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Changes in Attitude ...
« on: Jul 15th, 2007, 1:16pm » |
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"... changes in attitude! ..."
Hello All,
First off I want to apologize for the disgrace I caused this site and myself a few months back, as well as the turmoil I caused to so many. I'm extremely sorry and can only hope for forgiveness to all I put through to anyone who had to deal with my stupidity. I could make "excuses" that may be valid, but in reality, they would only be self serving and therefore in a certain way, still not worthy of my behavior on this site.
I hope with all I have in me that you'll understand just a little ... just enough to accept me back into the "Family". I hope to start a clean slate with EVERYONE.
I joined this board back in 1999 and was helped along by many caring people who are still here today. (Thank you all!)
I then tried my best to follow those leads and help others in anyway I could. Over the years as my health drained in other areas aside from CH, so did my outlook on life, much of which I started to lay on my family here ... much of which I regret with all sincerity, it was not fair to any of you. I never thought of any of my posts as using anyone as puppets for my "woe is me" posts, but can understand if it came across that way and have no hard feelings to those who saw it that way ... I was in the wrong any way I can see even by myself.
What I want you all to know is that I want to return to the person you once knew. I'm not looking for pity or "congats", my faith in life is renewed and "I will formally say I will not let you down again." (You can bookmark that!) 
I'll be following up this note with a post called "Changes in Lattitude" to explain what I feel I need to do to fight and progress in my life by faith in God and maybe ... "get by with a little help from my friends."
I do still have trouble writing and have to use "Word" to get a message out, so please understand my responses may be slow.
I hope you can find forgiveness, except my apology to ALL, and hopefully accept me back into this family.
Either way, I still want to thank you all for all the support over the years ... that support has kept me going far more than any medications or doctors could have ever even come close to!
Love ya All, and God Bless ya,
Dave
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Re: Changes in Attitude ...
« Reply #1 on: Jul 15th, 2007, 2:40pm » |
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on Jul 15th, 2007, 2:15pm, sldrswyfe wrote:My arms are open...
I don't know what you did/said...so it doesn't matter to me...Obviously you were in a bad place...and your spirit was broken. Im sure you'll be forgiven.
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Re: Changes in Attitude ...
« Reply #2 on: Jul 15th, 2007, 2:58pm » |
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Thanks Sherri,
I went and made this post before reading the boards and then saw it was Convention time ... oops!
I've been to several of these meetings and from looking at the "pics page" I see so many friends I miss so much it's beyond expression!
As far as what I feel I did wrong to our family here ... well ... let's just say I went way to far in self pity and posted messages that put my friends here in a tough situtation on how to deal with it. I accept full responsibility for that and the family did what they thought best. Had no beef with anyone here, just my ignorance landed me a day in jail and 3 more in a ward were the patients and "docs" should of been on the other side of the glass 
That expericence is far from my attitude adjustment ... this site is my home and I'm sure if I had confided in my family here sooner, I wouldn't have gone over the edge like I did.
My days are about to become very busy ... finally
Which should be a good thing as too much sitting back and not fighting every single day leads to thoughts that are not heathly. I'm on a quest now, a quest to fight with all I have to move forward in life with a positive outlook for the future and with the support from new friends like you and the many I'm sure I still have out there ... I have nothing but high spirits with me.
Nice to meet you and God Bless you for the support!
PFDAN Always,
Dave
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Re: Changes in Attitude ...
« Reply #3 on: Jul 15th, 2007, 3:29pm » |
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KOP ... good to hear from you again, feel like I've been away far too long. I'm going to skip "Word" and see how I do writing "on the fly" 
Not much to say anyway right now until I can write my next new post about how I hope to change my future, but just want to let Sherri, you and another new supporter in Ray (thanks), how much I appeciate and already am starting to feeling like I'm home again.
Thanks All ! 
Dave
(Think I'll go in and put back up my "quote" from my early days I had long before this "new board" started that was much more positive.) 
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« Reply #4 on: Jul 15th, 2007, 5:51pm » |
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Glad you're here Dave and you have nothing to worry about with us.
Nice posts by the way and thanks for your updates.
Anyway; you sound good and I hope you can keep on posting.
Hang on Dave.
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Re: Changes in Attitude ...
« Reply #5 on: Jul 15th, 2007, 7:33pm » |
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. dave iam new here, n dont respond much, but glad to read better spirits. rave on. andrew.
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« Reply #6 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 12:30am » |
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on Jul 15th, 2007, 3:29pm, Dave_Emond wrote:| Not much to say anyway right now until I can write my next new post about how I hope to change my future, |
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Oh my ... I really can't wait to read about how you hope to change your future.  ( Actually, it sounds like quite a boring post ). Maybe you should start a BLOG somewhere else for that kind of stuff. This is a cluster headache message board. I, for one, am not interested in reading about your personal problems that really have nothing to do with CH. I've got enough problems of my own without having to read about all your problems.
