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Checking In
« on: Apr 24th, 2007, 4:30pm » |
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Hello my friends. If you would indulge me for a moment I need to begin to rip down some of these walls I have built around myself by giving you all a short explanation about what has been going on with me.
Some people leave this board when they are feeling good and don't need the support that is offered here. I left because things went very downhill for me and I did not want to stay around and be a big bummer. I found myself in short order withdrawing from email, phone conversations and outside contact.
I have no idea why or how but about 3 months ago I started to notice that I was becoming depressed and unhappy. I didn't know why as I have had 20 yrs. to get used to the mind f##K that clusters are and if anything I was having a slightly better time HA wise. I had never had anything like this happen before and was blindsided by a deep despair and dark thoughts that seemed much stronger then my conscious efforts to "get over it". Thank God that my Linda remained strong and very patient while turning down every suggestion that she should get off the ship while she still could. With her help and that of some new doctors I am beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel again.
I do not want to write a book here but just to touch bases and let you all know that even while seemingly gone my thoughts, prayers, vibes and best wishes have been with you every day. Thanks to all who have not removed me from their mailing lists and for PM's sent but unanswered.
I will be getting back in the swing of things and will try to be much more responsive.
Lizzie, you are a gem 
Elaine and Pattik, thanks so much for the cards
Cyn and Mel and Helen and Annette 
Linda, I don't need to tell you how I feel about you.....do I ?
Jean, we are heading your way before the summer is out 
Vibes and best wishes to everyone  ........Tim
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Re: Checking In
« Reply #2 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 4:43pm » |
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Keep your chin up. Thanks for letting us know what's going on. You have my number and when you need to, please feel free to use it.
with warm regards,
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« Reply #3 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 5:13pm » |
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Oh Tim, thank you so much for checking in.
You don't owe us any explanation, but there hasn't been a day go by, that I haven't thought about you and wondered if you were o.k. so it was great that you let us know.
Depression and what it does to our lives is almost as bad as the CH themselves. Good for Linda that she is sticking by your side in this. Every day it will get better.
Big huge hugs coming to you via the fastest winds.
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« Reply #4 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 5:23pm » |
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So good to hear from you, tanner.....been wondering about you.
Hang in there, Sweetie.....we'll hang with you!!
Love to you and your bride...
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« Reply #5 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 5:30pm » |
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« Reply #6 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 5:56pm » |
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Good to hear from you, Tim!!!!!!
My thoughts are with you and Linda.
Hang tough buddy!
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« Reply #7 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 7:16pm » |
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Tim----you can beat anything----be extremely strong !!!
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« Reply #8 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 7:46pm » |
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Good to hear from you, Tim. Jean was asking me about you the other day on the phone.
Hope things continue to improve. Sometimes the damned road gets pretty dark.
We've missed you around here.
Best wishes,
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« Reply #9 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 7:56pm » |
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Depression sucks.
Very glad to hear the sun is shining again.
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« Reply #10 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 8:15pm » |
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Tim we love you and we'll always be here for you, rain or shine. You don't get fair weather friends when you're amongst ch'ers.
I'll see you in July for that hug honeybun
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« Reply #11 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 8:27pm » |
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Tim, thanks for letting us know that you're okay. I'm glad you're feeling better. Please check in when you can. 
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« Reply #12 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 8:39pm » |
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We got your back, bro!!!
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« Reply #14 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 10:07pm » |
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My dearest Tim,
I am so glad to see you posting Hun.
I know you werent feeling well and no, you never need to answer my emails or PMs unless you want to, and you dont need to give me any explanation either. We understand things can go a bit downhill sometimes.
I am very much like you in that I go into hiding when I am down as well. Its like " if you have nothing good to say then say nothing"  . I know its a silly thing to think but hey, we do what we feel most comfortable doing.
So, if you feel like chatting, I am all ears. If you feel like crawling into a cave, I will stand guard ouside and pass the food and drinks and chocolates inside . You never need to thank or apologise or respond or anything.
Just be yourself Tim, I love you the way you are.
Please send my love to Linda too and a great big hug, for not leaving when she had a chance, I agree with her unwavering NO perfectly. You are awesome Linda
Lots of love and hugs from us all
Annette, Daniel, Edwyn, Andy and Happy.
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« Reply #15 on: Apr 24th, 2007, 10:49pm » |
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OMG! Thank you for checking in! That Zwibby guy has been out of control!!! You know, Tanner, I think you're the only one who can keep that East Coast wildcat in line!
Glad you're back...you are thought of often and with a lot of love and respect!
Be PF! 
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« Reply #16 on: Apr 25th, 2007, 1:26am » |
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Hi: I'm Charlie. Damn glad to know ya.
You're gonna be all right Tim.
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« Reply #17 on: Apr 26th, 2007, 3:55am » |
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It's so good to hear from you, Tim.
You've been on my prayers a lot. I hope things are getting better.
PF wishes,
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