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(Message started by: Jill on Nov 14^th, 2002, 6:08pm)

Title: Good News From Jill!
Post by Jill on Nov 14^th, 2002, 6:08pm

Hey everyone. I know that I already wrote this under the other topic but it seemed so much better as a new topic since the attitude of it has changed...thanks!

Thanks for all of the thoughts, prayers and messages. You guys are just awesome.

I must say that today has been a better day for me. Physically I am not good but emotionally, I am better than I have been for awhile. I have my good moments and my bad ones, but for right now I am good.

I cant explain exactly how I feel right now, I am not sure of the words to describe it. I am still fighting the beast way too much but it has become a different kind of battle. I am not fighting to just get him away from me, I am fighting harder to beat him. I want to kill him (not to be overly dramatic) so that he never comes back. Before I just wanted him gone for the moment and so on, but now, now he just has to leave.

I guess that I am stronger now, or feel stronger. I may not be able to see the light yet (though I am trying) but I have confidence (something that I have not had in awhile) that I can mull my way up the mountain, I can push through the thorns, take the cuts and trample through the brush. I am determined that I am going to see the view from the top and take pictures.

I have a long road ahead of me, a long one and I dont think that I can do it alone, I am not afraid to admit that. I still have my good moments and my bad, more bad than good but today, today I got to take my first walk in the sunshine for a long while. It may be a short one but it is one that I will remember and with that memory, I will perservere.

Thank you all for your stories, your help and your prayers. My family and friends may have turned me away but with that I have found a new family and I have finally been able to open and accept the help and, yes, the love. It took awhile but I am ever so grateful that I have.

I suppose that that is enough for now, just wanted to tell everyone. You all are so awesome and I feel as if I owe you all the world!

Thank you, thank you, thank you...

Jill

PS...sorry Edna...couldnt wait and thanks a billion!!!

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by suzy617 on Nov 14^th, 2002, 6:14pm

Good to hear your emotionally feeling better today. Keep climbing up that damn mountain, your gonna reach the top soon and as soon as you do, kick that frigin beast off the cliff. You will be pf soon, i know it.
suzy

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by Edna on Nov 14^th, 2002, 6:16pm

GIRL.....YOU ROCK!!

Jill, you have truly found us now........stay with us and we're gonna push you through no matter what!

Family.....yes you betcha! Enjoy your special day tomorrow too. And even if the bastard visits.......make it special anyway!

OK everybody else, let's tell Jill how happy she has made us!

Congrats girl, with that attitude, you're gonna WIN

Luv ya lots,
EDNA

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by kim on Nov 14^th, 2002, 6:25pm

Hey Jill,

See? You ARE a survivor and you DO rock! By coming here you proove to yourself that you FIGHT. Our stories told you that you are not alone. And by staying, you proove that you want to BEAT it. And so, you will. :)

PFDAN :)

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by domm on Nov 14^th, 2002, 6:50pm

Jill - it really sounds like you've turned the major corner in the battle and I am really happy for you ;D ;D ;D
It seems that after a while, people get pissed, instead of pissed on. When they do, the courage, bravery, spirit and basic human dignity that has been hiding comes shining through. That's what I found when I first stumbled across this site and these folks, and I continue to see it everytime I log on.
Hang tough and kick his ass
domm

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by OneEyeBlind on Nov 14^th, 2002, 6:58pm

Jill, so glad to hear you are feeling better. You rock, baby !!!! Keep climing to the top !!!!

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by Peppermint on Nov 14^th, 2002, 7:18pm

Jill....you've come a long way baby!

I'm so proud of you. Keep your chin up...and kick some ass.

hermanas para siempre.

Peppermint ;)

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by David Shea on Nov 14^th, 2002, 7:42pm

Hi Jill, Great to hear you are doing better, You have a
small Army of family here to carry you when you need it.
Never look back.
David

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by Slydog on Nov 14^th, 2002, 8:04pm

Jill Keep up the fight girl and I'll be wishing for PFDAN's for you. Sly

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by pjbgravely on Nov 14^th, 2002, 8:05pm

It's good to se the fruits of our labor. PJB

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by 2late on Nov 14^th, 2002, 8:35pm

positive attitude means everything, congrats, you will get thru this! no need to thank us it's all give & take around here. best of luck to ya! .........2late

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by Lori on Nov 14^th, 2002, 11:09pm

So happy to read your post! Keep up the fight!!

You know, maybe once your family becomes more educated about CH, they may become more supportive. Remember that sometimes it's hard to see a loved one in pain when there is nothing you can do to stop it. Sometimes the way they deal (may not be right) is to turn away. Maybe if they read some materials about ch and you all discuss how they could best help you..things will smooth out. I think most of us don't want to be messed with during an actual attack, so tell them. Let them know how else they could help. I hope things work out in that area. I'm sure they will. :) We are here too, and it is great to have a place to go with people who DO understand your pain. So, stick around, we'll be here.

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by Mastifflvr28 on Nov 14^th, 2002, 11:15pm

WHEW Jill,
You don't know how good it is to hear you say those things!!!!
Keep up the fight, we're here, right behind ya!
Mast

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by Riccardo on Nov 15^th, 2002, 1:08am

GO daughter, GO!

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by Stampertje on Nov 15^th, 2002, 3:58am

Hi Jill,

I'm so glad to hear you are doing better.

Don't worry about that light, it will come someday. It did with me and girl, it was dark.
Just keep fighting and you'll come out stronger, better and a winner!!! Because as you can read: Some already have killed the beast. And I'm sure you will do that too some day.

Remember you will never be alone in this fight.

Keep up the fight.

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by Charlie on Nov 15^th, 2002, 5:40am

Great Jill.

We're tickled pink for ya.

http://www.headachesupportgroups.com/echat43/dancingcharlies.gif

Charlie

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by Jill on Nov 15^th, 2002, 8:38am

Hey guys! Thanks a billion for the encouragement, it awesome!

I am still hanging on and doing okay despite be tired, sore and sick. Not as great as yesterday, but still better. Still battling this beast...darn him but I am ready to win, anytime now... ::)

You all are the best, just wanted say that again...just so ya know. Have a good weekend and pain free to everyone.

Thank you, thank you, thank you
Jill

~~Charlie, I love that saying, thanks~

Title: Re: Good News From Jill!
Post by Mark C on Nov 15^th, 2002, 9:19am

http://www.animatedgif.net/devilish/flying_dragon_e0.gif
Jill's Dragon is flaming the beast! You go girl!