judge me to harshly I needed to vent to yall, to the board of friends that I know are out there. I know I not alone feeling this way maybe I just am the 1st to be honest about it. HEY YA DONT HAVE TO RESPOND IT FELT GOOD TO RAP ON ,..... SNOOK

Title: Re: depression for chs yes agreed, I to share that
Post by mawmaw on Nov 18^th, 2004, 7:32pm

Snook,
I know how you feel. I don't have the damn headaches my husband has them . Yes, sometimes I get depressed too. I have watched him sufferer with the beast now for 34 weeks with only 3pfd. I miss my husband, the man I have living or should I say not living with me right now is nothing like my husband. these damn headaches have taken the man I love and almost destroyed him. If the headaches aren't bad enough some of the meds that the docs give him have horrible side affects.
You are not alone. I am right here with you. I put on the good face for him ,but I am depressed sometimes too.
Thanks for letting me rant also
MawMaw Cindy

Title: Re: depression for chs yes agreed, I to share that
Post by AussieBrian on Nov 18^th, 2004, 8:26pm

Coping with Ch is bad enough, but how you cope with a CHer I'll never know! It must be the living hell.

Rant all you like, darlin'. I'm on your side.

AussieBrian.

Title: Re: depression for chs yes agreed, I to share that
Post by Ruth on Nov 19^th, 2004, 8:57am

I understand where you are coming from, as the clusterhead in my family, I always feel guilty because I can't give what I want to my family, my life changes and so does theirs.
I am sure your spouse feels the same as I do. I can see the hurt in my husbands eyes when I tell him "their back". He knows the drill and hates to see it come as much as I do, it is just a depressing time for both of us.
Glad you could find this family to vent with.
Ruth

Title: Re: depression for chs yes agreed, I to share that
Post by nani on Nov 19^th, 2004, 9:24am

CH is an ugly, nasty, horrible condition and I am not at all surprised that many of us struggle with depression. I think that in many ways it's MUCH harder to be the supporter. I don't think I could do it. So- yes- please- rant, rave, purge... Do what ever you have to to stay in a good place mentally. Sufferers, supporters, we all have to remain vigilant in not letting this monster ruin our lives. Hugs and good wishes to all...

Title: Re: depression for chs yes agreed, I to share that
Post by debco on Nov 19^th, 2004, 11:44am

Yes, it does get real old dealing with CH on a daily basis. I to suffer with the depressed feelings that go along with it. The husband who really doesn't understand that I constantly have pain, won't look over at me and ask how I am, or how did I sleep? (I am always on the couch in the morning, went to sleep on bed for @ 1 1/2 hour til hit with CH) It's like if he doesn't mention anything it will just go away. I don't want to over burden him with my problem but it's there and I need to at least get some frustration off my chest. I can't concentrate very long however have to act like everythings great when I do feel okay. It's a burden and I'm sick of it and I'm sick of not getting PF nights just to catch up on my sleep. I'm tired!! I'm just buying time before I get into trouble with him about not quite keeping up with my end of the business. Which of course right now is just crazy busy!! So I understand the lonlieness, it's a very inward situation we all deal with, but thank God I have this place to vent feelings to people who can possibly understand. Small flaws in life really magnify when your not feeling the best. I always feel if I had an explaination for CH, then it might help me. But can't find any.

Title: Re: depression for chs yes agreed, I to share that
Post by Ruth on Nov 19^th, 2004, 12:03pm

I am so sorry to hear you don't have the support you really need at home, that is lousy.
Good vibes going your way and I hope you get some rest soon. [smiley=hug.gif]
Ruth

Title: I knew you wouldnt let me down!!!
Post by snook on Nov 19^th, 2004, 5:10pm

:P Its funny I was so down down down last night , well its a new day and things seem alittle brighter today. Bill had 4 hits today zomeg stopped the biggy with shadows to follow, but thats that I hope but we still have that 6,7 hour of the night to worry about. And well deal when or if they come IM stronger today, thanks to pray and your kind replies. To all you supporters and chs I pray everyday there will be a med to stop this bitch of a beast, but until then thank you all from the bottem of my heart for being there for me and all of us who need to vent when were down :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* snook