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(Message started by: NancyMcFree on Aug 28^th, 2002, 7:23pm)

Title: Prayers
Post by NancyMcFree on Aug 28^th, 2002, 7:23pm

I am 45 years old; my husband is also 45. Up until 5 months ago our life was average/normal/in- control. We were both healthy as horses; my husband is more fit (working out every day) than anyone else I know. And then .....

My husband went for a routine checkup. Like most guys he put it off, telling me it was just a waste of money. Don;t ask me why but I made him go. That was on April 1st. I'll remember the date forever. Within a month we found out that he had HEP C. It explained even though why he was fit at a fiddle to look at he had no appetite and no energy even though he took good care of himself. Within the next month I started having panic attacks (don't know if any of you have ever had these but they range like clusters on the kip scale; from ;the out of body experience; to ;something you never want to experience). Things with my husband spiraled downward as we found out that he also had stage three cirrhosis (and never was a drinker) and that they also suspected cancer.

I tried Paxil for the anxiety knowing that I had no control anymore, and that my best friend was not well. The Paxil did not work real well for me. I have always been really susceptible to drugs and while most people can probably take this it made me way toooooo high;. I quit the Paxil and within a month had the first cluster of my life. With a good doctor and a good PC I landed here.

God was watching over me as He led me to this site. I have found so much relief here. It’s really hard when you want to be up for your spouse but feeling down yourself. Thanks for all your support.

My husband goes for his next cancer check on Wed. Sept. 4th. I am asking for your payers that things work out. The really funny part of this is ; if he has cancer he is eligible for a transplant ; if he doesnt have cancer then he will go on the standard HEP C meds, which the doctor already told us will probably not work since he is stage 3 cirrhosis. At stage 4 he immediately will become eligible for the transplant. I;ll let God figure out what is best; all I can ask you to do is pray.

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by ChristineL on Aug 28^th, 2002, 7:30pm

Dear Nancy,

I am so sorry to hear of your troubles. Life sucks sometimes and just know that all of us are here for you in any capacity we can be.

My prayers and thoughts are with you.

Chris L

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by domm on Aug 28^th, 2002, 7:35pm

Nancy - my prayers are for you and your man.
domm

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by catlind on Aug 28^th, 2002, 7:56pm

Nancy, you've got my good vibes and thoughts and support with you and your hubby. I'd offer my own for transplant but it's prolly in worse shape than his ;)

Sometimes things happen for a reason, you finding us will hopefully help you through this difficult time in your lives.

*hugs*
Cat

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by 2late on Aug 28^th, 2002, 8:11pm

vibes on the way,hang in there, things seem to alway's work out for the best, good luck. .............2late

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by NancyMcFree on Aug 28^th, 2002, 8:35pm

I am gonna make sure this mesage stays stuck to the top .... for those of you that don't pray ... then friggin face east or west/cause some God will notice ... I flat out refuse to let my husband go down with no one knowing.

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by Drk^Angel on Aug 28^th, 2002, 8:42pm

Sorry to hear about the rough time you and yours have been facing lately. You're in my thoughts and wishes...

PFDAN........................... Drk^Angel

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by Melissa on Aug 28^th, 2002, 9:00pm

Nancy dear, my thoughts are with you and your husband. Wish there was something more I could say to ease the worry on you...

Mel

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by Margi on Aug 28^th, 2002, 9:12pm

You're absolutely right, Nancy. It's time to give it to God. There's strength in numbers, so we're all doing that with you now.

Please let us know how the test goes.

hugs,

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by sailpappy on Aug 28^th, 2002, 9:59pm

;D ;D Nancy,
You sounded like a wonderful person that was scared out of her witts and the facts that have been unfolding for you and your husband, You know that you are only about the 4th person that has ever felt compelled to call me and it helped me more than it did you , Arrgggg Me thinkists, It was hard for me to honost with you about the facts surrounding this incidous decease. As I told you, there is a Secret, that I revealed to you and a few of my close friends here on the board.
I guess this is the perfect place and time for me to share my secret with everyone of my relatives that are here in our ""Giant Family""here at CH.com
While you are praying for Nancy and her Husband, could you also add a little bit in there for me too!
I really thought that I was gaining on this monster, all the rest and the food regime, coming off the higher dosages of the pain medication and fighting with all my heart and soul against this Brother Demon or the Cluster Monster. I started to think that I was feeling stronger, a little more energetic, but Alas, I have been fooling myself.
I went in and had my own viral load tested a few weeks ago, it was a year ago in March and I just knew that the numbers would bear out my thoughts of winning this battle, a year ago I had a Viral Load of 660,000, Well things have a way of going off course when your in a vessel with no one at the helm!
I guess, while I was sleeping and enjoying the first year of being pain free for the first time in my life of the past 33 years and able to actually sleep for more than 20-45 minutes at a time every night, the Demon moved in and took over, My new surprize and the Secret that the Special Friends already know is that my Viral load is up to 9.3 million.
I'm not giving up by any means but the only higher space on the chart is the VERY HIGH Catagory and most don't make it into this area at all!
I am going to alter a few things and try harder to fight this off, I am increasing the Detoxification herbs I take to help clean my liver and stimulate new cell growth, I'm going to tie up all of my remaining lose ends and I'm going to spend as much time doing fun things with my Family as possible, those little things like playing Candy Land with Trysten(5yrs. old) walking on the beach at sunset with Terri and the Grandkids, and getting all the video's onto CD.s for the Kids, rolling around on the floor and wrestling and laughing up a storm with Heaven(9yrs. old) and helping my 17 yr. old daughter prepair for the enevitable!
I only wish I could get a biopsy done so I would know about the same cancer issue you are concerned about, but my Protyme is so far off that they say I would bleed out from a biopsy.
Then in all that extra spare time(LOL!) I am going to Pray,Pray,Pray and Pray some more!
So there you have it everyone, no more secret, living on borrowed time already, Love you all! Pappy
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Title: Re: Prayers
Post by BobG on Aug 28^th, 2002, 10:05pm