Sorry if I sound blunt ... just expressing how I feel
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« Reply #7 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 3:33am » |
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Welcome back Dave. Glad to "see" you around.
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Re: Changes in Attitude ...
« Reply #8 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 5:30am » |
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Glad to see you back and sounding healthy Dave. Hows the CH coming along?
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Re: Changes in Attitude ...
« Reply #9 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 6:28am » |
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Hi Dave,
I rather new here,don't know what you did that would require all that apologizing,but I can't imagine it could be all that bad.Welcome back.Everyone deserves a second chance.
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« Reply #10 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 7:06am » |
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I am so happy to see you back Dave
You are one of us,no question about that
Happysmile here on the oposite side of the pond to see you back
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Re: Changes in Attitude ...
« Reply #11 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 11:55am » |
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Hey there Dave! Good to see ya. When are going to visit Henderson?
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Re: Changes in Attitude ...
« Reply #12 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 12:12pm » |
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Welcome back, Dave.
Best wishes,
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Re: Changes in Attitude ...
« Reply #13 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 12:13pm » |
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Thanks All !
I really appreciate all of your support and the "Welcome Back's". I strayed quite a bit so it means much to me. (taraann ... thanks for the letters over this rocky time and I'm so glad to see things worked out fine, it was nice to hear that I could still help someone even in the smallest way ... very encouraging!)
UnSolved ... no problem, my other post may well indeed turn out to be boring to some, but not to me. Yes, fighting chronic CH will be a major factor ... but if anyone still has questions about my trustworthiness ... I understand completely and will hold no grudge.
I hope you and everyone else here only the best in our attemps to beat this beast or anything else that ails us.
Take care all and thanks to all of you,
Dave
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« Reply #14 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 12:30pm » |
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on Jul 16th, 2007, 12:30am, UN solved wrote:
Oh my ... I really can't wait to read about how you hope to change your future. ( Actually, it sounds like quite a boring post ). Maybe you should start a BLOG somewhere else for that kind of stuff. This is a cluster headache message board. I, for one, am not interested in reading about your personal problems that really have nothing to do with CH. I've got enough problems of my own without having to read about all your problems.
Sorry if I sound blunt ... just expressing how I feel
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Let me get this straight... you can post how you feel how Dave shouldn't post about his feelings.
I'm glad to see Dave didn't take the bait... I wasn't thrilled about what happened either, but I don't feel a burning need to attack Dave for it. Cut the guy a break for cryin' out loud.
Just sayin'... peace.
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« Reply #15 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 12:32pm » |
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Hey Bob!
From my first days ever posting here so many years ago you were there for me helping me to try to understand CH and we spent many many nights talking and working on those "blue" threads
My father had moved to Henderson not long ago and died soon after. But, his wife still lives there and I've considered much on how I could get down there to visit her ... now I have two reasons to see if I can get there! Mainly worried about Nevada as I love to gamble, although good at it (Poker & BlackJack) still a risk it's best I avoid. But, if I can curb my urges, find a good route in and out, I'll find one and we can get together for a visit. I'll look into it, would be great!
I'll get back in touch with ya,
Take care,
Dave
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Re: Changes in Attitude ...
« Reply #16 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 1:49pm » |
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Dave  and all the best.......Tim
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« Reply #17 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 10:11pm » |
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Hello Dave
This is Annette ( prev known as BB ) I met you briefly when you were going through your last crisis and I was really worried about you. In fact I had thought about you often since then wondering how you were going, whether you were getting the right kind of help that you so desperately needed. Therefore I am personally glad beyond words to see you back and having a new positive atttitude.
Life can be cruel and things can go wrong at the worst time possible and sometimes we are just not equipped with what it takes to deal with the problems at hand.
Remember please Dave to reach out for help before things get to the critical point. I for one will be here for you anytime and for anything. PM or email me as often as you wish. Its a honest offer, not just being polite.
Life will be up and down and there will be some hard sailing no matter how positive one feels, but hang on and hang tough, it will pass. There are friends here.
Take care and painfree wishes to you.
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Re: Changes in Attitude ...
« Reply #18 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 10:28pm » |
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Dave:
I am so happy to hear from you! I've been thinking and praying about you.
I can't imagine the extent of what you're experiencing, but having had some pretty bad times, I do know the hopeless and futile feelings that go through your head.
You have had several offerings of contact should you like to do so, and I extend the same. No one should go off feeling alone.......expecially when they have a support system the size that you do. I will e-mail you a phone number to add to your lifeliine.
Be careful, my dear friend and don't keep us wondering how you are. It's not nice!
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Re: Changes in Attitude ...
« Reply #19 on: Jul 16th, 2007, 10:49pm » |
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Dave,
Don't worry about it.
Happy people don't need to have fun.
It's a choice... no matter what.
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