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Jill
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Damn this beast.....
« on: Feb 25th, 2003, 7:25am » |
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That is all......
Sorry guys, had to get that out there. Seems to do nothing when you say "damn you" over and over and over and over to yourself.... 
It is just five in the morning here and I must have done something wrong to be being hit like this ???.....lucky to have a ten minute or so break between hits. Just great... 
Sorry and there is no real need to reply, just needed to get that out..... 
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #1 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 7:38am » |
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I feel your pain. I battled one last night and I feel one ramping up right now...
Hang int here, Jill.
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #2 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 10:03am » |
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Jill, tough night, darlin' ? I want you to reread Fubar's posts to you from the other day. He's talking directly to YOU there-so, please darlin' reread.
And, yknow what? You are sooo right....
DAMN THE BEAST!
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #3 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 10:49am » |
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Oh Cathi......
Not sure if you will see this or check back but I did reread Fubar's post......not a good day at all.... 
The beast keeps striking and I am tired.....  and I cant help but wonder why life has to be so cruel sometimes..
I remember what you say, I hear what you say but....geesh...could it get easier?
Anyways, that is all...well....besides......DAMN THE BEAST!
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"If you learn from your suffering and really come to understand the lesson you were taught you might be able to help someone else who is now in the phase. Maybe that is what its all about after all.."
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« Reply #4 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 11:05am » |
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Okay, Jill....I agree, DAMN THE BEAST!!!!!!
Now, who's gonna win this round? You ARE!!!!!!!
GRRRRRRRRR! Damn the beast!
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« Reply #5 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 12:07pm » |
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Jill
I was right up there with you last night. I keep sun glasses with me at all times. Looks weird to were them indoors during the day but when the beast pays a visit knocking out the light really helps.
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #6 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 2:07pm » |
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BASTARD BEAST, BASTARD BEAST, BASTARD BEAST, BASTARD BEAST
Sorry Jill, try to be strong, in this site you are in the right place. I think of you and I will pray because the beast leave you soon.
Ciao, Zaira 
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #7 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 2:14pm » |
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...DAMN THE BEAST
Sorry your still getting hit....
Stay strong....man made no material as resilient as the human spirit.....and you guys prove it day and night..wishing you all PFDAN's
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #8 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 3:49pm » |
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Hang in there babe! IT WILL PASS!
Lots of good wishes coming your way from New Zealand.
Just live one minute at a time hon! That way you'll get a few good ones.........
Lotsalove and hoping you have a very much better day today
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« Reply #9 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 3:54pm » |
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Hang in there Jill. Wish there was something more I could do for you. Thanks for letting us know how it's going for you. Hopefully the SOB will get bored with you and move on SOON!
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #10 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 3:55pm » |
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I've seen the beast pass by a lot of times! Know what you're going through.
Hang in there, and in the meanwhile: live life to the fullest!
Supports from Belgium
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #11 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 4:21pm » |
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Hang in there girl. That damn beast just refuses to leave you the hell alone but I know there will come a time soon when he will leave and be just a bad memory to you.
Wish I could give you a big hug,
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #12 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 9:35pm » |
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Hey Jill,
We talked by email today, but I just want to tell you to hang in there tomarrow is almost here. Talk to you tomarrow night when you get home. Love ya.
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #13 on: Feb 25th, 2003, 10:45pm » |
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I hope yer fellin better....seems ta me you've had 'more' then yer share of all this.....Pam
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #14 on: Feb 26th, 2003, 4:27am » |
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hang in there jill!
can't even type properly because of this FUCKING HEADACHE
can't sleep - sooo tired
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT
love from belgium
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #15 on: Feb 26th, 2003, 8:17am » |
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Hang on tight Jill, The end is hopefully near.
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #16 on: Feb 26th, 2003, 8:35am » |
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Jill,
Don't want this to sound insensitive in any way but having that attitude might only make you feel worse. You did nothing wrong to deserve this. You just have it and have to deal with it. Thinking like that will only make things harder on you.
I used to be exactly like you and now I have come to terms with my condition and have decided that I will deal with it. No one likes to suffer, but if you have to what else can you do but try and be positive.
Have you tried oxygen and/ or shrooms? If you haven't, at least give oxygen a shot. If not, then what are you waiting for?
I got great advice from someone here who made me realize that dealing with CHs is probably 80% psychological...
Try to be positive. 
Good Luck.
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #17 on: Feb 27th, 2003, 1:50pm » |
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First, I want to thank everyone for their kind words, so many times a bit of encouragement can go a long way.
Now, I wasnt going to say anything regarding the last post but I cant help it. I am sorry if I offend anyone, that is not my intention but I need to say this.....
on Feb 26th, 2003, 8:35am, das wrote:
I used to be exactly like you and now I have come to terms with my condition and have decided that I will deal with it. No one likes to suffer, but if you have to what else can you do but try and be positive. |
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Deal with it? ??? I am trying to deal with it but it is not easy, in no means. I know that we have discussed this before and I remember what I was told, I always will but to be positive. When this first began, before they got so much worse, I was positive that it would end. Now everytime my hope is renewed, it is vengence time....I get hit harder. Sometimes I wonder how that is possible but it is.
It seems to me that those with positive attitudes are the lucky ones or the ones that have adapted better. Maybe I have not... Hell, I had to give up school this semester and because I have been in and out of hospitals so much, I dont even want to major what I was majoring in.
on Feb 26th, 2003, 8:35am, das wrote:
Have you tried oxygen and/ or shrooms? If you haven't, at least give oxygen a shot. If not, then what are you waiting for? |
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As for the oxygen, I have tried that numerous times but to no avail. As far as the shrooms, I hate them and have made promises not to go there unless that is the very last option. I also have imitrex injections and maxalt that once used to ease the pain but now no longer work.
on Feb 26th, 2003, 8:35am, das wrote:| I got great advice from someone here who made me realize that dealing with CHs is probably 80% psychological... |
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Now this, maybe this is just me and if that is the case than I am sorry, but this offended me some. 80% psychological...... ??? Reminds me of the doctor that told me that I need psychological help because I bang my head when I am in enough pain . If this were that, then wouldnt we be able to control it better? Maybe it is true that I fight harder when out because I dont want others to see me, even though it is exhausting, and cave in faster when in a secure place. That to me is something totally different though.
I am sorry for how this sounds and I am sorry if I offended anyone.
Thanks to all.
Jill
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #18 on: Feb 27th, 2003, 2:01pm » |
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on Feb 27th, 2003, 1:50pm, Jill wrote:I am sorry for how this sounds and I am sorry if I offended anyone.
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Nothing to apologize about here. It all sounds good to me (well, besides the pain, of course). That was a good post. I know your struggling with this all. But you are very strong, Jill. I see it in many ways, although I know you don't believe me on that. But it's true. Keep that fight going.
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« Reply #19 on: Feb 27th, 2003, 2:58pm » |
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Jill-
You words are perfect. Once again, nothing to be sorry about. For someone to have been dealing for an entire year, at full impact, as you have, I'd say you should be pretty ragged by now-but you're concerned about offending? That's Jill, for ya!!!
I do hope the pain clinic & the Neuro will get together to find you SOME relief, soonest.
Till then, keep posting your thoughts.
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Re: Damn this beast.....
« Reply #20 on: Feb 27th, 2003, 4:35pm » |
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Jill, I wouldn't have lasted two weeks with your attacks. I would have lost it for sure. You are very strong to have survived this long without any abortives. Also if that smile between attacks doesn't mean you are positive then what does.
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