A pair of prayers being sent from our house.

One to Nancy

and one to Sailpappy.

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by Ree on Aug 28^th, 2002, 10:27pm

We're all here with you Nancy and you too Sail Pappy... it was so nice to speak to you last night... thanks for that... and Nancy thankyou for trusting us with your story... We will take it to God with us as well in our prayers. I've seen prayer work wonders in my life time hope it works for yours... love and peace to you Ree

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by Mastifflvr28 on Aug 29^th, 2002, 12:05am

VIBES
VIBES
and more VIBES
Going out to both of your families.
You guys are the TOUGHEST people!!
Mast

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by NancyMcFree on Aug 29^th, 2002, 6:05am

Thanks for all the prayers so far ... Pappy ... you were put on my prayer list after I received your first note !!! Ah yes, this world may be littered with disease but it is also filled with WONERFUL people. Keep those prayers coming and I'll keep you posted.

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by Jim R on Aug 29^th, 2002, 6:50am

My neverending prayers to Nancy and hubby and Sailpappy....Jim R

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by Cin on Aug 29^th, 2002, 8:08am

Nancy, sometimes life brings us more than we can handle, I'm praying for you and your husband.

Sail, Please know I'm here for you also, you have been a big help to many on this board= kindness. Praying**

Hugs,
Cin

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by kim on Aug 29^th, 2002, 8:08am

Nancy and Sailpappy,

You are both in my thoughts and prayers.

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by echo on Aug 29^th, 2002, 8:31am

Nancy , Sorry to read what has been handed your way. I will most certainly include you and your hubby in my talks with the higher power. I include this family in general, and certain others in specific. That specific list will include you, your hubby and sailpappy.

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by Jim R on Aug 29^th, 2002, 8:59am

PS Nancy: For years I suffered from panic attacks too. I have been on valium, serax, and a number of other tranquilizers. Finally, they just went away, so there is hope... PFDAN's to you, sis. - Jim R

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by nancyc on Aug 29^th, 2002, 9:18am

Praying for Your husband and sailpappy...also for you and Terri (Pappy's wife)...Sometimes life does not seem fair . :)nancyc

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by SFChris on Aug 29^th, 2002, 9:45am

Positive eneregy being sent from San Francisco to both of you and your families.

Chris

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by kelly_dawn on Aug 29^th, 2002, 2:49pm

nancy,

as you know i dont believe in god, and as we talked about our beliefs and how we percieve things on the phone you understand my reasons, but you have faith and thats amazing, i dont know what to say, i am dumbstruck, you and your husband sound like wonderful people and i am going to do something i never thought i would do, i will face south, east, north and frigging west and if there is a god out there i will pray to him, for you and your husband and your daughter. i will say it everynight before i go to my bed.

dear god(wherever you are)

i want a word with you about nancy and her husband they are good people and they need your help, i dont pray much so my technique is a little rusty but please help them, they need you now in there time of crisis.

love kelly_dawn.

nancy i will pray for you and i will be serious and genuine about it and i hope you have good news, special people like you and yours deserve the best from life,
all my love and thoughts

kelly_dawn

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by NancyMcFree on Aug 29^th, 2002, 4:24pm

You guys are the best !!!! And Kelly_Dawn ... I just knew I could get you to say a prayer !!!!

When bad things happen there usually is a reason ... I know my clusters brought me here which has been a blessing.

My husband is a fighter and has a great attitude ... that in itself sometimes can beat the beast.

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by pjbgravely on Aug 30^th, 2002, 4:30pm

Sorry to hear someone else has problems stacked on top of one anouther like my family. Keep trusting in the lord for all of your needs. I wish I new the reason why some of us are push passed the breaking point with trials. My wife has panic attacks and has learned to ignore them and have faith that they are not going to kill you. It takes lots of practice with many failures. Praise God for getting diagnose's for the illnesses. Its even harder when the doctors don't have any idea whats wrong. I will add you to my prayer list.

Title: Re: Prayers
Post by kim on Aug 30^th, 2002, 5:22pm

Faith manifests itself in each of our hearts in its own way, in its own time. Nancy, hearts and prayers to you. I'm 45. A life lived (in any fashion) is what was intended. It is the learning that happens along the way that we take with us. Nothing is a "given". I think if we each of us took that moment to stretch out a hand rather than suck in a premature thought or opinion, we'd all be "In the Faith".

there is an answer. it is the question that we stumble over.
silly ole goofeball............. :)

PS: 41! Damnit when will I remembe how the hell old I am? ??? ;D