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KingOfPain
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By CHmess.......For Her
« on: Jan 9th, 2004, 12:19pm » |
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First I'll give you a little background on where this comes from. Last night at 2:00am my little 3 year old daughter crawled in bed between me and my husband and fell right to sleep. Of course then I couldn't sleep...so I just laid there just watching her knowing she was right where she wanted to be - I thanked God that she was able to feel that kind of comfort in her life! I started to think about those people that have committed suicide from the throes of a Kip 10.......We've all been there. We've all wished at some point that someone would just blow our heads off to stop the pain...right....so this is what I was doing at 2:30 this morning................
Title: maybe "The Suicide Headache" but not tonight!
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For Her
I almost lost my fight last night.
I couldn't stand the pain.
I didn't have the strength to do it anymore.
I went to my bedroom and closed the door.
Searching for the gun, I began to cry.
Screaming to God, "Why Me? WHY?"
I didn't want to feel this pain again!
Still searching, I said a prayer and then Amen.
Then all of a sudden from down the hall...
I heard a tiny voice, "Mommy, I need you!" she called.
I fell to my knees in tears.
What I almost did was more than I could bare.
I ran to her bed and held her tight.
Remembering why I had to win this fight!
God showed me last night, I had to learn.
It's not for me to decide when death is my turn!
CHmess 01-09-04
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This is so good, I had to share it (with permission by
CHmess). She was too modest to post it.
Way To Go CHmess!
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #1 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 12:32pm » |
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Wow! Awesome... Thank you for sharing this.
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #2 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 12:58pm » |
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Well - a little birdie (KingOfPain) told me yesterday that I could write a poem - he said it was easy.... I said - I'de be better off dancing than trying to write a poem. And then this is what happened when I couldn't get back to sleep last night - I was awake from 2:00am-3:00am and I didn't even have a CH -  anyway I shared it with him to see what he thought and he REALLY wanted to post it, so I let him
He titled it for me --- and for me its a little girl (3 of them actually) that remind me to stay strong - for others it might be something else but I think most of us can relate!!!
PAIN FREE DAYS TO ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!
THANK YOU KING OF PAIN FOR ALL THAT YOU DO ON THIS BOARD!!!!!!!!!!
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #3 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 1:03pm » |
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That is so beautiful! Sure does make you think. Doesn't it?
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #4 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 1:06pm » |
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Cheese and Rice! Now I'm crying at work.
That was great.
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #5 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 1:09pm » |
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on Jan 9th, 2004, 12:58pm, CHmess wrote:
He titled it for me --- and for me its a little girl (3 of them actually) that remind me to stay strong - for others it might be something else but I think most of us can relate!!!
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Actually, the "For Her" was meant posting it for CHmess,
in the subject area: By CHmess.......For Her
It came to me after that For Her might be a good title for the poem.
She agreed.
So now, off I go to edit the post/poem to include the title.
You are welcome CHmess.
Thank you too.
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #6 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 1:12pm » |
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #7 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 1:25pm » |
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That was.... well more then words can say...
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #8 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 3:09pm » |
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AWSOME!!!!
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« Reply #9 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 3:10pm » |
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That's wonderful!!
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #10 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 4:16pm » |
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Chmess,
What a beautiful,heartfelt and yet heart wrenching poem.I believe you put into words what most ch sufferers go through. I am so glad glad you can remember your children during these times .I just wanted you to know how much I loved your poem. Thank you KOP for encouraging her to write and share it.I enjoy your writing too.wish I had some talent. 
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #11 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 4:20pm » |
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Minnie, thank you and - I didn't think I had it in me either so if you ever can't sleep and your brain starts to go....grab a pencil cuz you never know....
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #12 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 6:29pm » |
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That was awsome!  ! I too have children. Four of them! They are what get me through everything! I am an episodic and currently PF. I haven't had a CH in almost a month but I still don't know if I can sleep through the night because I don't get the opportunity to find out.  If it's not the beast, it's one little person or another! Sometimes i get frustrated at not getting any sleep, but the truth is....I wouldn't want it any other way. If they wake me then it's a blessing, that I am still here with them and they are still here with me
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« Reply #13 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 6:45pm » |
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on Jan 9th, 2004, 4:20pm, CHmess wrote:Minnie, thank you and - I didn't think I had it in me either so if you ever can't sleep and your brain starts to go....grab a pencil cuz you never know....
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That rhymes too, you are gettin' at this, kiddo...
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #14 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 6:47pm » |
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If not for the innocent, what would we do?
Good work.
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #15 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 9:26pm » |
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #16 on: Jan 9th, 2004, 9:46pm » |
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That was great. It is an incredible feeling to see your child sleep safely next to you in bed. Knowing that you are their world and that no one can fill their hearts like you do. It gives us an inconceivable strength to go on. Doesn't it?? I love being the one my children feel such peace with. They give me such a wonderful peace in return. They give me alot of other things, too, but that is another story!
I enjoyed your poem, and will think of it every time I look at my children asleep next to me.
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #17 on: Jan 10th, 2004, 10:39am » |
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I just wanted to say THANKS to all of your for your kind words!!!!!!!
PFDAN's to EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!
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« Reply #18 on: Jan 14th, 2004, 8:49am » |
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Bumping in case someone missed this 
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« Reply #19 on: Jan 14th, 2004, 6:45pm » |
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Bumpin' for the night people.
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Re: By CHmess.......For Her
« Reply #20 on: Jan 14th, 2004, 6:58pm » |
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Lovely, CHmess.....thanks for sharing.
And...thank you KOP for encourging everyone...all the time...
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