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At a loss...
« on: Mar 25th, 2007, 8:07am » |
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I'm sick of it.
Headaches morphing...
$60-$100 of trex a day...
Getting woke up...
That sweaty ass masx...
The guy at the welding shop... (the Usual?)
Getting hit everytime I get to a restaurant...
Telling people about it...
Explainining...
The looks...
The eyes...
Their sighs...
The stabbing...
The crushing glass...
The scraping...
The burning...
The boring...
The nails that dance...
The HA in the A.M....
The HA at night...
Then the next one.
The short fuse...
And the sleep I lose...
I'm so fu(king sick of this...
Emotions join physiology...
Depression creeps in after a while,
no matter how well managed the pain might be.
It's a marathon after all...
Something like 20 months, 20 days, 20 hrs, 20 min's, 20 seconds...
This time maybe...
20% of my LIFE...
All of it...
Collectively, day and night from 1970, added up, chopped up, diced up in pain...
It's gotta be...
Just like my brain...
And finally it gets to me and I cry...
OK, thank GOD...
Finally it's gone...
"Thanks for not letting it kill me"...
I feel like I just had sex...
Sigh... ... ...
I wipe the tears from my eyes...
It feels so good now...
The absence is so...
You know???
I feel better now...
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Re: At a loss...
« Reply #1 on: Mar 25th, 2007, 8:38am » |
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I can't believe that I have to bang my
Head against this wall again
But the blows they have just a little more
Space in-between them
Gonna take a breath and try again.
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