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sandie99
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Dear Family...
« on: Jun 8th, 2006, 1:34pm » |
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... first of all, I'm sorry that I have not been around as much lately. But you've been on my thoughts and prayers as much as always.
There are some personal troubles I'm trying to deal with right now and it's taking my time. I do read occasionally and reply, but these things I'm trying to deal with occupy my time more than I'd like.
In general, I my life is fine, I suppose. CH is in remission and I'm healthy, I've been nearly six months with a wonderful man I love very much, I got to see my dear friends last weekend... the summer is here and days are warmer and sunny. There are so many things to be happy and grateful about. And you know me, I'm happy and optimistic about 99% of my time. But right now that 1% is screaming out louder than the rest.
And I feel guilty for feeling this way I do... There are so many worse of than I am. To be honest, without my family in here and my boyfriend, I have no idea where I would be right now. Yet I feel stupid...to ask your support although I need it. I coudn't ask it from mum, either. She raised me to do deal everything on my own, but I've realised that I can't. I'm not that strong.
I wish I would make more sense... I know this all shall pass, but when?
I hope that your days are sunny & bright,
Sanna
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Jasmyn
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Re: Dear Family...
« Reply #1 on: Jun 8th, 2006, 1:41pm » |
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You are a part of this family Sanna, so don't feel guilty or stupid.
Troubles come in many forms, talk, vent, anyway that makes it easier for you. We are here. 
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Re: Dear Family...
« Reply #2 on: Jun 8th, 2006, 1:44pm » |
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Thats why we are here Sanna. To help hold you up when your legs get weak. Yes, we all have our own demons, besides the one that resides in our heads. Remissions give us catch up time, but we must deal with the surge of emotions that were back burnered while focusing on getting through the pain.
We are here, and we DO understand, and we all are pulling for you.
One day at a time dear,
Pegg
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Re: Dear Family...
« Reply #3 on: Jun 8th, 2006, 1:46pm » |
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Sanna , I have missed you and your wonderful support!
"Stupid" is the last word that can conceivably be used to describe you.
Take your time and be patient and your niche in the grand scheme of things will come your way.
Congrats on the pf time and if I was not clear enough you are a wonderfully bright and shining example of what young women are supposed to be..................Tim
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Re: Dear Family...
« Reply #4 on: Jun 8th, 2006, 2:03pm » |
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Even the pillars of the family need a little shoring up from time to time. There is help here if you need it.
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Re: Dear Family...
« Reply #5 on: Jun 8th, 2006, 2:53pm » |
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Maybe you are feeling anxious because things are going so well. A lot of people cant' seem to enjoy blessings. Guilt? not sure. Anyways that is my 2 cent psychology and I hope you will feel better spiritually and mentally.
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on Jun 8th, 2006, 1:34pm, sandie99 wrote:| There are so many worse of than I am. |
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And that is NOT your fault Sanna, so don't feel guilty for having a good life while others have it rough. I've beat myself up many times because of that.
Sounds like you're going through a bout of depression right now. If it seems you can't shake it, either try a vitamin regiment (I can PM you the vitamins we lack that cause common depression) or talk to your doctor about getting on an antidepressant. It wouldn't mean you have to be on it forever.
Let me know if I can help at all, ok?
love you!
hugs,
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Re: Dear Family...
« Reply #7 on: Jun 8th, 2006, 7:36pm » |
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Glad to see that you are human too, but sorry you are not doing so well right now. No doubt you will be back on your game before long.
Until then - ((((((((((((((((((Sanna)))))))))))))))
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Re: Dear Family...
« Reply #8 on: Jun 8th, 2006, 8:04pm » |
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Sorry things aren't going well for you right now I miss you around here. hope things get better soon
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Re: Dear Family...
« Reply #9 on: Jun 8th, 2006, 8:22pm » |
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Sanna,
You are in my prayers and thoughts. Hope you are feeling happy and blessed and sunny again real soon!
Goes to show PF doesn't always mean PerFect 
Warm wishes!
Kathy
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Re: Dear Family...
« Reply #10 on: Jun 8th, 2006, 10:04pm » |
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Glad to hear that you're physically fit and we're here if you need us..............and stick around or else. 
Charlie
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